Rockstar Again - Chapter 135



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Episode 135. Reason (2)

After finishing the conversation, Beomseok went to the kitchen as usual and started making stew.

Basically, there are three essential items that are included in Beomseok’s meal.

One is, of course, rice.

Another one is something that can be lightly cooked in a frying pan, like sausages or fried eggs.

The last one is stew.

Since I’ve been cooking quite a bit for my age, I know why it’s called stew and not soup.

Cooking Korean food is surprisingly difficult.

To make beef seaweed soup, for example, you need to lightly fry the beef and soak the seaweed separately.

You should check the seasoning frequently during the boiling process.

In comparison, stew is instant.

Add seasonings like gochujang or doenjang to form the base, add some vegetables, add things like tofu or kimchi, and if you’re going to add meat, you can boil the meat you bought for soup or stew without doing any additional work.

Of course, there are soups that require less work than stews, but people tend to move in a way they are used to.

“Why do you live?”

I just looked at his back and asked.

It was funny to see her cooking in the kitchen without an apron and with her head shaved.

“That fucking bastard. Is he really going to die?”

“You can’t kill me. I’m the one who was saved by God.”

When I said that and laughed heartily, Beomseok let out a big sigh.

“Ah… … It wasn’t God who saved you, it was me. I was crazy to save that human… … .”

“I told you earlier that it was good.”

“Shut up. It was a bit of a whirlwind of good and bad. Now I regret it.”

Then I dipped my spoon into the stew to taste the liver again, and when he took it out, I asked again.

“Why are you buying it?”

“This… Mr. … … .”

He turns his head sharply and glares at me. He must have noticed my serious eyes, so he stops himself from swearing.

therefore.

I’m asking a serious question.

Actually, I’ve been serious all day today.

Why do we live?

This is really important.

Arriving in the future and meeting quite a few people, I feel like most of them are living without a purpose.

That is why it is even more important why we live.

“You tell me first. Why do you live?”

I answered Beomseok’s question without difficulty.

“I want to make music so that people around the world can hear the music I make. More precisely, I want to live to see people listening to my music and cheering.”

“… … It would be nice if the reason was clear. Then let’s say I also live to save people.”

“I guess so. I guess you saved my life too.”

“When did God say he saved you?”

“God saved me, and he saved you too. He sent me to the future, and he made me go to the hospital where you were. So both God and you saved me.”

As I said that, I closed my eyes again.

When I close my eyes, the scent of Beomseok’s cooking wafts past my nose.

It’s the smell of family.

Maybe… … that’s why I think it might not simply be the God of Music who brought me into the 21st century.

If I think about it, it seems like they saved my life to make music.

The question is, why now?

Tae-ju hyung lived for 30 years like a sinner without knowing love.

Dong-sik gave up music and spent his time without even dreaming a small dream.

Youngpil hyung?

In some ways, that older brother is the most pitiful.

Because I endured as a bystander near my dream for the sake of my family, which was another dream.

There’s no need to even mention the yellow bean curd.

Sending my son away.

After divorcing his wife, he became a monk and went to hospital, home, hospital, home.

To others, he may have seemed like a rich man and a doctor, but his life must have been very difficult.

Donghae was successful musically, but he lived with a hole in his heart after I, who was his goal and the one he wanted to boast about the most, died…

I had a reasonable suspicion that perhaps I had come to this time to fill that hole.

I felt like I would be more comfortable thinking that way, whether God was real or not.

When people go beyond the scope of their understanding, they tend to rely on the existence of God.

If you just say, “It was done by God’s will,” then the rest becomes a little easier.

Then my life will become a little clearer.

It’s about giving purpose.

I have a feeling that if I were to add another reason why music isn’t my whole existence, the chaos in my head would also subside.

“How are you going to persuade that woman? What does that have to do with the reason you came?”

When I opened my eyes to the sound of Beomseok’s voice right in front of me, I saw a mute guy wearing kitchen gloves.

He said this while bringing the stew to the table.

“I have a feeling that there might be something like a… hole in your heart too.”

Beomseok shakes his head again at my words.

This kid, this.

Whenever he talks about his ex-wife, he becomes extremely depressed and negative.

“That woman doesn’t have a hole in her heart. Even if she had a hole, she’s not the type of person to receive help from others.”

“Well, we’ll just have to wait and see. And I’m not offering to help. I just think I might have a solution.”

“What is that?”

He smiled brightly at Beomseok’s question.

“I don’t know that either.”

“… … Go eat something.”

You have to meet him to know.

How would I know if I haven’t met you?

But it’s clear that there’s a hole.

I’m only twenty-one now, but I’ve had some pretty unusual experiences.

Age… … some insight that has not been answered?

I feel it because I have seen deep sorrow and lost something big.

Everyone has holes, big or small.

The older I get, the more distinct the holes become.

* * *

“I’ll go to the US sometime.”

When I went to Cheong-A Enter and told that to Gu Se-Ryeong, Gu Se-Ryeong pouted her lips.

So I asked.

“why?”

“Ha… … Okay, well. How can I stop you? But shouldn’t I tell you why? You’re in the middle of a big activity right now? And how long will it be? And where exactly is America?”

“Wouldn’t one day be enough? I’m just going to see one person.”

At my words, Gu Se-ryeong burst into laughter as if he found it ridiculous, then looked at Secretary Hong Seon-ah again, and then turned his gaze back to me.

“Half a day to go there. Half a day to come back. Are you just going to get on the plane and get off?”

“Um… … I see.”

For a moment, a round globe appeared in my head, then disappeared.

