The Blind Saint Who Can See - Chapter 40
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#40. After waking up from a dream (1)
I had a gut feeling the moment I opened my eyes.
‘It’s X.’
I have no feeling in my right leg.
It becomes even more certain when you check with your hand. This is not a temporary limitation due to injury.
‘Because he’s lame.’
hmm.
Die once and reset?
‘That’s a bit of a shame.’
Extra lives are so useful, it’s not efficient to waste a single extra life just to get rid of a paralysis.
‘Just in case, it would be a good idea to get a dagger for suicide.’
Die and come back to life in times of crisis!
It’s not a bad scenario, is it? To be an adult, you have to at least revive the lion.
furthermore…….
[Main Quest]
Save a billion people.
Current: 50,632,691
[Preceding Points: 300,727]
If you say you don’t laugh when you see this status window, you’re lying.
Wow! Main quest progress is 50 million! Points are also 300,000!
‘So what if I have to be in a wheelchair!’
As he was drawing the design diagram of the wheelchair in his head, the door opened cautiously. Cedric consciously turned his head toward the sound, his hands shaking.
“you…….”
A name that I couldn’t bring myself to say.
It might have felt frustrating to just stand there and hesitate, but I was able to get over it because I was in a good mood thanks to the status window I had just checked.
I’m giggling. Right now.
Fortunately, thanks to the skill of maintaining dignity, the ugly smile changed into the saint’s passive ‘Benevolent Smile’. I called out to him with a gentle smile.
“Cedric.”
“… … .”
“We have a lot to talk about, don’t we?”
Cedric’s large shoulders hunched pitifully.
***
Three days before Justinas woke up.
After Izumi killed Changcheon, the giant cherry blossom tree, the tree trunks that covered the royal capital, and various monsters disappeared without a trace. This phenomenon occurred because Haru, the source of their power, disappeared.
Naturally, the people who had been wandering in a nightmare soon woke up on the street with bewildered faces. They did not remember the situation perfectly, but the rumor that the benefactor who had saved the people from the nightmare was a warrior and a saint quickly spread.
“Long live the warrior! Long live the saint!”
“As expected, the Lord is watching us!”
The saint who saved her country from a terrible plague 10 years ago. This time, the saint saved the country once again with a warrior who also received the protection of the god.
The Changcheon were a group of demons who exploited humans mentally rather than physically, and thanks to the warrior party solving the case much faster than usual, there were no casualties. Thanks to this, the entire country was in a nearly festive mood.
But even in the midst of all that, there was someone who despaired.
“Lil, open your eyes. Please… … .”
First, there was Diold, who witnessed Liliana’s magical power run wild right before his eyes, and the royal couple who cherished her.
“Your Majesty, that is… … you will become limping.”
“what?”
It was Izumi who had to make a difficult declaration, and Cedric who had to hear something that was like a bolt from the blue.
‘That’s ridiculous.’
When I first heard the warrior’s words, I didn’t believe it. But when the doctors of the kingdom also told me the same story, the verdict gradually became a reality.
‘I promised to protect you.’
This is someone I’ve already lost once.
This time, I decided to support you until the end.
Unlike before, he was no longer a helpless child, so he thought he could do it.
It was an arrogant and foolish thought.
“It’s time to wake up from the dream.”
Even in nightmares.
“Did you sleep well, Cedric?”
In reality too.
“Youth.”
It was always she who protected him.
From the time he was a poor kid in the back alleys until now, Cedric has never once failed to protect Justinas.
Couldn’t keep it.
What on earth did she do when she lost something precious to him twice to protect him?
‘First the eyes. This time… … .’
leg.
Either way, the moment he loses it, it is an extremely painful and hopeless handicap. Cedric struggles with an overwhelming sense of helplessness and self-loathing.
“Ugh.”
I was so disgusted with myself.
The scene of Justinas smiling while wearing a blood-covered armor is repeated over and over again.
I can even stab my heart for you. What’s the use of such an oath?
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, Youth.”
Cedric held the hand of Justinas, who was still lying there like a corpse, unable to wake up, and sobbed like a child.
My eyes went dark. The grace I had received from Justinas was so deep and heavy that even in the midst of all that, I felt like I was going crazy and wanted to kill myself because my heart was beating at her confession in the nightmare.
The first day passed like that.
By the second day, I was filled with worry about what would happen if Justinas didn’t wake up.
The pulse was so weak. Cedric was completely terrified at the feeling of seeing a dying person.
What if I let Justinas leave right before my eyes?
‘No. No. Absolutely not… … .’
He was so anxious that he nursed her unconscious all day long. She was in such a state of panic that Izumi, who often came to check on her, was terrified.
“You too, Cedric. The saint will wake up soon.”
“How do you know that?”
“I’ve seen many patients like this… … Well, anyway, his life is not in danger. He just lost the use of one of his legs.”
The warrior who spoke those words was strangely cold. He had a face of resignation that made it hard to tell whether he was intentionally suppressing his emotions or whether he was used to such things.
Even though he had heard the answer, Cedric still trembled.
In the first place, I can’t trust the warrior’s diagnosis. Wasn’t he just a country bumpkin who had never studied medicine?
“Justinas.”
The third day.
Cedric, who couldn’t even sleep a wink, called her name with his parched tongue. Despite the desperate call, Justinas just lay there without moving.
Reason disappeared from his black eyes.
“If you die… … .”
Justinus always lived for others.
They sacrificed themselves for orphans on the streets, extended a helping hand to the sick and the weak, and jumped into danger to save people who had nothing to do with them.
But what is the result?
She lost her eyes in exchange for saving an orphan from the slums. Unlike the believers who were saved by her, her own life was excessively restrained. In the process of saving the prince, she suffered unwanted insults, and this time, while saving herself… … she lost her legs.
I just keep losing. Always!
If Justinas had given her proper first aid and rested immediately after saving her, if she hadn’t forced herself to move to help the warrior, her leg might not have gotten to that point. Her condition would have been better than it is now, when she collapsed from exertion.
Just thinking about it makes me sick. I resent everything, including myself, except her.
He muttered in a rough tone.
“There is no meaning in this world.”
A world without her would be better off without her. Why not kill and eliminate all the people who hurt and hurt her, and follow in their footsteps?
Yes. This hateful world.
Cedric’s emotions gradually grew darker and heavier. An ominous aura, unusual for someone who hadn’t had a drop of water in three days, enveloped him.
Then she groaned.
Cold sweat from the heat ran down my forehead. When I checked the wet towel, it had already become hot.
“… … Wait a minute, Yus.”
Cedric, who had become gentle in an instant, went out with a basin. He was there to scoop up some cold water and place a wet towel on her forehead.
“Be a good adult, Cedric.”
Swish.
Beyond the pouring water, the childhood Justinas overlapped.
“I like you, Cedric.”
Above that, there’s her in the dream again.
He rubbed his hot eyes. When Cedric, who had his expression fixed, opened the door where Justinas was with a cold expression… … .
“you…….”
Youth.
Words I couldn’t bring myself to spit out swirled around in my mouth.
Justinas was already up. She leaned against the pillows, turned her head toward my legs, and soon saw herself making a sound.
Did you notice?
I’m sure you noticed.
I already can’t feel my legs and I can’t move them.
I had no face to raise my head.
Cedric, who was flinching with guilt, suddenly heard his name.
“Cedric.”
At that moment, he remembered what had happened before Justinas fainted. He had lost consciousness and called her a nickname after seeing her covered in blood.
And maybe, from that point on.
“We have a lot to talk about, don’t we?”
Memories of the past that he had wanted to cover up came flooding back. Cedric felt dizzy and shut his eyes tightly.