Rockstar Again - Chapter 177



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Episode 177. Scheherazade (1)

“Wow! It’s Jjajangmyeon!”

As I shouted and tore off the plastic covering the Jjajangmyeon, Suchan hyung looked at me for no reason.

“… … .”

“What are you doing? Aren’t you going to eat it? Should I take it away and eat it?”

“No, let’s eat.”

“When I’m hungry, it’s Jajangmyeon. When I’m sad, it’s Crying Noodles.”

On the outside, he’s pretending that everything is fine.

Inside, it’s rotting.

Still, I’m determined to shake it off.

I didn’t even use my chopsticks a few times, but my throat was already blocked.

Suchan hyung tries his best to pretend like it’s not happening… … but that makes it even more uncomfortable.

Still, there is nothing I can criticize.

I’m saying this because I think so.

If I had tried to comfort her openly and said various things, she would have felt upset.

“He said he was thankful that the OST was well chosen.”

“Writer Moon?”

“All of them. The song that Dong-ha made… … should have been a little more refined.”

“The drama… what episode is it on now?”

“Episode 4. Up to yesterday’s portion.”

“Hmm… … Well… … I said it was good, so it’s good.”

I answered nonchalantly and moved my chopsticks again.

It’s not going down well. The more it’s like this, the more I have to eat well.

That woman is not broken and is living well, so how can I be broken?

I lived with that mindset and persevered.

So that’s what you have to do.

I have another goal.

While eating Jajangmyeon, Suchan said to his brother.

“I’m going to heaven.”

“……what……?”

“I’m going to heaven. My dad is 100 percent in heaven. So I have to go to heaven too.”

“… … Dongha… … You… … .”

When Suchan-hyung heard his voice trembling, I looked up from my bowl of jajangmyeon.

His face turned pale.

“What are you imagining?”

“Dong-ha… … . Um… … Uh… … You’re not thinking bad thoughts, are you? Feeling depressed… … Then… … Uh! Should we go abroad? Should I talk to the CEO and find a nice, sunny vacation spot? Who knows? You might end up having a fateful love affair there?”

Oh, this guy, really.

Even if you see people here and there, you can tell the difference.

You look so young.

I picked it up and burst out laughing.

This time it’s a real laugh.

Long time no see.

“What are you saying? I’ll work hard to go to heaven later, that’s what I’m saying. I’m not religious, but isn’t there something like that in every religion? If you commit suicide, you won’t be able to go to heaven? That will never happen, so don’t worry. If I die, a document stating that Suchan is the culprit will be delivered to the broadcasting station. You shouldn’t have any other thoughts.”

“Really… … right?”

“Which one? Is it true that he didn’t commit suicide, or is it true that a document was delivered to the broadcasting station stating that Suchan-su was the culprit?”

“Hey, even if you’re joking, you really… … .”

But judging from your expression, it seems like the misunderstanding has been resolved.

I kept shoving Jjajangmyeon into my mouth as if I was force-feeding it again.

Honestly, I don’t even know what it tastes like.

It was so hard that I almost lost my sense of taste… …I even lost my sense of taste.

Anyway, going to heaven isn’t the goal.

‘So my dad can hear it.’

In addition to wanting to share my music with people around the world, like the Live Aid concert I saw with Beomseok when I was young.

I want to make music that my dad in heaven can listen to.

It’s abstract, but so what?

Anyway, time slip itself is a nonsense, right?

But I know because I’ve been there.

The abstract, absurd thing that is real.

So, I believe it.

There is also heaven.

If I continue to make good music, sing, and perform, won’t my music become popular in heaven someday?

OST… …They say it was well chosen.

I admit that too.

Once the environment was created where it was inevitable that he would be chosen, things went smoothly.

Meet that woman.

I had a gut-wrenching experience.

The music just followed.

In particular, writer Moon Soo-hyun’s dramas are a typical Korean romance genre.

Most of the music required in the genre is sad ballads with a hazy emotional feel.

It was a perfect fit.

Missing a woman… … that kind of feeling.

Instead of feeling like a woman, I replaced it with feelings of missing my father.

So after the song was released, rumors like this started to spread among the drama staff who heard it first.

“People think you recently broke up.”

“Can you still hear those sounds?”

“Uh. Not yet. Who the hell is that woman? I’m looking for that these days.”

“It’s not even funny. I have to see you to get my fill.”

At my words, Suchan glanced at me.

“I… … I’m just saying this just in case… … .”

“Oh, please. It’s okay. Just do it all at once.”

“Have you decided on one of the two…? Are you in contact? Not yet?”

“Oh Sera and Im I Seo?”

“uh.”

“Neither. I haven’t been responding lately, so I’ve been hearing from you less and less.”

After the drama started airing, there was no contact, perhaps because of that excuse.

They were both terrible… … .

[Im Yi-seo: What are you doing?]

[Im Yi-seo: Can we speak informally? Do you want to start with friends?]

[Im Yi-seo: Your song is so good… … . But I don’t know if I can keep listening to this. I keep thinking about you.]

[Im Yi-seo: Want a drink?]

[Im Yi-seo: There’s a small and narrow place. What do you think? It’s even secretive.]

Even though I didn’t answer, Im-i-seo kept contacting me.

Osera is like a woman at 2 in the morning.

[Osera: Are you sleeping?]

It’s late at night again.

[Osera: What are you doing? Okay?]

And then another day passes and night comes… … .

[Osera: (Deleted message.)]

Something like this.

“If it weren’t for Representative Koo, I would have met one of the two. That’s good. What’s the use of dating for someone like me?”

Hearing my words, Suchan let out a sigh that seemed to show his regret.

