Rockstar Again - Chapter 168



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Episode 168. How come (1)

I’m lying on the sofa at one end of the recording studio and looking at the ceiling.

It looks like he’s dazed, but he’s not dazed at all, and his head is in a complicated state.

“Dongha-ya.”

Suchan’s voice was heard quietly from the side.

“why?”

“Should I say this… … or not… … I was wondering… … but… … I’m asking… … . Do you… … have something with actress Lim Ji-yeon?”

I just turned my head and looked at Suchan from the same position I was lying down.

manager…….

This is something I definitely feel as I start living the life of a celebrity.

When I’m active, I naturally spend the most intimate time with the members.

Emotionally, it is even more obvious.

But since my older brothers have families, during the off-season like now, I try to spend as much time with them as possible.

If I think about it, it seems like I secretly do the most things with Suchan hyung.

Isn’t it?

To this extent, it seems like it is the most blatant, if not secret.

This is why many celebrities get scammed by their managers. Of course, it’s not like Suchan hyung would scam me.

It is not simply a matter of faith, but because of the existence of the absolute shield called Yoon Tae-joo.

Suchan hyung also has a good personality.

So I know.

Just now, Suchan hyung asked this question with quite a bit of difficulty.

I decided to tell the truth as it is.

“My mom.”

“… … Actress Lim Ji-yeon… … ?”

“I guess you guessed it. Your tone is surprised, but your face looks calm.”

Suchan scratched his nose at my words.

“Tea or something?”

“A lot.”

“… … Judging by your age, that must be all there is to it… … I thought. Like you said, I know a little about you. Now.”

I sat up and leaned against the back of the sofa.

Suchan-hyung looks straight ahead.

“But I don’t know what to do.”

“… … I guess that’s true.”

It was quite convenient that I didn’t need much explanation since he knew quite a bit about me.

Still, I began to speak as if I was muttering to myself.

“Since it’s information given by the witch, it can’t be wrong, right? Then she must be my mother, right? But there’s no stinging or tingling sensation… … or anything like that? When you watch movies or dramas, when you meet your ex-mother, you start crying. That person was my mother… … or you find similarities, right? I don’t feel any of that. It just… … feels like a dog.”

“… … You don’t remember at all?”

“Uh. I don’t remember and I don’t know anything. It’s just… … he’s not dead. I just knew that much.”

So maybe that’s why I didn’t feel any tingling sensation.

Inspiration… …ultimately starts from memory.

I don’t remember, but my mind won’t accept that person suddenly calling me my mother.

“What do you want to do? Are you just going to come out to the members or Donghae like you did? Like you time-traveled to come here?”

Suchan’s words made me laugh.

“That’s ridiculous. The other hyungs and Donghae remember me from before, so that’s why I said it. That girl doesn’t even remember me, so what’s the point of telling her? If I tell her, do you think she’ll accept it?”

“……but.”

A child born and then abandoned.

Were you even interested?

I think they probably didn’t care.

If you were interested, you would have come to see me at least once when I was alive in the past.

I think maybe I don’t know if I’m alive or dead in 1994.

however.

Plus time slip?

There is no need to say anything.

Suchan hyung slowly pulled a chair and came closer.

“Then why did you go to see it? Even joining the OST? What do you want to do?”

“… … I don’t know. I just… … went to see it. Now, I want to ruin my thoughts?”

“……hmm…….”

While Suchan was unable to find a proper response.

I continued to pour out my heart.

“It’s not okay to live well, but you lived too well. I looked it up. And… … I didn’t know, but I remembered it… … That woman.”

“Do you remember? Did you come looking for me? Before?”

This time too, Suchan’s words made me laugh.

I answered with a smile.

“No. That woman was really popular in the 80s. I didn’t get matched with her at first because I got older. But I found out after looking into it. I also watched movies and dramas that she was in… … That’s how big she was.”

“ah…….”

actress.

Now she plays the role of a lead actress’s mother, but back when I was really enjoying dramas and movies, she was a top star at the time.

So… … I knew her too.

I met that woman at the closest distance in the world.

The fact that I had been looking at that woman through the glass the whole time.

That felt dirty.

Well… … I guess that’s the only reason I feel dirty.

“When I was young… … I liked that girl. Because she was pretty.”

“… … .”

“I loved it so much, no. I sold it as a bookend. That woman’s picture. I had one too. It was the trend back then.”

“It’s complicated… … .”

“It’s not easy.”

After blurting it out like that, Suchan and I came out again and closed our mouths.

The reason Suchan kept his mouth shut was probably because he couldn’t find the right words to comfort me.

The reason I kept my mouth shut was because my head was filled with thoughts of how I could make her feel bad.

It may not be something as grand as revenge… …. Maybe it’s just a shallow grudge.

Twenty-one is still young, right?

Many twenty-one year olds still live with their mom and dad.

me?

My father passed away.

My mother abandoned me when I was young.

That much is okay, right?

As I was like that, I heard Suchan hyung’s voice above my head.

“Don’t you just want to see a little more?”

“Me? Does that make sense? I don’t think you’re my mother at all? Why me?”

“okay?”

“of course.”

“Then I should get revenge… … Isn’t it normal for me not to even think about that?”

