Rockstar Again - Chapter 116



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Episode 116. The Lord of the Rings (1)

After the juniors exchanged greetings and words of encouragement and left… … .

While I was looking gloomy, Dong-sik said something.

“I told you they’re not your juniors. Honestly, I feel embarrassed to hear those guys call me senior.”

“… … Who are you going to teach when you’re just a strong bear? Why am I not your senior? I was the one holding the mic when their mom and dad didn’t even know their faces, let alone how to dock! They were just dust in the universe!”

“… … .”

“… … .”

“… … .”

Not only my brothers, but everyone in the waiting room is looking at me with a puzzled expression.

Is it because, aside from our manager hyungs and the Italian noona, there are two more stylists who have applied?

The expressions of the two older sisters who were added today are quite something to behold… … .

“Ha… … Haha… … Our Dong-ha, it’s that story again? As expected… … !”

Youngpil opens his mouth while observing the guest stylist sisters’ expressions.

“What is it that is the best?”

“Creativity doesn’t just happen. Our Dong-ha is definitely special.”

“?”

When I tilted my head, she pursed her lips and pointed to the two stylist sisters before continuing.

“At twenty-one… … is it because your brain is still fresh and inspiration and imagination are flowing out?”

under…….

I regret my brain for only understanding it vaguely.

This is… … The managers and Italian sisters who have been with me from the beginning have gotten to the point where they don’t care what I say.

Suchan was the only one who tried to understand what I was saying for a while, but then he realized that he couldn’t understand the situation and gave up.

As a result, I think I started to speak more comfortably without realizing it.

“… … Child… … C. I don’t know. I think she’s just sick… … I think so. I said it before, I’m a sick child.”

Then he turned around and lay down on the sofa.

I felt really good.

What should I say… … ?

When I come to the future, the first people I meet just recognize me as that age?

Just because you wake up the next day and turn a few hundred pages of the calendar doesn’t mean you realize you’ve aged that much, right?

Me too, I look like I’m just twenty-one.

If they were older than me, they were like older brothers or sisters to me.

however…….

If you keep repeating that kind of situation, you will suddenly have that kind of thought.

uh?

Is the 20th century moving less and less…?

So I guess he wanted to pretend to be his senior.

Don’t move to the 21st century, move to the 20th century.

So, I really want to move.

“Shall we go?”

A soft voice is heard above your head.

It’s Taeju hyung.

“… … .”

“Let’s go. We have to sing and play the guitar. The fans are waiting.”

“… … .”

“Shall I buy you a car?”

It’s like soothing a child, but… …the scale is different.

I opened my eyes slightly and asked out of the corner of my eye.

“… … Ta-da… … Actually, it was just drinking tea, right… … That’s not how it’s supposed to be done, right?”

“A car. Hold the steering wheel, step on the accelerator, and drive away.”

“You’re not just buying a model car and kicking it in, are you? It’s a real car, right?”

“Oh. Right. Should I buy it with an open lid? You choose.”

“Is this a friend’s fee… or something like that?”

“Friend fee?”

When I raise my body to look at Taeju hyung’s question, I see Taeju hyung’s face with a smile on his face.

“There’s something like that, something you get in return for playing with me. Something like that.”

“Kekekeke. Well… … that’s what I meant. But it’s not just a friend thing. I just wanted to buy you something. Thanks to Dong-ha, I can make music. And I learned things I almost never knew… … that I learned.”

This is my sister-in-law’s story.

The truth is this. Even if you say that, the relationship between the two people that has been tangled for 30 years won’t change overnight. But it seems like it’s slowly getting better.

How do you know?

Well, I know because we go together.

―Uh… … . Uh… … No. I ate… … . Yeah… … Um… … Thank you. You… … No… … . You eat too. I’ll contact you again.

I have these calls more than once a day.

Some people might say, “What’s the big deal about that?” But there’s a thing called nuance.

anyway.

The price is too high for that.

Rockstars make a lot of money, but Nureongi told me that the copyright revenue of Bitnaris and NBD9 is quite large, so I also have money.

I can’t just accept something like this.

“Brother Suchan.”

“uh?”

When I called, Suchan hyung got up like a meerkat.

“If you have paper and a pen, could you bring me some? Inju… … No, how can I take a picture if you color your hand with makeup or a pen?”

I feel better.

Still, it would be right to do this accurately.

It’s all thanks to the teachings of my older brothers, Mrs. Gu Se-ryeong, and Director Kwak Moon-gi.

Don’t trust promises easily, trust documents.

* * *

On stage.

Looking at the fans filling the seats below, Yoon Tae-joo thought.

‘Am I happy now?’

There is only one answer.

‘Yes.’

I lifted my head for a moment, holding my bass guitar, and looked up at the sky.

Because it’s indoors, the ceiling is blocked, so you can’t see the stars.

Instead of the sun, the strong light was glaring at my eyes, so I closed my eyes on my own.

Some scenes.

There are things you can only see when you close your eyes.

That’s what Yoon Tae-joo is like now.

-It’s cold.

-But we’re not hungry, right?

It’s Youngpil and Dongsik.

Her face is fresh and green without a single wrinkle.

-Look at the stars! They’re shining so brightly today.

It’s the same.

Dong-ha… … is not much different from now. He is the same except that his hair is brown.

-Brothers, let’s become the brightest stars!

‘Let’s do it… … It will be done… … .’

Dreaming, wanting, and hoping for something was definitely a privilege of youth.

You come to know it when you get older.

It has nothing to do with money.

What you want, you get and then it disappears.

We give up on things we don’t have because we don’t have them.

Yoon Tae-joo was the same way.

I couldn’t even say hello properly to the things that were getting further and further away.

Yoon Tae-joo lowered his head and opened his eyes.

