Rockstar Again - Chapter 174



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Episode 174. How come (7)

There is no catastrophe in the interview.

Cut and paste.

Cover it.

It’s not colored paper, but the interview is something that can be freely edited like colored paper.

Of course, even if it is not a paper interview, if the picture is selected appropriately, the same goes for a video interview.

Go Kyung-je, who returned to the company, checked today’s interview video.

―You’ve never had a sore finger, right? Weren’t you single? If you look at it that way, it’s a bit strange. You’re called the nation’s mother and godmother, but you don’t have any biological children.

It’s a picture that I can’t understand no matter how many times I look at it.

Ko Kyung-jae scratched his chin.

I had a smooth shave, but now I have a beard growing out of it.

‘Why did you act so hastily?’

Although it was a somewhat one-sided relationship, Ko Kyung-je was proud to know enough about Lee Dong-ha.

Because I’ve been chasing after Lee Dong-ha to the point of obsession lately.

So, I know to some extent.

‘Lee Dong-ha… … is moving… … suddenly… .’

That could happen.

He is a wild child who cannot be interpreted by the conventional celebrity grammar.

It’s not just because the genre they do is rock, but because they have the unpredictable side of Western rock stars that makes them close to rock stars.

“Senior, are you still watching that?”

Joo Hyo-eun poked her head out from the side.

“Huh? Doesn’t it seem strange?”

“It’s strange. It’s strange that it’s not strange.”

“… … Don’t put any weird lime in it.”

“yes.”

A scene in the video that contrasts with Joo Hyo-eun smiling brightly.

While everyone else is frozen, there is only one person.

Only Lim Ji-yeon, who was attacked by Lee Dong-ha, has a calm face.

―You could think so. Being single… … It’s not a sin. Some people think it’s strange. But at my age, how could I not have had a vague love? I had a vague love… … I dreamed of that love and a happy future. Dreaming of a happy future means imagining becoming someone’s wife and a mother.

Between Lim Ji-yeon’s words, Ko Kyung-je, who was in the middle of an interview earlier, adds a shallow interjection.

-Ah… …yes.

―The fingers that I couldn’t reach. That hurts too. That kind of thing… … is called phantom pain… … . That’s how I experienced it, even if indirectly.

-I see… … .

―Of course, it’s basically acting. An actor playing a murderer can’t commit murder by doing method acting, right? Don’t overthink it.

In the video, Lim Ji-yeon concludes the interview topic very expertly.

Although I’m having a hard time controlling my facial expressions while moving, I’m having a hard time controlling my facial expressions.

“I was wondering why Lee Dong-ha kept glancing at Teacher Im Ji-yeon? But what could have happened, when we had no contact? And then this happened. Do you think something is wrong?”

Joo Hyo-eun, who was the leader of the economy, nodded at Ko Kyung-je’s words.

This was a situation that anyone would feel was strange, even without using a reporter’s intuition or a woman’s intuition or other such tricks.

“Isn’t Im Ji-yeon Dong-ha’s biological mother? Im Ji-yeon gave birth to him and abandoned him. Then… … The eyes of an abandoned child looking at the mother who abandoned him… …! Oh, that sounds plausible. No?”

Ko Kyung-je frowned at Joo Hyo-eun’s words.

“Crazy. Hey, man. You have to make sense.”

“is it so?”

“Yes. If you tell a child who has both parents that Lim Ji-yeon is her biological mother? That’s just nonsense. Even if you imagine, you have to imagine something realistic. And Lim Ji-yeon is a very thorough person who takes care of herself. She’s full of playfulness, and no one looks at her funny even when she’s laughing all the time on set. Of course, that’s also because she’s older.”

“We just threw it out there, since it’s just us.”

“Oh, really. Don’t throw that kind of stuff around. And if Dong-ha’s biological mother is Im Ji-yeon… … Let’s see… … How old were you when you had her? She’s only twenty-one.”

Ko Kyung-je, who had been calculating while folding his fingers for no reason, shook his head.

As expected, this is an unlikely story.