“Ha… … What’s wrong with you? The OST is a huge hit and you’re back at #1 on SNS mentions? The drama staff are secretly complaining. To me. They say that even though they chose a good song, they chose it so well that the song became more popular than the drama.”

ballade.

So I threw away all the songs except for one that I sang.

The rest was done by the person in charge of overall OST production, who recruited singers and recorded them. In the end, it’s true that I composed the songs, but I only sang one.

A love song that’s not like me.

So rock fans are anxiously wondering if I have changed my mind.

Light fans like it more, and that’s the situation.

After forcibly chewing and swallowing the Jajangmyeon, I looked out the small window of the recording studio.

“Summer has passed and now it’s fall.”

“Autumn? Isn’t that right? It’s still hot.”

“It smells like fall. Is it possible for a celebrity manager to be this emotionally unstable?”

Suchan hyung is still tilting his head.

That’s just how seasons are.

The moment you say you’re here, you’re already leaving.

So, people like me who are rich in emotions feel what others are doing at the moment.

“If you don’t hear the cicadas, then summer is over.”

At my words, Suchan also raised his head and looked out the window.

“Well… … Now that I think about it, cicadas haven’t been singing for some time now.”

“I’m lonely.”

“Are you sure you’re not really dating?”

“I told you not to. Where would I have time to date? Our Suchan-su sticks to me all day long like a mobile watchtower and won’t let go. At night, the witch calls me. I really don’t have time to date, no time.”

At my words, Suchan’s head turned at a 45 degree angle like a zombie.

“Who… …? If it’s the witch hag… … Representative Koo?”

“Why, what?”

“The CEO… … calls… … every night… …?”

“I told you so. I’m just dying from annoyance.”

I’m just complaining to Suchan hyung for no reason… … But I did meet a good CEO.

Where else can you find a CEO who calls you every night to check on you, worried that you might break down?

* * *

Originally, the old man had trouble sleeping at night.

The reason was clear.

“What do I do if I can’t sleep?”

yes.

It’s just that I can’t sleep, so what else could there be?

However, insomnia can have many different causes.

For the Savior, insomnia was loneliness. It was fear.

A big house.

Stylish interior.

But when darkness approaches, such things bring even greater fear.

alone.

As a Savior who became independent early and established her own castle, she always slept alone.

When I was little, my older brother, Gu Se-cheong, would read books to me from time to time and even put me to bed.

Now that I’m an adult, that’s something that can’t be done.

At some point, I got used to being alone and got used to sleeping a little.

Rather, I was more used to taking naps during the commute in the car.

People might think that he works incredibly hard. But that’s not true. It’s because he doesn’t sleep well on time.

“Phew… … .”

That’s why we do things like this.

As a company representative.

To take care of a rugby ball that is mentally exhausted and cannot be bounced anywhere.

“How can you make your subordinates do this? It’s a violation of the Labor Standards Act. I’m the CEO, so I do things like this.”

After pouring a cup of coffee, I sat down on the living room sofa with my coffee in my hand.

As the stylish clock on the wall showed that it was 10 p.m., Gu Se-ryeong picked up her cell phone.

Several times, I get a call right away even though there is no signal.

“Did you touch your phone? Why did you pick it up so quickly?”

-What are you touching? You call me every day at this time, so I just picked up the phone out of habit.

Lee Dong Ha’s voice has gotten a lot better lately.

also.

How could he possibly feel depressed when he is being cared for like this?

Gu Seol-ryeong, who was smiling to herself for no reason, asked venomously.

“Aren’t you going to sleep? Kids need to sleep before 10 o’clock to grow taller.”

―What am I going to do when I grow up here? To make a basketball player? Done. And I’ll say it again, how can I sleep before 10 when you’re calling me at this hour and chatting? You have to say something reasonable…

“You’re not sleeping anyway. I’m checking everything with my father. If you’re sleeping, I won’t call you.”

-Okay. Let’s try your hand at individual skills.

“… … Personal skill?”

―You call me every day, so now you have nothing to say. Don’t you have anything like that? Personal skills? Like the sound of a train?

Maybe… … I feel like the tension is recovering too much.

That’s why I feel like I have to call even more.

Because the emotional ups and downs seem to have become too great.

I’m scared of how far I’ll fall if I leave it alone.

So the Savior took courage.

Since I’m already taking care of it, I wanted to do a little more.

You know the map, right?

It’s so touching that I, as the CEO of the company, take such great care of you.

“… … Chirp… … .”

―Hey… …Why are the trains so noisy these days? Ugh! This is what it takes. Again.

I felt a little dizzy, but I endured it.

It was a good thing you didn’t make a sound like “Hmph.”

“What again? You… … sing a song.”

-What song is it?

“This time, the OST. Eternal Love. That one.”

-I don’t like it. You can hear it when you come to the recording studio. What song is it?

“How much did you eat today?”

-I ate all three meals. I didn’t leave any leftovers.

“good job.”

– Don’t compliment me. It makes me look so arrogant. What’s that, like a superior? You’re a sly person.

“… … Okay. Now that you’ve stopped talking nonsense, I guess I can go to sleep now.”

Sometimes when I hear things like this, I feel dizzy.

Anyway, it was a win-win.

After making a phone call like this, Gu Seol-ryeong also slept quite well.

Because I feel like I’m not alone.

―Waaaaaaah! Shout out! Scream! Woofaaaah!

The old man moved the cell phone far away from his ear.

He’s always like this.

If you tell me to do something, I won’t do it, and if you tell me not to do something, I will do it.

I asked her to sing a sweet ballad, but she just sang high notes.

Still… … it’s not bad.

The smile on the corner of the Savior’s mouth never disappears.

‘Because I’m the company representative.’

Rockstar Again Episode 178