Although it is an image on a globe, it is enough to imagine the distance between the United States and Korea.

It’s not like I’m lacking something and that’s why I said this.

That’s because I have absolutely no experience traveling abroad.

I know it in my head, but it doesn’t just pop out.

“Tell me why first.”

I decided to just tell the Savior the exact reason.

Once you share the truth, you start to like this.

Because you don’t have to add lies when explaining something.

“Beomseok is going to see his ex-wife. So… … right now, he’s going to see my mother… … person.”

“Huh? Why, all of a sudden?”

“I guess I’ve become famous, huh?”

“You found out from… from over there? That you faked the move?”

“It’s not fake. Strictly speaking. Because I move too.”

“Anyway, what you found out is true, right? That someone who is not your biological son is pretending to be your biological son.”

He nodded slightly.

And then there was a little bit of scuffle.

That’s what it is, huh?

The Savior, don’t come out for no reason.

I will solve it myself. I am doing so.

I’m not the type of person who can do that.

But since you can’t assassinate him, you have to talk to him directly.

Saying that.

After such a boring struggle, Gu Seol-ryeong made a call to someone on his cell phone.

With the phone set to speaker mode, he places it on his desk.

Thump thump— thump thump—.

After a few rings, someone answered the phone.

-hello?

I know who it is right away.

“I… … Father. How are you? I am Gu Seol-ryeong from Cheong-a Enter.”

―Ah… …! Yes… …! Oh my, I should have greeted you. I left my son in your care and didn’t even get to greet you properly. Hahaha.

huh?

Something… seems right, but it’s also strange?

I’m just sitting on the sofa with my ears perked up… … What is it?

Something feels a little off?

Did he read my expression, or did the old spirit sense something strange?

He gets up from his seat, covers the bottom of his phone on the desk with his hand, and looks at me.

“You… … didn’t I tell you?”

“What?”

“What you told me is that you are a time traveler.”

“Aha. That’s it. It feels strange somehow.”

Gu Seol-ryeong bit her lower lip slightly at my words and quickly removed her hand that was covering her cell phone.

and.

“I… …Father. No… …Should I call you Dong-ha’s friend? What should I call you?”

―… … .

A suffocating silence fell.

Beomseok started saying something.

―Ah… … We do get along like friends… … haha… … . Since there are only two men. That’s just how men are… … . A father who is like a friend. That’s the kind of father I’ve always dreamed of… … and I put in a lot of effort… … haha… … .

“No, you’re really my friends. Dong-ha and your father.”

―… … .

He kept his mouth shut for a while, so I just raised my voice and intervened.

“Hey, I told you everything.”

-Dong-ha… … right?

“Oh. So stop acting awkward and just relax. This lady is also kind of crazy and understands all the time travel stuff, so don’t worry.”

Now that I think about it, that makes sense too.

There are crazy people gathering around me.

When I looked into it, I realized that all of those people had a big hole in their hearts.

I was the one who could fill those people’s holes.

Looking at it organized like this, I feel proud.

I’m an amazing person, aren’t I?

Anyway.

As if he had decided something after hearing my words, Beomseok continued talking over the phone.

―That… … yes… … is right. I don’t know how much you know, but… … .

“I know everything. I just don’t know how much I know.”

-Is that so?

“Yes. Anyway, I’m not calling to confirm that. My ex-wife said she found out and threatened to expose you if you don’t explain it, so I’m calling to ask you a few questions, Father.”

The title of the Savior has been changed back to Father.

Looking at this, I think the witch hag isn’t just some reckless child from a wealthy family.

First, he embarrassed Nureongi and said he was his friend and not his father to let him know that he knew.

Since the other person acknowledges it, there is no need to use complicated titles, and it can be simply summarized as “father.”

He is treated as a doctor at the hospital and is one step ahead of the mountain man.

The questions the Savior asked next were not much different from the ones I had asked the night before.

“Can’t money solve this problem?”

―Absolutely not. I’m not a person who is short on money, and I’m not the type of person who would be moved by money even if given a billion dollars.

“You’re revealing that you’re an old friend who’s a time traveler?”

―… … I’ve thought about that too… … No matter how much I think about it, he’s not the type of person who would understand something like that. He’s someone who believes he’s smart, so he’s not the type of person who acknowledges non-scientific realms. Of course, as Dong-ha said before, he could explain that time travel to the future is possible. But the category of science that he acknowledges is the science that can be explained now, and it doesn’t include the realm of theory and inference.

“You said that if I don’t give you a proper explanation and persuade you, you’ll expose me to the media. What time do you have left?”

– One month. Exactly one month. She said she would come to Korea within a month, and since she said so, she has exactly one month. She is a very… … precise person.

Why do I feel like my head is starting to hurt as I listen to Beomseok’s explanation?

Maybe… … because the character seems like the complete opposite of me?

I felt like something might be possible if we met… … I expect a very tense conversation.

So I urgently shouted into the speakerphone a question I hadn’t been able to ask yesterday.

“Hey, Nureong-ah. But Sister-in-law. If what you say is true, then you’re a robot without emotions, right? Is there anything missing? A really weak part, a weakness, or something like that?”

Then, Beomseok, who had been silent for a moment, slowly began to speak.

―… … If he was a robot, he wouldn’t have loved you. Then our son wouldn’t have been born. I told you yesterday. Motherly love. That was his weakness… … . He wanted to have a child so badly. Now that he knows you’re using the identity of his dead son, that’s probably why he’s coming to Korea, where he said he’d never come back. He would be incredibly… … angry.

Rockstar Again Episode 136