Rockstar Again - Chapter 166



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Episode 166. Inspiration is filled with many things (5)

There is little for the OST producer and singer to do at the script reading.

If we think about it objectively, we should say that he is a guest who brightens up the banquet hall.

The best thing a guest can do is share their thoughts on the role and watch the actors rehearse their lines for the first time.

The original purpose was observation.

I told Beomseok that I would beat him up if we met.

You really can’t beat him.

Regardless of whether it makes sense or not… … it’s just… … not true.

I just vented my anger.

That’s okay in front of Beomseok.

“Son. You should get married now.”

I found myself flinching in response to one actor’s words.

‘You were born in 1957. You took great care of yourself… ‘

At a large table, actors are sitting closely together, trying to match their rhythm.

I am sitting in the chair placed behind it.

Since I’m not an actor, there’s no reason for me to sit at that table. I don’t want to, so I’m sitting among the staff.

I feel like the staff are looking down on me.

If it were my original self, I wouldn’t have kept my mouth shut so shamelessly.

Right now, the attention is focused on one person.

Lim Ji-yeon… … .

“Oh, really. Mom. Napoleon said this. The world is big and there are many women. You’re not telling your son to be a bad man who hurts all those women, are you?”

Lim Ji-yeon, who plays Kim Tae-oh’s mother, is matching lines with actor Kim Tae-oh.

Lim Ji-yeon read the script, sitting up straight and holding the script in her hand.

“You’re already a bad man. You’ve hurt your mother enough. She won’t do things like splashing water on women’s faces and handing them envelopes of money like other rich wives do. Just bring anyone. Okay?”

“Can I just bring any girl? Even if she’s the same age as my mom?”

“Oh, I can’t live like this. Just bring me. I’ll take care of you like a friend.”

“Wow. As expected, they’re good. You two look great together. You really are like mother and son.”

When PD Choi Pil, whom she had met once before, smiled brightly and gave his closing remarks, Im Ji-yeon smiled softly.

“That’s right. Tae-oh, while we’re filming, can you really call me mom?”

“Oh, thank you. But. You seem more like my older sister than my mother, so I don’t think I can easily call you mother. What should I do?”

“What about you? I won’t fall for such words. If you do that, everyone around me will curse at you. Call me Mom. Okay?”

“yes!”

The atmosphere is nice.

Maybe it’s because it’s a banquet, but the staff members are laughing out loud even though it’s not a particularly funny story.

Kim Tae-oh and the woman named Lim Ji-yeon burst into laughter.

“It’s like X… … .”

Even though I was humming very quietly, Suchan, who was right next to me, was startled and checked his surroundings.

“Dongha… …What’s wrong with you?”

“What am I?”

“… … Let’s be careful with our words for now… … so as not to cause unnecessary misunderstandings.”

“… … .”

Even if it wasn’t Suchan’s request, I have no intention of spoiling someone else’s party.

My true feelings just came out of my mouth.

I didn’t come here with any specific purpose.

The first reason was that I wanted to see my mother in person.

The second reason was that I was curious about what kind of person he was.

If I lived without knowing, I would have just imagined it, but now that I know, I can’t help but want to check it out.

I don’t want to think that way, but now that my father has passed away, he is the only blood relative I have left.

‘Shit… … I wish I was like my grandmother… … .’

Irritation suddenly rose up.

I saw her in person for the first time. I don’t think she’s my mom right away. To be honest, I didn’t miss her that much and lived my life like that.

My longing for my mother ended right at the elementary school sports day.

But even though I time-slipped 30 years and came to the future… … .

I thought that a child around my age could have that kind of face. That well-groomed look was so repulsive.

It’s no good if you’re living well.

If you abandon your own child, wouldn’t it be incredibly painful?

Didn’t Lincoln say that?

They say that once a person is over forty, he or she is responsible for his or her face.

But is that face the face of a mother who abandoned her child?

Now I understand why, even though she is called the nation’s mother, she mostly plays the role of a rich family’s wife.

With that face, you can’t play the role of a poor mother or a mother who has suffered.

moment.

Did he feel my gaze?

I locked eyes with a woman named Lim Ji-yeon.

Blink.

And she smiles softly.

But… … why?

Did I avoid eye contact?

* * *

‘What a funny kid.’

Lim Ji-yeon smiled inwardly as she watched Lee Dong-ha avoid her gaze.

It was funny how the atmosphere had been set up from the beginning.

‘Are you trying to set the mood in front of the actors? In a cute way?’

It was funny, but not to the point of being a laughing stock. If you don’t know the topic and set the mood, you’ll be laughed at. But kids who know how to create that kind of atmosphere end up becoming high stars.

Isn’t it?

Although the field is different, it seems like he has already become a star.

If you look at the past year, the celebrity who has been mentioned the most is definitely Lee Dong Ha.

So, even though it’s funny, it’s acknowledged.

Lim Ji-yeon believed that celebrities who aim for the top must have self-love and self-esteem that borders on pride.

Lim Ji-yeon also once wore a lot of pom-poms on her shoulders.

It had to be that way even more so in those days.

Lim Ji-yeon has been acting since the days when people would become funny if they looked funny.

Lim Ji-yeon briefly raised her hand to try to stimulate Lee Dong-ha.

It’s not that I hate the fact that he’s trying to set the mood.

I wonder why he is staring at me like that.

