Surviving as an Academy Black Magician - Surviving as an Academy Black Magician chapter 77

Her hands trembled as if she had seen a ghost.

I said with a soft smile.

“Is it that surprising? If anyone sees it, they’ll think they’ve seen a dead person.”

Having less understanding of the situation, she murmured in confusion.

“Yes, yes, how are you here… … no you are definitely… Until just now, there was a man named Zeil Zigharat… … .”

“Isn’t it nice to see you after a long time? But you have changed a lot. I don’t think you lied so brazenly before, but now you lie without changing your expression? You say you’re going to be a little scared?”

“… … .”

“Did you just decide to keep your mouth shut? You’ve been talking to me just now! Go ahead. He said he raised his sword to protect the people~ Even though he couldn’t kill a single goblin until now. In any situation, you always made me finish. Because he doesn’t want blood on his hands. Are you telling a lie like this proudly while making me do the act of taking someone’s life without hesitation?”

“That, it’s not like that… .”

“What else would he have lied to? If I tell people that you were a bystander, they’ll insist that it’s all wrong, right? you know you too What the so-called hero and my colleagues did to me and Damian. right? You know very well. Because I was watching.”

“… … It’s not like that.”

“Of course, I was always watching. As if it’s annoying, as if I’m not interested in it, as if I’m tired of it, I always just stood by. And the look on my face was always the same. contempt and disgust. and some sympathy. You are the same. Teresa. There is no difference between you and them. Are you well aware of that fact? is not it? Is there any reason why I shouldn’t hate you? To you guys, aren’t Damian and I less than cattle, not comrades?”

She looked at me with quivering eyes. There was guilt and sadness in those eyes.

“I am… … mi… no… ”

“okay. I’ll admit that it was also me who bothered Damian. I was trash just like you guys. I relieved the stress I received from you guys on Damian. Because you guys didn’t acknowledge me, I tried to show Damian that I was different and that I was superior. Damian, the porter, was the most easygoing.”

“It shouldn’t have been. Everyone, everyone shouldn’t have acted like that. I feel sorry for forcing you to kill something that I couldn’t do. I was selfish. I used you because I didn’t want to bear the guilt. sorry. Also, I admit that I was not able to stop the unfair treatment that was given to you and only stood by. Again, I am really sorry.”

“Sorry? Are you really sorry?”

“Yes. Anything you want… … .”

To be honest, it actually kills me in this situation and shuts me up,

If it was power or whatever, she could have suppressed me if she set her mind to it, but she chose to apologize.

Well, even if a person who didn’t even have the courage to kill me couldn’t kill me, he could easily have used his stomach to pressure me.

It’s natural, but it’s obvious that you’ll believe the words of the imperial knight commander who subdued the demon king rather than the assistant mage who escaped from the warriors’ party.

There’s no way she’s unaware of this, but she’s decided to apologize nonetheless.

I already knew that I wasn’t a bad person from the beginning. I didn’t do anything good, but I didn’t do any direct harm to me.

I was saying that the person I really hated, and should hate, was not Teresa.

At least she treated me as an equal. At least, it means that they respected each other as individuals.

Even though I overlooked such bullying and passed by.

‘Still, at first, I did do something similar to counseling about my worries.’

At the time, he was the only person who spoke to me.

To be precise, it’s ‘Abel Croy’, not ‘me’. Is it the effect of using magic? If not, is my ego gradually fading due to the solidarity of the body?

Lately, I feel like the line between ‘me’ and ‘Abel Croy’ is getting more and more blurred.

“Then tell me honestly. Are you sure it’s true that you subdued the demon lord?”

“… … .”

I returned to the form of Seil Sieghart by exercising the power of Andromalius again.

I didn’t really want to see the original gross look, and to be honest, I feel rejected.

As before, whenever the confusion between ‘me’ and ‘Abel Croy’ came up, I felt more at ease when I looked at myself as Seil Sieghart.

“… Is that the real you? Or is the Abel Croy I know his true form?”

She doesn’t answer the question asked to do, but asks the wrong question.

“What does that matter?”

“but. It doesn’t matter now… . You asked if it was true that you subdued the demon lord? I’m sure we would never have been able to subdue the demon lord as you, a former warrior party.

I nodded.

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“huh. It’s impossible. never.”

Theresa let out a self-deprecating laugh.

