She Returned as a Vampire - She Returned as a Vampire chapter 43

43 – Karma Bo

You said you gave up being human,

I was relying on him who loved me in the past.

Not anymore.

He affirmed and loved every part of me, but I didn’t.

I called him a coward who stopped me by saying my adventures were dangerous.

Why did I still let him love it?

The things I did as a human being must have been unforgivable, but I let him continue to remember and keep them in his heart.

Even though this power is now in my hands.

Even though I had a chance to heal his wounds, his rotten heart, I didn’t.

Would you have been afraid?

If he doesn’t love me before, will he love me now?

I don’t even have a single confidence in myself now, which may have been much better than before.

I doubted it while running my hand through the traces of the past that I erased, erased, crushed, and mangled.

I wondered if I didn’t deserve it.

But… Look at him now, to the point where it all falls to pieces.

“…What is it that makes you so sad? Huh? Could I have done something wrong?”

Ah, Niel, finally, finally –

I got you.

I finally got you back.

The result of holding on to you even as my hands were stained with a lot of blood and my heart was torn apart by your venomous words is such a desirable fruit called love.

Do I have the right to enjoy this kind of happiness?

In the end, I fail to win your love in a human body, twist your heart slowly, hide the things I don’t want with a veil,

I just tempted you to focus only on me right now –

Do I dare to drink your true love, this love that is still welling up?

That too…

“I’m always on your side. So it’s okay. If there’s anything that bothers you, can you tell me?”

You give it to me directly?

With those clear, ignorant eyes, your bright smile that I’ve seen since we first started dating… Is it okay for me to dare to face it?

“It’s nothing, Niel. Nothing… It’s fine. I’m really fine. Rather – can you come a little closer?”

“Like this?”

Ah, ahahahaha…

Close up.

Really, too close.

It seems like all the distance between us has disappeared like a lie.

It feels like you grabbed my heart.

How long has it been since you first held me in your arms?

When was the last time you hugged me and comforted me?

The last time you greeted me with a bright face, held my hand and smiled?

You, who wraps my back tightly like this, looks me in the eye and talks to me, as if you came from the past to comfort me now.

An angel came to save me, who was holding on to a straw after repeating only the wrong choices and eventually falling into the abyss.

You seem like you have something called mercy to extend to me… I…

What face should I face?

If I had one last conscience, wouldn’t I have to apologize for deceiving you even now?

Kneeling down, confessing my shameless heart that I tried to cover your eyes even for a moment and pretend to be your former self,

Isn’t it something I have to cling to so that I won’t play such shallow moves again?

But I really don’t have the courage to do that, Niel.

I can’t tell you that.

I don’t have the confidence to face those cold eyes and sharp words again.

I don’t want to be like that. I don’t have the confidence to endure you again…

Of course, I can’t dare imagine with my thin mind and heart how my karma, which is accumulating like this, will come back.

At least I know the anger you show me.

It must be a huge lie that will never be forgiven again.

But if you from the future can see as much as my heart, if you remember me now,

Please… Can’t you be kind to me?

I want you to understand me, who can’t be honest with you, who kisses me and twitches his tongue shyly and tries to soothe me.

I don’t want forgiveness. I wouldn’t dare ask for my sins to be overlooked.

But please, with that broad generosity, please understand why I am covering lies with lies over and over again, stabbing my conscience silently to death.

That’s how I found out that you’re a good person,

How wise a person you were – although I know it all over after you’ve changed like this…

And I’ve become a woman who can never go back.

So I hope that moment never comes.

Because if I can be with you under the eternal night, I’ll be even better.

So, please continue to do this foolish love without being ignorant like this.

Let me know once again that you, who were cautious, were so generous when it came to love.

You, who did not trust until you wielded the sword that the craftsman made in front of his eyes,

Because now I can understand how important the fact that you sincerely believed in anything I said and thought about it seriously was.

Please come into my arms like this now, and accept the warmth, attention, recognition, and love that I, as a human being, have never given or deserved to give.

Forever in my arms, I hope you don’t know anything.

If only you would hold me in my arms, accept everything I whisper to you, and only remember me.

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I dare say that it is the greatest achievement that can be achieved in the world.

A woman who has completely captured the heart of a man who is smarter than anyone else, infinitely gentle and kind to those she loves…

I wouldn’t be envious of any rich person, powerful person, or person who has reached the pinnacle of power in the world.

…If you had eyes to see your worth from the beginning,

If only I had ears to hear the whispers in your heart,

If I had any of the abilities I have now, I would have spent the rest of my life with you without worrying about anything.

Is this the karma that must be shouldered?

Sitting on a cushion of thorns for the rest of my life, suffering, all I can do is smile while holding the warm and cozy you in my arms…

***

The value of past happiness obtained by a woman hiding the man’s memory.

I wonder if it was big enough for Hyolwol to slowly disappear with his eyes closed.

Those who trampled on humans, screaming at the sunlight coming again, disappeared,

It has been a long time since those who commanded the city were blown away by the knights of the church whose necks proclaimed a holy war, or fled into a deep cave like a shotgun.