Even the slim possibility is considered quite high.

Lim Ji-yeon gave birth to a baby in her old age. Of course, that could happen.

So it just leaves a little possibility, it doesn’t mean anything.

anyway.

Both Lim Ji-yeon and Lee Dong-ha.

I asked that the screen shot just now not be used, so it will not be used in the interview.

If it had been the original reporter, Ko Kyung-je, he wouldn’t have even snorted at such a thing. The interview genre is a bit different.

If the article is a real variety show, the interview is a studio recording with a script, so it has to be tailored.

Ko Kyung-jae, who eventually took down the video, sent it to Joo Hyo-eun.

“Hey, I sent it. Just look at the screen, type it up, and post it. Since it’s a promotional interview, I’ll edit the context a bit to make it feel more casual and friendly.”

“yes.”

I had that thought while sending the video.

I thought I knew a lot about moving, but I still don’t.

Lim Ji-yeon is definitely experienced.

* * *

Lim Ji-yeon’s house.

Lim Ji-yeon, who was removing her makeup in front of the mirror, felt very… …uneasy.

“What is he… … ?”

Lim Ji-yeon is worn out.

Not just getting older.

The fact that he has been through all sorts of hardships in the entertainment industry and is still an actor is proof of his wear and tear.

But, even for Im Ji-yeon, there was something… strange about that kid, Lee Dong-ha.

That expression would be accurate.

Usually there is a discount, or not.

I’ve got celebrity disease.

The kid is a bit annoying, etc. If you look at him a few times, you tend to see people. But I can’t see that kid who moves.

Isn’t it?

Rather, it seems strange because it is visible but cannot be understood at first glance.

‘Why are you looking at me like that?’

Eyes full of resentment.

‘What’s with those eyes?’

Sometimes, when you look at yourself with a certain sense, you suddenly turn your head away. At those times, you see a hazy… … wet gaze.

The previously mentioned ‘full of resentment’ and ‘vague’ are conflicting emotions.

Lim Ji-yeon herself did nothing, but it is strange to see her expressing conflicting emotions.

“… … move… … .”

Lim Ji-yeon, who was wiping her face with a cotton pad soaked in cleaner, quietly repeated the child’s name.

Memories aren’t black and white, but maybe that’s because they’re old memories.

A black and white screen filling my head.

-He doesn’t cry and laughs a lot…

This is the time that you can’t do it.

This is a memory that Lim Ji-yeon rarely takes out, buried deep in a drawer.

A hospital in the countryside.

A woman gives birth to a child, but neither her parents nor her husband, who is usually present, are present.

Only the person who was just the CEO of the agency… … and who was close to a gangster was yelling loudly.

-Listen, brother. Stop swearing.

―Listen to me! You bitch! You and that girl! I hope you both get kicked out! Do you have any idea how much money I had to throw at you just to get you debuted?! And I usually don’t talk about morality. It’s so absurd. Even if you cause trouble, it’s okay to have a baby? You’re still a minor! Even climbing onto a well-behaved cat’s shack is your proper duty!

-Am I not being quiet?

―Shut up, you piece of shit! Do you think I’m joking with you? Huh?! Now that we’re on the subject, let me ask you something. What on earth were you thinking, fooling me into having a baby? Are you going to throw away your talent? I’m not going to let you go like this. Be prepared!

Lim Ji-yeon, lying in a hospital bed with her child next to her, smiled bitterly.

-Why did you hit the actor? You can do it even after you have the child.

– Think about it before you speak, you little bitch! What kind of director would write a minor who gave birth to a child? Huh?!

―Can’t we just pretend that the child… …wasn’t born? We didn’t get married like you said. We even lied to the closest brother. Who would know?

Even though she gave birth to a child, she is still a minor.

A gem with so much marketability that even after giving birth, the CEO would chase her to a rural hospital.

That’s why the CEO of the agency at the time reacted quite… seriously.

―… … What? Then why did you give birth to the child? You’re going to raise it in secret, right? How long do you think you can keep lying like that?

-You can raise it even if you hide it.

