The Crown Prince in the Mang Game is Good at Idols - Chapter 203



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# The Crown Prince in the Mang Game is Good at Idols Episode 203

Kang Si-yoon laughed again after hearing what I said.

“You must have been worried because I suddenly collapsed like this. It’s the first time you’ve seen that expression on my face, Inma.”

I was joking, but I felt it inside.

Kang Shi Yoon is very perceptive. Therefore, he must have already guessed the true meaning of what I just said.

What I just said was also something I did to lighten the mood.

“Uh, uh, Siyoon hyung. If it’s hard, you don’t have to tell me. We all know how hard it is to recall unpleasant memories… … .”

Yoo Min-ha spoke cautiously, unusually for her usual self, and observed Kang Si-yoon’s expression.

I was worried that bringing up this topic might be touching on Kang Si-yoon’s painful memories.

However, Kang Si-yoon seemed to have made up his mind and shook his head slightly.

“No, it’s okay. Everyone must have been really worried.”

“… … I heard that some privates broke into the dorm.”

Song Hyeong-bin opened his mouth quietly.

His face was filled with worry.

“Hey, did you all know that a sasaeng came?”

“Changmin hyung said he had anticipated this in advance. That’s why he assigned additional security personnel, and as soon as he found you collapsed, he even tracked the locations of the sasaengs.”

“This is a perfect spy movie.”

Kang Si-yoon still had a smiling face, but Song Hyeong-bin’s expression did not brighten.

“Fortunately, they say they can quickly catch him since they’ve pinpointed his location… … But I don’t know why he’s coming all the way to the dorm.”

“Yes. I was really surprised. Suddenly, someone kept entering the password incorrectly, and I thought, ‘Oh, did Min-ha enter it incorrectly again?’ Then I got up thinking that I should open it for him, but in that short period of time, he entered the password incorrectly not once, but twice, three times in a row.”

Our conversation naturally moved on to the situation that Kang Si-yoon had been through.

Naturally, like the flow of water, without anyone intending to do so.

“I thought I’d just do it moderately and leave, but he kept pressing it like crazy. All I could hear was the sound of beep …

Kang Si-yoon’s voice became increasingly agitated and then suddenly stopped.

His breathing, which had been steady just a few seconds ago, became very rapid, and the corners of his lips, which had been smiling, suddenly drooped.

The moment his eyes began to fill with emptiness.

“Siyoon. It’s okay. We’re together now.”

“―!”

I held his hand tightly again.

Kang Si-yoon shivered and held his breath for a moment, feeling as if he had felt my warmth.

He very slowly turned his head towards me.

As I met his eyes with an unwavering gaze, the empty light in Kang Si-yoon’s pupils slightly dimmed.

“……thank you.”

“Siyoon, as Minha said, you don’t have to push yourself too hard. I’m sorry for asking you questions you shouldn’t have asked when you’ve only just woken up.”

“No. I started talking because I felt like I wouldn’t be able to mention it later if I didn’t have the chance now. It’s okay. I’m okay.”

Kang Si-yoon seemed to be hypnotizing himself into thinking that everything was okay.

‘Did I ask too much?’

I felt a little regret inside.

I wondered if I had acted too hastily because of the curiosity that had been building up inside me all this time.

Why did Kang Si-yoon’s abnormal condition occur in this situation and what was the cause? The thought that I had to solve this question was strongly occupying my mind.

But judging from what Kang Si-yoon just said, it seems like he was thinking the same thing as me.

It may be a topic that is difficult to bring up again if not now.

Kang Si-yoon sighed and slowly began to open his mouth again.

“… …It sounded like a timer.”

“Timer?”

“Yes. I kept entering the front door password and got it wrong repeatedly, so the alarm sounded like a timer.”

Timer. The word timer came out of Kang Si-yoon’s mouth first.

How is the timer related to Kang Si-yoon’s fainting and abnormal status?

Kang Si-yoon, who had regained his composure, said with a hearty laugh.

“I probably haven’t told anyone this, but I actually had a few opportunities to debut.”

“uh……?”

“You were able to… debut?”

Chae Eun-gyu’s eyes widened when he heard the unexpected news.

That makes sense.

