Restart in the World of Gender Reversal - Restart in the World of Gender Reversal chapter 44

44 – Lara’s Heart

I came out of the locker room and woke up the instructor who was cheating on his salary.

“What are you doing…”

I tried to speak casually like before, but after recognizing who I was, I drifted with respect.

I hurriedly grabbed the ballpoint pen as if I was working, not fooling around.

The ballpoint pen is in the opposite direction, and the mouth and attendance book are full of saliva.

“Please take a look at this.”

“Yes? This…”

The item I presented to her is the ‘Wangming Attendant’ badge.

An item that gives you immunity from all legal responsibilities that occur when you wear the badge.

It was owned by my sister in the special unit who protects me, but there are no restrictions on its use.

It’s a terrible thing that takes effect just by holding it.

I got out of the hell where I was supposed to be locked up for 48 hours.

We headed to the Heaven Hotel.

As expected, the hotel is operated by a royal company.

As soon as you enter, dozens of employees greet you at once.

“Welcome, customer. This is Heaven Hotel.”

“Where is the elevator?”

“Sorry, guest. The hotel is…hehehe.”

I’m sure you meant to say that you can’t let non-staying guests in.

In times like this, power is what you use.

I took out the badge and put it on the front desk.

My older sister, who is presumed to be a manager, sees it and is amazed as if she is out of breath.

It seems that he knows very well that it is better not to provoke him, as his personal life is at risk if he accidentally touches the person who usually carries it.

“The elevator is to the back and to the right. Do you need anything else?”

“Hmm… Please lend me the master key.”

Watching my sister take out the key and put it on the front desk with her hands shaking.

I felt sorry for nothing.

I wonder why a child like me came to the hotel with these things?

It seems that you are thinking about it hundreds of thousands of times in your head.

In an urgent situation, I wanted to play a joke.

It seems like you don’t know who I am.

“I have someone… To deal with.”

“Hee”

I spat out lines like a hitman and headed towards the direction my sister had told me about.

Anyway, he seems to know what kind of people are staying here.

-Ding-dong. The door opens.-

As I walked quickly, I was already in room 913.

I didn’t even know what to say when I went in.

No, my feelings for Lara are not something that can be blocked by worries.

You just have to act as your heart tells you.

A door lock hanging on a hard and firmly locked door

I brought the master key.

***

Runs out of the castle and locks himself in a hotel, lying hugging a teddy bear.

The reason is, again, her sister’s comment about her marriage.

However, if there is something different from the last time, it must be because I am ashamed, not because I hate it.

He brought up the story of marriage with Yuk-sama.

It was half the same as if we were already engaged, but

I wanted to take this opportunity to make it clear.

At first, cheers poured down.

Of course, that was only for a moment.

The child already had two children of the same age as her, and he was also her sister’s husband.

The moment I thought that, the sense of immorality overflowed and I began to feel unbearably nauseous.

Lily.. No Lillie and Maron.

They are infinitely kind and good children.

Isn’t this an act of betraying those children who think of me as an older sister and follow me?

Although she is an ugly older sister, she is a real older sister. Is it an acceptable act to take away such a sister’s husband?

I felt a sense of disgust for myself, even for a moment I felt a sense of joy.

And then, without saying anything, I left the castle.

Of course, I didn’t have these feelings from the beginning.

Since I ran away from the castle, the only place I could go was the Principality of Sieghart.

An exclusive maid who had no choice but to accept it at Serena’s request.

To me, Yuk-sama was not particularly special.

Serena’s older sister, who was on the verge of being euthanized due to mental illness caused by the civil war caused by the conquest of the Principality of Melis and the faction that ousted Sieghart, said that she was pregnant with a boy.

The son who performed the miracle of restoring one’s financial spirit.

The younger brother of Irina Sieghart, with whom she has been good friends since long ago.

And, the only husband of Queen Alice, her real sister.

I had a great relationship with the people around me, but none of them had a direct relationship.

Well, to put it bluntly, he’s the precious boy of the elves.

But at that time, I was just a maid, and I was in a position to take care of that child with utmost care.

Feeding milk, changing diapers, putting me to sleep…

I stuck with him for 24 hours a day, and as time went by, I thought to myself when I saw Yuk holding my hand and starting to walk.