You can see the hands naturally resting on the bass guitar strings.

There is also a mark of a pearl that has not yet been erased from the thumb of that hand.

-Wow! I’m getting a car! Free is the best! I’m going to get an open car!

What’s so great about not even having a license?

When I think of Dong-ha, who used to jump around as if he had never been in a bad mood, all my worries disappear and only laughter comes out.

Beyond those thoughts, the image of Dong-ha looking gloomy also came to mind.

I don’t know about other people, but.

Yoon Tae-joo seemed to know why Dong-ha was so depressed.

It must be a sense of alienation.

The distance between the me I knew and the me I am now is growing.

But that’s not an emotion you can feel in your early twenties.

It’s an emotion you learn naturally as you get older.

These are the things I feel as I live my life, reminiscing about the days of light that cannot return.

So, I feel sorry for Dong-ha who feels that way at the age of twenty-one.

On the one hand, I was envious.

I took my eyes off my hands and looked at Dong-ha. He must have felt my gaze as he looked this way and pretended to drive while smiling brightly.

‘I’m glad you’re back, Dongha.’

Yoon Tae-joo just smiled softly.

‘What have you brought back to me?’

happiness?

laugh?

rock?

On a larger scale… … music?

Old friends?

Dreaming again like in my carefree days?

There is one value that encompasses them all.

‘The heart that loves itself.’

When you start loving yourself again, you start seeing what’s around you.

You get to choose what you truly want.

Yoon Tae-joo had been working himself to death.

It was possible for him to become a ruthless monarch because he was ruthless toward himself.

At that time… …I thought I was just working myself to death.

‘I lived my life missing out on precious things.’

There is a saying.

Precious things are always closest to you.

I don’t plan on regretting or feeling sorry for the years I lived without knowing.

It’s not that I won’t reflect… … but a person’s wounds are not healed through reflection.

In the end, the best way to heal emotional wounds is to do your best.

I don’t know if I will love you now, but I will try to love you.

When you love yourself, you can see what’s around you.

The heart that loves a friend.

A heart that loves one’s past.

The heart that loves those who love themselves.

Even.

Now, for the first time ever, I feel like work is fun.

“Waaa …

The cheers grow louder in an instant.

I raised my head, wondering what Dong-ha had done again.

“Yoon Tae-joo!”

“Yoon Tae-joo!”

“Yoon Tae-joo!”

“Taeju, oppa!”

The audience in the auditorium chanting Yoon Tae-joo’s name.

Enlightenment is instantaneous.

Whether it’s a big realization or a reality check.

Yoon Tae-joo realized that the fans’ cheers were due to his right hand rising without him knowing.

I even felt embarrassed for the first time in my life.

Because I’m not used to this kind of cheering yet.

But Yoon Tae-joo did not hide behind shame.

First of all, Yoon Tae-joo is not a man who hides.

And the current Yoon Tae-joo.

‘I have something I want to do, Dong-ha.’

rock?

band?

That’s a given.

‘love.’

Yoon Tae-joo shrugged his shoulders and walked towards Dong-ha, who was smiling like a mischievous child.

“Why? Even if you tell me now that you won’t buy me a car, I can’t back down. Go back. No.”

“Dongha. Can’t we start with the astronauts?”

The original first song was Start1994.

There was no set repertoire, but I just finished arranging the songs for the day.

Lee Dong-ha smiled as he looked at Yoon Tae-joo.

“How much is the car?”

“uh.”

however.

Dong-ha surprisingly has a knack for hitting the nail on the head.

I’m sure we didn’t talk much about it.

“Brother. Do you love your sister-in-law?”

Yoon Tae-joo paused for a moment and then immediately shouted.

“I don’t know. I’ve never been in love before, so I don’t know what it is, and I don’t know what to do.”

“… … .”

“But. If I ever fall in love again, I know who I should love.”

“Do you know that your sister-in-law is here?”

Yoon Tae-joo looked around the audience in surprise.

The voice of Lee Dong-ha continues to reach Yoon Tae-joo’s ears.

“Can’t you see?”

“……uh.”

“Later. When you truly love someone, you will see.”

When I was young.

Without even knowing love.

How do you know this?

“You found it in one go, right?”

“I also have a hard time finding my house’s yellow cat. Strangely enough, my sister-in-law has always been able to see it all at once. Is it because it’s a bit unusual? You’ll realize later that it’s really unusual. It’s even more obvious because it tries so hard to hide it.”

“… … .”

I don’t know, still.

No matter how much I looked around the audience, how could I recognize my wife among the many people?

While Yoon Tae-joo was hesitating.

Again, Lee Dong-ha opens his mouth.

“Are you going to play while thinking of your sister-in-law?”

“… … Yeah. I think it’s an astronaut. Of the songs I’m going to play today. I want to do that first. Am I being greedy?”

“It is greedy, but if Yoon Tae-joo is not greedy, who in the world would be greedy?”

“Then I’ll ask you something.”

“Okay. I’m going to be an astronaut, so go to your seats now. I have to play. How long are you going to stay like this? The fans are waiting.”

At those words, Yoon Tae-joo turns around once more behind him.

“What, Yoon Tae-joo plays for his wife, doesn’t he say that? There are other fans, so it’s a bit embarrassing to say that?”

Since I didn’t really have anything to say, I just turned around and smiled.

The fans in the audience cheer again.

“are you okay!”

“We’re okay, so love as much as you want!”

“Taeju oppa! I love you, but I have to give in!”

Lee Dong-ha, who was smiling brightly while looking at the flustered Yoon Tae-joo, tapped the microphone in front of him.

Teeeeing―.

It was only when I heard the resonating sound that I realized Dong-ha’s microphone was still on.

Rockstar Again Episode 117