―What are you saying… you little bitch. Speak so I can understand! My head’s about to explode!

-You can just leave it at an orphanage.

―… … You little XX-year-old. I know what I shouldn’t do even if I beat up people. You’re going to throw this lump of blood into an orphanage? You’d be better off leaving it with your parents back home. That’ll do since you’re the youngest sibling.

-I don’t have parents? You know that, right? Didn’t you know?

-Hey… … Xmi. What a brag! Don’t you have any relatives?

-None. Even if you say they’re relatives, they’re all trash.

Because that was the era, the entertainment company CEOs of that time were foul-mouthed.

There were actually a lot of people who came from the fist.

If we look at it that way… … Lim Ji-yeon’s agency CEO at the time could be said to be quite humane.

He kept swearing, but he didn’t hit me or threaten me.

-Isn’t that the kid’s father? Why, that young carpenter who was building the set that exchanged glances with you?

-well.

-Well, what? I know everything. And you didn’t answer. If you were going to throw it away, why did you give birth to it? Why not just erase it and be done with it?

-Erase it… … Easy. As you say. But I can’t do that. I wanted to let you make a choice even if I couldn’t take responsibility.

―You’re crazy. I mean. That’s fucking irresponsible of you. Sigh… … What the f*ck am I talking about with the kid? Stop it. Give it to me. I’ll throw him in an orphanage. I’ve already covered the hospital director’s mouth, so don’t worry. Just get yourself together and get back to work.

―Orphanage… … It’ll be hard until she grows up, right? Should I just… … work and live with her? Will her father be happy to see her when she goes to see him?

―You bastard… … You two can’t even make a living together and you’re going to raise a child well. You’ve already seen the light of day. Those kinds of bitches can live quietly at home? Especially at your age? Come on. You’ll run away in less than a year. Don’t make a melodrama and just be a bad person. Keep being a bad person. That’s the more conscientious thing to do.

As if the CEO of the agency that had been hurling such abuse had suddenly come to mind, he opened his mouth again.

-What are you going to name the baby? I really don’t want to talk to you because you seem like a piece of shit to me. But I’m asking because I feel bad for the baby. Even if you can’t take responsibility for the baby, please name the baby. You can’t keep saying, “baby, baby,” right?

-Name… … um… … .

I pretended to be worried, but it was already decided.

-Dong-ha.

He’s that brother’s son, so he’ll move.

-What does it mean? What is the Chinese character?

– Chinese characters? I don’t know that. It just feels good. When I say it, I can hear the sound of the wind.

―… … Oh my… … You’re really a bitch like X. You’re just pitiful… … . You’re really going to get punished by heaven. And you, you’ve got a weakness for me. You have to do everything I say, okay?

He acted so indiscriminately that even the CEO of his agency was astonished, and he appeared to take responsibility but did not.

It was neither this nor that.

There were plenty of excuses.

I loved her, but I didn’t expect the ending.

Because I was young, I was not able to cope well.

Anyway, I gave birth to a child like that.

The child said that her older brother, who was the head of her agency at the time, left her at an orphanage.

And… … erased it from my memory.

Because my dreams still came before my sense of responsibility.

As the black and white memories fade, Lim Ji-yeon’s hands move again, revealing her wrinkled bare face.

“… … I made a choice… … but the older I get, the more I regret it.”

It’s a memory from almost 50 years ago now.

There are no leading actors who decorate the memories of that time.

I didn’t look for the child because I thought he would be shaken if I heard the news.

I heard that the CEO of the agency retired 20 years ago and lives off of the rent paid by the building.

Lim Ji-yeon’s head scanned the empty space beyond the vanity mirror.

“I’m receiving the divine punishment that my brother spoke of back then.”

The actress’s end is shabby.

From everyone’s woman to everyone’s mother.

And become a lonely old woman, no one’s mother.

I’m growing old alone.

Lim Ji-yeon’s hand went to the cell phone next to the vanity.

When I keep hearing the name, I can’t help but remember it.

“I wonder if you changed your contact information… … .”

Rockstar Again Episode 175