‘Watching this child grow up has become a joy and happiness in life.’

Until this point, it was not ‘love’, but ‘admiration’.

And then there was that decisive incident.

The teddy bear I’m holding in my arms right now.

The only thing I brought back from the castle was a small teddy bear that I got from Yuk-sama.

A child who is only 3 years old said he would give me a present, and told his father

This is a doll I made by staying up all night while learning to sew.

When I received a present, it became so lovely that I cried.

After that, it became a pleasure to be with the child who became everything in my life.

You melted my cold heart with a warm smile

Sometimes he said something nasty, but at times he kindly gave me a word that became the driving force of my life.

It’s hard to imagine for me, but a child who taught me the feeling of ‘love’ that I wanted to achieve someday.

Of course, he himself would not know.

How his own actions affected me.

The child who saved me from the edge of hell when my mom disappeared at a young age and was almost used as a political tool.

Do I have any qualifications to marry such a child?

No, no.

That’s why you ran away.

Nothing will change even if I keep thinking about it.

Thinking of that, I closed my eyes to hold back the feelings that seemed like they would explode any moment.

Emotions that should be given up anyway.

I will hide it so that it will never come out again.

I concentrated my mana into one place and pulled out as much mana as I could.

About twenty.

This is enough to activate emotion magic.

Then he took out his cell phone.

The recipient is Yuk.

‘I’m sorry, Mr. Yuk. Please don’t be hurt or sad even if I come back to the castle and treat you harshly.’

I felt sadder than writing a will.

If this spell succeeds, the heart you currently have will disappear.

You won’t feel emotions like you’re seeing someone for the first time.

And I tried to press the send button.

Because I made up my mind.

But I couldn’t press it.

A part of my heart said that if I really sent this, everything would be over.

Because my weak and blunt mind stood in the way.

Yes, I did not want to be suppressed.

I didn’t know it myself, but tears flowed down my cheeks and chin.

The teddy bear was dripping… Dripping… Falling.

I felt as if Yuk-sama was stopping me from thinking like that.

Nevertheless, this time I closed my eyes.

You only get one chance, and you have to erase it properly so that you can survive without falling into brain death.

No matter how emotionally he’s lost, it’s awful not seeing him anymore.

And I activated emotion magic.

***

When you open the door and come in

I could feel the reverberation of very thick magical power.

It was as dark as when the magic circle of the hairpin was activated.

And Lara was lying on the bed crying.

I don’t know why, but…

I climbed onto the bed and lifted Lara, who was sobbing.

“Lara, what’s wrong. Please don’t cry.”

I took out her handkerchief and wiped the tears from her eyes.

But to no avail.

The tears continued to flow like an inexhaustible spring.

Only the handkerchief was damp all the time, so it had enough moisture to wring it out.

I swept down and stroked the long black hair that was a mess.

I think I need to comfort him for a while to calm down.

At that time, Lara was still sobbing, but she also hiccupped and brought her words to me.

“..Higuk…Failed.”

“What?”

“The magic that seals emotions… Hig…”

Is that the reason for the strong magic power felt in the room?

I wonder what he was trying to do by sealing his emotions.

I frowned a little and spoke oppressively.

This is 100% Lara’s fault.

“…I was going to do something. Tell me quickly.”

“Wow…”

It must have hit the mark.

Seeing how difficult it is for me to tell you, you must have tried to do something unimaginable.

“If you don’t tell me quickly, I’ll never talk to La La from now on.”

“That’s… Ugh…”

Was it too hard?

I patted the back of Lara, who started sobbing again.

I thought she was an older sister because she was 13 years older

Seeing her crying like this makes her look like a child.

The appearance is only about 15 years old, so it looks more like that.

I reflected on what was a little harsh and apologized.

“I’m sorry. Lara didn’t talk to her, so she was a little frustrated.”

“Whispering …. Actually, her feelings for Yuk … Whispering … Are going to be sealed away.”

“Is that possible?”

“…If it’s a star appraisal magic… hehehe.”

If you listen carefully, it seems that there is a magic that binds and seals all the emotions you feel for a designated person.

