She Returned as a Vampire - She Returned as a Vampire chapter 42

42 – A man who became ‘honest’, a woman who became ‘confident’.

…I almost forgot that she once neglected me.

Because every day I open her eyes, she was by my side.

The fact that there is always someone watching me from the same spot with their eyes open, well.

I’m not sure whether to call it romantic or terrifying and grotesque.

What is clear is that I am beginning to feel the fear of this monotonous life.

She won’t let me leave her room for a second, what new part will I have in my life with her?

Just the same heart, unchanging heart, unchanging person,

I saw it a week ago and am facing it now.

And the fact that I will continue to see it was eating away at me.

She couldn’t let me go.

Continued to smile while locking me by his side.

A smile melted into ecstasy, the peak of happiness that anyone can understand.

I can confidently say that I have seen her face filled with emotions many times.

Those thick lips slightly open.

As her long sigh escapes, a red blush begins to appear on her face.

Emotions overflow and soon fall into a single tear.

And then, with her eyes fixed on me, she narrowed one step, two steps –

Thank you for hugging me and lifting me up with that power.

There were times when I kissed her cheeks, and there were times when I sat down with her face covered.

Every time that happened, I felt proud.

If I’m watching someone struggle with a feeling that’s consumed by emotions because of what I’ve done,

Inevitably, I also end up imagining that person’s feelings.

Because of that, I worked tirelessly to impress her.

And… This is the result it created.

A woman obsessed with the desire to repay me, and showing that will as violating me.

I couldn’t have been so afraid of grace that I repaid with my body.

Although some would say I died of luxury – I couldn’t die.

There was no way she would allow that.

If I were to die, it was clear that she would burn everything in the world and follow me.

Or you might hold on to my corpse and stare blankly into space.

Whispering my name softly, stroking my cold skin,

With a dark-eyed face, he might be confined to the world of his dreams, reminiscing about the times he spent with me.

…Maybe, really maybe,

I thought they might pull me out of death by force.

I couldn’t accept the world where I had disappeared, and I suddenly thought that I could be brought back from the dead with the blood and lives of countless people.

When I thought that far, I was able to see her face once again.

And she smiled quietly.

“…That’s correct.

Don’t think no. You are always right

It was only after I changed like this that I got to know you, and you saw me through my human body.

Hey, Niel. Are you a wizard Or a mind reader?

But you are you. Nothing else can express the person you are.

Don’t take it for granted. You are the one who made me fall in love twice as well.

With the devotion that once filled my ugly, shady desire, and continued to cover my selfish self.

In those days when I risked my life twice, when all men said I was an enemy and even the warm sunlight would set me on fire, you embraced me.

Everyone, you loved beings that you couldn’t possibly love with an ordinary heart.

You know, Niel, no one can stay still with that kind of heart.

You may suffocate under its weight…

Or go ‘crazy’ like me.

Of course you would call me crazy, but this isn’t crazy. At all.

I’m just trying to repay the favor.

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All the debts owed to you, one by one.

All I can do is pay it off calmly.

Isn’t it fun? Aren’t you happy?

I’m just trying to please you in every way I have.

Which part of this could you say was wrong, Niel?”

I still remember the terrible shame that the screams in my throat, which belonged to no one else, created.

Every time I see her skin, I think of her again.

I want to leave my mark on my body,

Like the glorious scars or medals that warriors leave on their bodies,

She proudly displayed, touched, and applied the things she had obtained from me.

Every time I see her body, I have to cover my face to this sensation that now reacts reflexively –

“No.

You sometimes act petty. I’m sorry to say.

I wish you had seen with your own eyes my reaction, my feelings, and my honest, raw feelings without any lies.

And while doing so, you hide, hide, and keep trying to hide it under your hand.

Sometimes pretending nothing is wrong – and on the other hand, secretly hugging me.

Looks like fun. That’s messing with me.”

Tok, knock, he touched my lips, then he kept moving his hand down from my chest.

No, not good.

I already tried my best to live up to her expectations.

I couldn’t do this again.

But she kept pushing on me whether I wanted to or not.

Suddenly, the blanket that covered me fell out, and she wrapped herself around me instead.

…In her arms, much softer and cozy than a blanket, I had no choice but to bury myself in the warmth.

“Look at this. There’s something that always comes to mind when I see you.

That – why. Hey. Do you remember when we went hunting before? After chasing the old gray wolf chief.”

“I can’t forget… Ugh…”

Ah, I never thought hugging would be such a pleasant act.

When something flowing through my body pours into my brain, I can exhale and clench my teeth – no, if I bite her tongue instead of my lips, a sweet kiss will come.

She covered her mouth with saliva, like honey, and soon the mucous membranes strongly adhered to each other, then it flowed down her throat with a dripping sound.

Then you won’t be able to keep your eyes on the thrill that burns your brain from the inside out.

“Hey… You look just like that. Pretending to step her foot into a trap, but before I knew it, I was out.

In the end, I would choose to be caught, but I looked at my liver like that.

Even though he knew that his end would be here, he seemed desperate to get into trouble like that.

Look at this. Why did the person who would be happy if I kissed you, embraced you, and trampled on you were so anxious about not being able to hurt me back then?

Why was he so impatient that he couldn’t push me away, howl, and berate me…”

Did I?

Since when?

I can’t deny such a good thing.

“Hey…”

Again her tongue fills her mouth.

Her hot breath makes my lungs inflate, then shrink.

And above all – what I have come to look forward to the most…

“I’ll ask you again today, Niel. Then…”

It seems that her parts are filling in my missing parts.

When she bites my neck like this, it feels like she is finally being completed.

Emotions that have not been felt before are filled up again. It gets overlaid…

Then she looks even more lovely in front of her eyes.

She carefully savored my blood, wiped off even the red marks left on her mouth with her tongue, and sat on top of me in a thick tone.

In a naked posture, without hiding anything from me, looking straight at me and smiling.

“How about now? How do I look?”

“I see a woman who is impatient with not loving me.”

She smiles. At the same time, I also seem to be smiling.

If she’s happy, I’m happy too. If she is happy, then so am I.

I also feel the joy she gets from her.

That was the life I… Longed for.

“That’s right. Now you’re looking at me properly.

Without any fear, he sees me exactly as I am.

Niel, I didn’t love you because I became a blood relative.

Because you were so lovely, I couldn’t help but love you.

It’s neither twisted nor wrong.

I don’t think this is wrong. You can’t think like that.

It just made us more true, closer, more honest.

I wonder if you ‘understood’ now.”

Yes. What is the use of changing?

Even if the shell changes, the inside does not change.

The fact that she loves me hasn’t changed since the beginning.

From the moment we became blood relatives… From… Eh.

“Yes. I, a blood relative, you, a human.”

“My blood relative, Elena, you… Me.”

I seem to have forgotten something. Something seems empty.

What is that?

What have I forgotten?

In this short conversation, what did I miss?

“I didn’t miss anything. From ‘the beginning’ we were perfect.”

Ah, I see her smile.

But why, why did the tears form?

Is it because I am lacking?

Shouldn’t we try a little more…