“… … .”

I didn’t answer.

No, I couldn’t.

Because it’s true.

Revenge and anger are also things that require affection.

I don’t know how I feel about that woman.

So… … I just really wanted to see a little more.

I think that way you will be able to understand my feelings.

But there is no justification.

It’s funny to go to the filming site and say you’re participating in the OST.

Going to the reading scene was actually a funny picture.

Still, it had its own justification as a banquet hall.

Meanwhile, I feel something hard in my hand that I have put in my jacket pocket.

When he took it out, he found Oh Sera’s cell phone. And a note with Im Yi Seo’s contact information stuck between the cell phone and his hand.

“There was a reason… … .”

Before I read Im Yi-seo’s note, my eyes went to Oh Sera’s cell phone.

The note is too explicit, but the cell phone is pretty convincing.

“Hyung, that drama called ‘That Kid’ or ‘That Kid’. Please check the filming schedule for it.”

Suchan nodded slightly.

* * *

O’Sera’s mood was quite depressed.

I wouldn’t say it’s bad, but it feels like the tension has dropped.

“Sarah, should we take a break? You don’t seem to be in good condition today.”

“Ah… … Yes, I’m sorry. I don’t get the feeling very well… … .”

“Okay. We have plenty of time. Let’s go slowly.”

“Yes… … Thank you, PD-nim.”

Se-ra Oh walked away from PD Pil Choi and towards her manager and stylist.

“Sister. Are you okay?”

“I’m not okay… … . I’m not in the mood… … .”

“… … High Palace… … .”

Han Garum sighed in regret.

Even though he’s a stylist, since we’re always together, he’s become a half-shaman. And even if he’s not a shaman, it goes without saying that he knows how much emotion affects an actor.

In particular, the role played by Oh Se-ra in is a poor but proud and energetic role.

I need to be confident and lively, but my confidence as a woman has been completely destroyed. There’s no way my energy will go up.

Oh Se-ra is good in everything, but perhaps because she is a heavenly actress, her mood swings are extreme.

When I’m in a good mood, I get excited with other-worldly tension.

A person who, when they’re down, won’t come back up no matter how hard you try to pick them up.

at that time.

From a distance, I could hear the staff murmuring.

“……what?”

At Han Garum’s words, Osera and the manager’s gaze turned to the entrance of the scene.

A tall man who seemed to be emitting light was walking towards Han Garum, or O Sera to be exact.

“Uh… … Sister… … .”

“… … I’m watching too.”

Osera swallowed dry saliva.

It’s an instinctive movement.

If it were normal, I would have had a proud face or been natural.

Because we were already losing from the start of the game.

“Sister… … You came to see me, right?”

“fizzle……!”

That’s how the two women whispered.

Lee Dong-ha stopped in front of O Sera.

“I came to return your phone. Can I take a look?”

“Huh? Ah… … Yes… … .”

Hangareum glances at Oserra from the corner of her eye. She can feel her tension rising rapidly.

* * *

“Here. Have a cup of coffee… … .”

“Ah… … Thank you.”

When I accept the coffee the staff member offers me, the staff member shivers slightly.

“Oh. I’m a fan… … .”

“Really? I don’t think I’ve seen it while you were working.”

The female staff member tilted her head at my words.

“Ah… … I’m more into dramas… … .”

“That’s not it. I think you’re a fan but you didn’t come to the scene.”

“Yes? Fan… … Do you remember everything?”

“Not all of them, but I tend to remember them after seeing them a few times.”

“Ah… …! Then I’ll definitely go see it next time!”

“Yes. I will enjoy the coffee.”

Then we go back to the scene far away.

Jumping up and down.

It seems like he’s getting a bit carried away with the other female staff members.

I looked around, amazed once again at the fact that I could create such a place indoors.

It must have been an empty space like an auditorium.

It was decorated like the inside of a house.

Not sloppily decorated, but quite plausibly.

I heard that these days, it’s rare to take pictures like this indoors.

It seems to be used interchangeably with external shooting for convenience.

Looking at this… … I suddenly thought of my dad again.

They say that the closest thing to you is your family, but what I secretly don’t know is what kind of person my father was before I was born. Things like that.

I heard from the old man that his father met that woman while working on a set for a drama… So I thought… My father must have done something like that too…

In my eyes… … .

I wonder if they were trying to take pictures of the indoor gods.

The woman and the lead actor Kim Tae-oh appeared.

“Oh my… … I see it again.”

I’m just passing by and throwing out a word for no reason.

Because it was difficult to pretend not to know when other people were around.

I answered hesitantly.

“I like trying new experiences… ….”

“Yeah. It’s great to be young. I envy you.”

I don’t know what you’re talking about.

After saying that and looking at me, he looks at O ​​Sera, who is sitting quite a distance away, and smiles.

When Oh Se-ra saw Im Ji-yeon like that, she got up from her seat and greeted her.

“Seniors! I’m here to cheer you on! It’s my first shoot, so I can’t just sit still as the youngest!”

A woman with a lively voice arrives on the scene.

“Im Yi-seo. Remember this so you don’t embarrass others later.”

Fortunately, Suchan hyung is there to input the information for me.

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