Because it could be very similar to the situation that Chae Eun-gyu experienced before participating in .

“It wasn’t like Eun-gyu hyung, where the company went bankrupt right before debut and things went haywire. It was just… … . It was just that I was eliminated from the debut group simply because my skills were lacking.”

Kang Si-yoon lowered his gaze while holding hands.

“I first started as a trainee when I was 16, and I learned a lot during my two years at my first agency. At that time, I really liked dancing and singing, but the more I did it, the more greedy I became. When I saw people who were better than me, I just wanted to do better. I wanted to improve my skills and debut as an idol for real.”

“… … Everyone here will know that feeling.”

Yu Min-ha muttered in a calm tone.

Kang Si-yoon nodded slightly and continued talking.

“I wasn’t that talented. So I thought I had to invest more time and learn more than others to catch up. I thought practice was the only way to survive… … So I came up with my own special method and always took a timer to the practice room.”

The timer in question has finally appeared.

“I set a timer for 30 minutes and sang or danced nonstop until the timer rang. When the timer rang, I stopped practicing, reset the time, and practiced again. I repeated this every day. I thought that since I was not as talented as others and started late, this was the only thing I could do.”

I started to understand things one by one.

Why is Kang Si-yoon’s personal trait listed in his status window ‘Practice Bug’?

And when I first saw Ji Yoon-cheol, who was famous for his outstanding talent compared to others, I felt like he gave off a slightly unpleasant vibe.

“I actually felt a little proud when I saw my skills improving. Ah, if I do this, I can really do it too. I was lucky enough to be selected for the debut group, so I thought that if I just practice a little more, I could debut. But isn’t that how reality always is? If everything went as I thought and dreamed, there wouldn’t be anyone in the world who would feel wronged.”

Kang Si-yoon laughed haha.

Even though it’s not funny at all.

“I left my first agency after being told that it would be difficult to debut after being with the agency for two and a half years. Up until then, I was still full of motivation. I thought that if I quickly joined another agency and practiced every day and improved my skills, I could debut. That’s how I entered my second agency through an open audition.”

“Then here too… … .”

“yes.”

Kang Si-yoon nodded at Chae Eun-gyu’s words.

“I tried harder. Just like before, I set a timer every day and practiced. I didn’t want to waste time sleeping, so I lived in the practice room every day. I kept telling myself positive things in my head. I could do it this time. I was working this hard, so I thought it would definitely pay off. But… … . Well, reality wasn’t so easy. This time, I was notified after 6 months. I couldn’t make it into the debut group.”

A heavy silence flowed through the hospital room.

Ji Yoon-cheol was listening to Kang Si-yoon’s story with his body more relaxed than usual.

Heo Yu-bin was looking at Kang Si-yoon with an expression that seemed almost on the verge of tears.

“It was strange. I trained for much longer at my first agency. Mentally, it was harder when I got the notice of my release from my second agency. All the positive thoughts I had tried to have up until then were all backfiring. The time I had spent practicing up until then felt meaningless. At that time, I really didn’t want to do anything. I felt like I was going to vomit when I entered the practice room itself, and the moment I saw the timer or heard that annoying alarm sound, I felt like I couldn’t breathe.”

The mental burden and shock that comes with successive failures.

Kang Si-yoon probably invested more time into dancing and singing than anyone else in this hospital room.

Burning my body and mind with just one thought of becoming an idol.

However, what was handed down to him was a series of eliminations and notices of dismissal.

It must have been extremely painful for Kang Si-yoon, who was a high school student.

‘Is that why I have such aversion and trauma towards timers…?’

Kang Si-yoon released the hand he was holding tightly.

Then she held the white sheets on the bed tightly and tried to speak in a calm voice.

“I knew it too. It was too hard mentally. So after I left my agency, I went to the hospital for a year. I took medicine, received counseling… … I developed panic disorder and specific phobias, so it was really hard for a while. Still, somehow my condition improved considerably and I succeeded in returning to my old self, but there was still one thing that didn’t get better.”

“That was a timer.”

Song Hyeong-bin tightly held Kang Si-yoon’s other hand.

Kang Si-yoon stared blankly at his hand for a moment, then smiled faintly.