“Oh. But didn’t you miss the singer sitting over there when you greeted everyone earlier? You invited such a special person, didn’t you? There were a lot of articles about it. How did our production team invite Lee Dong-ha? I think it would be better to listen to the story and then say hello first. What do you think, everyone?”

At Lim Ji-yeon’s words, the two actresses sitting on either side of her had bright eyes.

* * *

frustrated.

This is the first time I’ve felt this suffocating, stuffy feeling, as if my insides were completely blocked.

You want me to say hello?

But isn’t it too casual to call my name?

Even if you are sure that it is someone else, or even if you are in a situation where you cannot even think of it as your own.

If you remembered that name, you shouldn’t have called it so easily, right?

‘Don’t you know the name?’

That thought crossed my mind for a moment.

‘I don’t know, f*ck. What does it matter?’

I’m getting that annoyed again.

It was complicated.

I barely managed to hold back the nausea.

But, people around me have a sense of secret anticipation focused on me.

Suchan, who had known all along that my condition was a mess, was the only one acting uneasy and hesitant.

Still, I got up from my seat.

The more you’re not okay, the more you pretend to be okay.

Because that’s who I am.

“Hello. I’m not an actor, but I thought I could learn something, so I came to observe despite my rudeness.”

“Wow… … He’s handsome.”

“What if you’re better looking than the actor? It’ll be a burden to us.”

Surprisingly, people around me greeted me with friendly greetings in response to my normal greeting.

I kept moving my mouth.

“I didn’t think it was my place to stand out, so I stayed still. But you’re giving me the hint to say hello. Please take care of me.”

“… … .”

“… … .”

“uh…….”

The atmosphere froze in an instant.

It feels even stranger when the mood suddenly changes while we’re laughing.

But it didn’t matter.

The more I’m not okay, the more I pretend to be okay, but that doesn’t mean I’m the type of person who lives without saying anything.

however.

The one who lightened the mood again was none other than… … Im Ji-yeon… … that woman.

“It feels so good. When we were young, we used to fight a lot, right? But I also do that, and do you know why people around me didn’t stop us?”

Looking at me with a smile.

Lim Ji-yeon speaks as if asking the people around her.

“To succeed as a celebrity, you need to have spirit. If you have a bunch of spirited people gathered together, what’s the fun in it if there’s no spirit fighting? Right?”

“Haha. Well, Jiyeon was like that a lot at one point too. I was just a supporting actor back then, but I was really careful.”

When a middle-aged actor chimes in like that, laughter breaks out again.

Why on earth… why did I come here?

That thought made me want to run away, but I held back.

I didn’t want to be a funny person in front of that woman.

“Anyway, nice to meet you. I’m a fan too. Our Dong-ha… … I don’t think he’s a fan of mine though.”

“… … .”

“Please give me an autograph later. Okay, shall we start again, writers?”

At the script reading session that followed naturally, I felt lonely.

It’s sad, but not sad.

It’s frustrating, but frustrating isn’t everything.

So this is loneliness.

‘I shouldn’t have come.’

Just like Pandora opened the box and regretted it, I am in a state of great regret today.

But, if I could turn back time, I would probably make the same choice.

I’m so so lonely.

I sat in silence at the reading, feeling as if I was left alone in the world.

Maybe… … that’s why it was like that.

I exchanged contact information with two women.

* * *

O Sera was an actor who was on the verge of becoming a top star.

Although he was a leading actor, not all leading actors are top stars.

That’s why this work was special to Oserra.

The next work from an author whose previous work was a huge hit.

This isn’t just important because there’s a high chance that this work will be a hit.

The production company is going to do more marketing.

Whether it’s broadcasting or OTT, we have no choice but to give it more exposure. That way, we can acquire the exclusive right to this writer’s next work.

As the value of writers rises and competition becomes more intense, it is natural that conditions improve.

The more exposure you get, the more promotion you get.

Naturally, the chances of the drama being successful also increase.

So, this obvious work was naturally important to Oserra.

‘She’s so cute… … .’

Since it is such an obvious work, I have to immerse myself in it.

The Lee Dong-ha I met at the reading room is so cute.

It wasn’t a cuteness that made you feel like you were a child, but a cuteness that made you want to put your heart into it… that kind of cuteness.

The sad and gloomy atmosphere makes me want to comfort her.

I’ve never been a mother before, and I don’t plan on being one for the time being.

A feeling of being stimulated by the maternal instinct inherent in a woman’s genes.

So, proudly.

But I decided to get her contact information without telling anyone.

I think it’s because Oh Se-ra herself is the lead actress that she had that confidence.

Oh Se-ra didn’t know, but among singers, there was something that made it difficult for Lee Dong-ha to approach…

He was also famous for being able to ignore and ignore people who poked him in the side.

however.

Even Im Yi-seo, one of the four main actors who gave it their all today, felt like she was drooling.

Osera’s competitive spirit was ignited.

Didn’t senior Im Ji-yeon say that just before?

Fights between actors used to be more common.

The best fight between women is ultimately about getting the man they want.

Im Yi-seo, whose eyes met with O Sera’s, smiled softly.

“Senior, you look so pretty today.”

Oh Se-ra interpreted it to mean that even though you are pretty, you are no good to me who is younger and more energetic.

It wasn’t exactly… …a wrong interpretation.

Rockstar Again Episode 167