And… A long-forgotten sin quietly reared its head.

It has been a long time since the village was reduced to ashes, and the corpses were scattered as powder everywhere.

However, the sins committed could not be covered up by such things.

“This is the result of the investigation.”

Those who remained in the village apparently met a miserable fate, and were saved by being bestowed a quiet death by a blood relative and her lover –

Some adventurers who moved there early on were able to survive.

And among them was someone who knew Benjamin Atkinson.

And who he was interested in.

“Elena Heartfield. She says she was with a man named Niel Pietro.

I’ve been dating for quite a long time and developed a relationship – but I heard that it became awkward after the third year.

There are often disagreements, and the fight always ends when the woman gets angry, and in the end, it is said that they decided to go on their own adventures.

And this is where Master Atkinson comes into play.”

“…Haa, was it playing with girls again?”

A middle-aged man sitting at a desk, holding his head, his now graying beard, sighing.

The symbol hanging behind his back and the ornaments placed in front of him hinted at his status.

And now, as he opened the scrolls one by one, he was reading the report of the investigation team he was finally able to send.

…I warned him not to get into an accident countless times, but in the end, the boy, his son, couldn’t come to his senses and had an accident.

I warned them that the day would come when they would be held accountable for their actions, but maybe they are ignorant of the world’s fears because they had no choice but to cover it up.

“However, it seems that the woman named Heartfield did not fall for the young master. Even though she solved a lot of requests together, it is said that the woman always insisted on being alone.

On the contrary, he was displeased.”

“Hmm, did you have eyes for women at the end?”

Every woman his son has ever touched had a ‘flaw’.

With weak loyalty, it was easy to fall under temptation.

The new and rare fact that she was a woman who rejected a young man who destroyed countless women raised his eyebrows.

“That’s…”

However, the more I listened to and read the report, the more serious it became.

That was what he was reading right now.

“Blood?”

“No trace of her was left. Other than the fact that very light bloodstains were splattered all over the place, the investigation team found nothing… But it is the woman that you should pay attention to.”

Last witnesses said he was very excited.

The investigation team was able to find traces of responding to magic signals not far from the village, but

When I identified the shape and location – I suspected that it was blood with a high probability.

A closer look at the suspicious circumstances revealed that Niel Pietro’s residence, where Elena Heartfield once lived together, had been completely burnt down.

I was able to find bones that hadn’t been burned yet – and traces of my son’s magical power, albeit weakly.

The condition of Benjamin Atkinson commissioned for Is currently –

“Is that so. Is that so.”

Tap, he threw the scroll on the desk at random.

“I knew that one day it would happen. Someone rationally thinks of the position he has and doesn’t let his anger go away.

I thought we would retaliate with the laws of the wild, ignoring the intangible notion of a society we believed existed.

Isn’t that a form he can handle…”

Knock knock knock.

A knock on the door wakes him from his thoughts, the sound of someone calling him from outside.

A young voice. And the clear, clear voice that was spotless brought a smile to his face.

Even though I heard the disastrous news.

“Father! Father! Are you in the room?”

“Oh, Master Atkinson!

I heard the maid outside the door urgently trying to soothe the child and divert her attention.

It’s a newly acquired child.

Above all, he was born much more upright and upright than his ‘failure’.

“Of course, it’s definitely a good thing that I was able to erase that son of a b*tch without getting a drop of blood on my hands.

I can’t help but do something, can’t I?”

“You’re right. What would you like to do?”

In the ‘society’ he is already in, there were many people who deeply sympathized with him, knowing his troubled situation because he couldn’t do anything about his son-in-law.

And those who bite it.

Of course, those who are on their side will express regret over this incident, but on the other hand, will send words of support,

Those who didn’t might be able to do something to create a gap between themselves and their new son.

No matter what, they are like wildcats who will do anything that can shake them without hesitation.

Also, it was clear that the fact that those who touched his son were not taken any action would become an even bigger problem.

“Defeate the investigation team, and instead hunt down the heavy-mouthed and high-ranking soldiers of the family.

Especially, those who have been with me for a long time and have many connections with me.

Has a family, lots to protect – I’m sure you get the rough idea.”

The way to use and dispose of someone is the old way, and once blood is applied, another blood, and another blood…

This is the way that there is no back and forth.

To promise great honor and rewards to those who can be trusted, and to expect even greater loyalty.

“Among the people of the church… I heard that an extremist sect has gained strength recently?

I will treat you appropriately with the words that they also ask for your cooperation as part of my ‘personal’ investigation.

Putting in a new line, attaching a priest or paladin that can be put under control.

It’s also work lately.”

“I will.”

He got up from his seat, moved his steps lightly, and opened the door to greet his child, who was about to burst out crying outside.

“Did you find this father?”

“Hey father!”

The two sounds that echoed through the mansion symbolized different destinies.

The low-pitched laughter and high-pitched screams of happiness of a child reminded someone that the same things in life can come differently,

The sound of footsteps carefully holding a stack of papers informed someone that the time to pay karma was approaching.

…Everything was someone’s karma.