“Yes. Singing is okay, dancing is okay, and going to the practice room that I used to hate is okay. But just looking at the timer makes me feel sick, and hearing the sound makes me so scared and fearful. So from then on, I threw away all the timers at home and changed the way I practiced. If I can’t overcome the fear, I just have to get rid of the cause.”

As I listened to Kang Si-yoon’s words, I briefly recalled my memories.

If just looking at the timer caused an abnormal status… … .

‘Maybe someone brought a timer to the level test site.’

It’s likely that one of the judges or a staff member had a timer.

Because the level test was a gateway to observe the trainees’ performance on stage for a certain period of time.

In that situation, Kang Si-yoon, who saw the timer, would have been momentarily overcome by PTSD, which would have triggered the abnormal condition of ‘withdrawal’.

Now I feel like all the puzzles are being solved.

“After a year of treatment, I got my motivation back. I thought that if I gave up after failing twice while I was still in the prime of my life, wouldn’t that be the time when I would have wasted all my past years? That’s why I decided to appear on .”

Kang Si-yoon looked at the members gathered in the hospital room.

His gaze was filled with sincere affection and gratitude.

“There… … . I was happy because I met so many great people there and was able to experience the stage that I really liked again. On top of that, I even debuted… … . I was so happy, I thought I would never remember the old days again. But suddenly. Out of nowhere, because of the sasaengs… … .”

Kang Si-yoon couldn’t finish his words.

This is a truly absurd situation.

It’s amazing that the sasaengs are the ones who have left Kang Si-yoon, who has been living while forgetting the memories of the difficult years, in this state.

This also happened because someone was frantically pressing the password to invade our accommodation.

‘Honestly, I don’t think my anger will subside even if I grind it to the bone and drink it.’

For a while, the Crown Prince’s hot anger, which had been quiet, seemed to stir within my chest.

I quickly took a deep breath and calmed myself down.

Honestly, I’m so angry when I think about the bachelor parties, but if the crown prince wakes up here and I get a status effect, it’ll be a big problem.

He calmed down his anger and instead told Kang Si-yoon about the current situation and offered some hopeful words.

“Those damn people will be punished soon. Manager Hyung promised to catch them no matter what, so you don’t have to worry. He said that since there is clear evidence and circumstances, the prosecution process can proceed smoothly.”

“Really? Then that would be really fortunate.”

After finishing his story, Kang Si-yoon lowered his head again.

“Everyone, I’m so sorry. I caused you trouble for a few days because of the flu, and now I’m in this situation again because of this useless mental illness… … .”

“No. No, Siyoon. Why on earth are you apologizing?”

“That’s right, hyung! Hyung… … . Hyung! Didn’t do anything wrong!”

Heo Yu-bin was on the verge of bursting into tears.

Instead of bursting into tears, he hugged Kang Si-yoon’s shoulders tightly and buried his face in hers.

Kang Shi-yoon patted his back, but still spoke with a worried look on his face.

“Thank you, Yubin. But… … . I’m so scared. Of course, there are many fans who wouldn’t do that, but I’m afraid that other sasaengs will come looking for me again. This time, I’m afraid that they’ll hurt other members instead of me… … .”

“Siyoon, it’s okay. If you show the sasaengs a proper example this time, no one will cross the line like this.”

“That’s true, but I’m also a little worried about how I can stand in front of my fans in this state.”

At Kang Si-yoon’s words, everyone fell into silence.

Although he hates to admit it, Kang Si-yoon hit the nail on the head in the midst of the confusion.

Clearly, the proportion of normal celebrities will be overwhelmingly high.

Even though we know that there are many people who would never do something so strange to us, anyone who finds themselves in this situation can’t help but think that way.

The person who is smiling at me now may come to my room later.

The person who gives me such a precious letter may later write something that I become obsessed with.

People who come to fan signing events and hand out gifts can also indiscriminately send their own personal items.

‘… … .’

This situation is very bad.

Celeste still has one more week of promotions scheduled, and will soon be performing on various year-end stages in December.

I can’t go into such an important position while suffering from this kind of pressure and doubt.

I rolled my head for a moment.

Eventually, the only way to break the current situation was found.

‘Is it time to use coins?’

It’s time to write a system that works for the whole team, not just for me.

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