Because it is a sport that has a large amount of inhumane magic such as brainwashing and torture, such as manipulating or deleting emotions,

With the exception of some wizards, it seems that reading related books, let alone using them, is a serious crime.

“What is this again?”

“………..”

Lara’s cell phone was turned on and fell under her bed.

She picked it up and looked at it.

I wonder if it’s different. The recipient was me, and the message written there had more terrible words than a will.

I really didn’t want to see posts like this.

“Lala… Please don’t do this.”

“Still, I can’t betray my sister, Lili, and Marron…”

I hugged her before she could finish her sentence.

Even though it’s a small and thin arm that looks like it could break

As for Lara, who has a slender body, she could hug her to the extent that she could wear a pod.

She was a little saddened by her struggling appearance, as if she was surprised that she was suddenly hugged.

I thought it would be all right, but it seems that Lara’s heart was rotting away.

She was once hurt in her heart, and she sneaked out of the castle. Her heart, which she thought was healed in the Principality of Sieghart, was not properly healed.

Her muscles get tougher the more they tear, but not her heart.

Compared to body parts, the heart corresponds to the bones.

Once a bone is broken, even if it is treated, it will break with less impact than before the injury.

A heart that has once weakened is likely to rot and be damaged again, no matter how much it is treated.

I neglected Lara like that.

She did not even know that she had such a heart, and she laughed and happily spent it.

You should have noticed when I came to the palace because I was worried…

From then on, Lara must have been overdoing it to the point of being unbearable.

She would have come to find me even while facing her sister who hates her look.

I really am a trash guy.

Ah…

Now that I think about it.

Aren’t I an incorrigible piece of trash that I can’t get rid of?

Alice, Lily, Maron

I have a total of 3 wives, but I’m trying to make Lala also my woman.

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From my ethical point of view, this is absolutely not a normal situation.

It doesn’t matter whether it’s done intentionally or voluntarily.

And I have already made up my mind.

I would have it if I could have it.

I will never miss it.

I wouldn’t even hesitate.

What a useless worry.

Me too, Lara too.

After tidying up her head, she took it out of Lara’s arms and looked into her eyes.

She was trembling as if she didn’t like falling, but that’s not what she should be concerned about now.

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Prevent Lara’s heart from collapsing as much as possible

It’s important to make her her own.

“Lara, from now on, engrave what I am saying on her heart.”

“Yeah? That…That’s why…”

“Ugh!”

“…… Uh…”

I know what you mean.

Lara has one big mistake.

“Lara has one thing wrong with you.”

“That…What does that mean…”

“Be quiet and listen!”

“……………..”

“I have no intention of letting Lara go or giving up.

She already thought she was my girl.”

“……………..”

“But suddenly your conscience is pricked, and you try to seal your emotions and run away from me?

You thought I’d be watching that?”

“No… I didn’t mean to run away…”

“That’s right. What Lara was trying to do was to hit all the circumstances and make a decision.

When I saw her, she was trying to run away from me.”

“……………..”

“Even if Lara ran away not because of this remorse, but because she hated me and disliked me.

I have no intention of letting Lara go.”

“……………..”

“What do you mean… You understand?”

Lara didn’t say anything more about her.

I just nod my head.

I’m sure you were crying just a while ago

She is now making an expression as if she is looking forward to one person.

She had the expectation that she would affirm what she was about to say regardless of any loss or loss.

“So, does she not have to give up?”

“I won’t give up before you give up.”

“Is it not necessary to feel remorse?”

“The Queen allowed it and I gave it.”

“Isn’t it betraying Lili and Maron?”

“They already consider Lara to be next to Alice.”

“And… Again… And…”

“Mother, father, and Mr. Rain, Liri’s mother, are all grown up. Don’t worry, I already consider Lara as my wife.”

Looking at the way you keep trying to pull something out of the pod

I ended up getting a lip smack.

Now it’s not a romantic kiss like bittersweet chocolate

It’s time to show ‘obsession’ like a wild beast that won’t miss a single prey.

“Puha…”

“This is my first time.”

I didn’t do it to Alice, Lillie, or Marron.

He gave Lara a thick and sticky kiss for the first time.

It wasn’t a kiss, but something like proof of subordination.