“hahahaha. Is that so… . okay. You are right. We couldn’t subdue the demon lord. Rather, it was all about escaping as if running away.”

“What happened?”

“What’s going on… … . Seil Sieghart. No, it is Abel Croy.”

“Call me whatever you like.”

She continued with a bitter face.

“After you announced that you were leaving the warrior party, there were many people. It’s just that the bubble that was stuck in it came out. nobody wanted to admit it. it was the same for me It took us a long time to admit that the strengths, inactions, and everything we had together that we called skill were not entirely ours. no… … . I guess I just couldn’t admit it.”

It was an expected result. Because my role as an assistant mage occupied a fairly important part.

Also, the role I occupied was not simply limited to ‘auxiliary magic’.

the ecology of the demons. geography. information. Because Abel Croy knew everything else.

They probably didn’t want to admit that vacancy for them, who did all the miscellaneous things to Abel Croy.

The ones they despised, ignored, despised so much.

Arrogant and proud, they would never have admitted that the foundation of the warrior party was shaken just because an inferior human was missing.

“Without your buff, we couldn’t even show half of our normal skills. We were no longer there when we were dealing with the Demon King’s army corps commander. Every time, every moment was the crossroads of death. We had a hard time dealing with division commander-level demons, not corps commanders. Without the holy sword and divine protection of the hero, it would have been impossible to even reach the Devil Castle. However, we were busy acknowledging the vacancy and uncovering each other’s faults rather than making up for our shortcomings.”

I made a face of disgust and spat it out.

“Obviously.”

“okay. Having seen us all this time, you would know how it would have flowed even if I didn’t have to say this. It was a mess. I couldn’t take advantage of any of the strengths that each of them had. It was embarrassing to even call him a colleague. Seriously, as a saint, Lia should also have participated in the battle. She herself joined the battle, healing us each time we were covered in blood. Aside from her excellent fighting power, it meant that she was so poor that she had to borrow her hand. The close-knit relationship was virtually destroyed as the starting point for reaching the castle of demons. Nevertheless, we continued to move forward, believing that everything would be solved by defeating the demon king.”

“so?”

“However, I realized. That we can never kill the demon king in a normal way. The people praised us as heroes, but in fact, we were nothing more than gossip who couldn’t even trust our comrades who crossed life and death, let alone the qualities of a hero. So we kidnapped the devil’s subordinates, tortured and threatened them to find out the secret passage to the devil’s castle.”

“At this point, it becomes clear who is evil and who is good. Do you guys really deserve to be called warriors?”

Theresa shook her head.

“know. We also know that it was not the right way. But, it sounds like an excuse, but no, it’s an excuse… . It was all we could do. He thought that if he defeated the demon king even with such a method, the world would be filled with peace. at least i… I believed so. Until the very end, we took the devil’s men as hostages and naively coveted his life.”

At first glance, she appeared to be speaking calmly, but her face looked quite painful.

It will be miserable.

They couldn’t deny that the justice they believed in was closer to evil than anyone else.

Teresa, who had believed in herself as a knight, would not have been able to accept that fact.

Theresa looked at me with a fishy smile. Now, those eyes had even become pitiful.

“Since we used a cowardly trick, we thought that at least victory was ours. In fact, the war situation was going in our favor, but there was a variable. A variable that no one present would have dared to think of.”

at las.

You made your appearance.

“Is that Kaldamian?”

She looked at me in surprise. It seemed like he had a lot on his mind. Maybe he’s judging whether I’m related to him in any way.

“… uh, how do you know that? Abel. Did you know that person’s identity from the beginning? If that’s not the case, you too… .”

“calm down. Calm. It’s not what you think.”

“Then how do you know that?”

“It’s a feeling.”

“persimmon?”

I nodded.

“huh. I thought something was odd from the start. Also, that kind of feeling suits me amazingly well. That’s why I came out to the party. I’m fed up with your attitude, and I thought something dangerous would happen if I kept hanging out with him.”

She looked at me suspiciously.

“Did you leave the party simply relying on that feeling? If you think about it, your attitude that day was not one or two strange. Normally, even when you spit out a sentence, you stuttered several times. But that day, we had a strangely normal conversation. Rather, he showed a clean speech that overwhelmed everyone present. As if I became a different person.”

“So what do you want to say?”

Theresa’s hand moves slowly to her waist.

“… Abel Croy. What are you hiding?”