The Devil’s Dead Child - Chapter 257
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#257, You and I are different
I was definitely going somewhere… .
Who were you going to meet?
The thoughts that had dominated my consciousness just a moment ago suddenly became gloomy.
In an underground space that relied on electric light, it felt like the lighting in some sections was suddenly cut off arbitrarily… .
I had no place to go and landed on the ground.
‘… ‘Where am I?’
Something… , it was a city with unfamiliar scenery.
The moment I remembered my sentiments, the sky darkened and a sudden feeling of cold and hunger struck me.
‘… ‘Is it welcome?’
I was clearly turning my back on the June sun.
Therefore, what I am feeling right now is not real.
But in reality, my body temperature gradually cooled, and my stomach felt empty.
‘I… ‘You’re under an illusion spell?’
I thought that couldn’t be possible.
Not only was there no magician high enough in this land to pull such a trick on me, but even if I was under magic, I wouldn’t even be aware that it was an illusion.
Even as I continued with my logic, the illusion of my senses continued.
I was standing, but my back was touching the floor,
I looked ahead, but saw a black sky.
That means I’m lying down right now… .
The yellow light shining from above my head created a shadow towards me.
At the same time, I felt a presence, but my body did not react as I wanted.
‘… !’
This is a situation that can happen to a hostile opponent.
I tried my best to move my body, but the most I could do was wiggle left and right.
Suddenly, a huge beast poked its head out.
Cat and monster… !
shit.
It was already too late to escape.
The best defense I could do was to cower and hold my breath.
This is because monsters of that type generally react more violently to movement.
… And repeating that all of this is fake.
Its cold, moist nose touched my forehead.
I was startled by that realistic feel.
Either way, he licked my face with his warm, sticky tongue.
Tsk tsk tsk tsk!
The instinctive fear disappeared in an instant.
‘Such a dog… !’
A low-level monster is enjoying his pre-dinner entertainment over me.
If he had bitten my neck, I wouldn’t have felt the same humiliation as I do now.
This was a kind of violation.
The fact that I can’t control my body properly is just a situation I’m in… , because the status of my existence did not change.
I squeezed the rising anger out of my throat.
‘Hurry and kill me! If you miss this opportunity, I’ll tear you to pieces in my hands!’
But the sound that came out of my mouth was very different from what I expected.
“Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa855 behind there there back up there?
Slap!
The startled monster disappeared into the darkness,
I cried even louder out of embarrassment.
no… , are you crying?
‘I… ?’
Squeak.
Clap.
In the midst of my confusion and hesitation, I heard another sign.
“Director! “Someone left the child behind.”
I finally felt a sense of déjà vu about a series of situations.
A familiar woman looked down at me, rubbing her eyes, and then hugged me with a sad look on her face.
At that moment, an indescribable sadness came over me.
Now it didn’t matter whether it was real or an illusion.
“Wooaaaeaaang!”
Squeak.
A middle-aged woman came out behind me and handed me over.
“This is the first year. “There were no letters or notes or anything like that?”
“yes. “It looks like a baby that’s only a few days old, right?”
“I know. Tsk tsk… . “He’s such a baby.”
“Oh, wait a minute. The name is engraved on the back of the baenat jeogori. castle… June… . “It’s Seongjun.”
“The name is Seongjun. Seongjun~”
I couldn’t tell if this was really in my memory or a reenactment of my imagination.
I couldn’t stop crying even though I was wondering why I was suddenly seeing the past like this.
“Oh my. “She was scared alone.”
“Let’s go inside first. “I’m going to catch a cold.”
“Oh my. okay.”
Squeak─.
chin!
The gate did not close properly and made a dull sound.
“Oh my! “Who are you?”
I couldn’t even hold my head properly, so I could only look up at the director’s chin.
The man who didn’t reply came closer and looked down at me.
“Seongjun.”
father… ?
Didn’t they just throw it away?
“Wow! Wow. Wow! “Tsk.”
I cried harder.
At the same time as a request not to leave it behind,
It was sad,
It was a feeling of injustice that even he couldn’t convey properly.
My father’s expression also looked pained.
So just don’t go.
“Han Seongjun!”
My father called out to me and stretched out his hand.
Squeak!
The head of the director who was holding me flew off.
I shuddered at that horrible and unrealistic scene.
The blood that had soared into the sky poured down on me.
When I was falling to the floor with my new brother who had lost his strength,
My father suddenly grabbed me by the collar.
‘… !’
Suddenly, I looked down and saw long legs standing on the floor.
“Wake!”
A part of my consciousness that had been dark flickered like an old fluorescent light.
ah… .
The sun rose in the night sky, and the dark alleys were once again transformed into a bustling cityscape.
Wrinkles appeared on my father’s young face and his graying hair grew.
Only then did I remember that I had flown to North Korea to meet my father.
“… … .”
My father’s face and worn-out clothes look somewhat tired,
Looking at my father’s shocked subordinates from a distance and the surrounding area devastated as if it had been bombed, I was able to roughly guess what had happened a moment ago.
It seemed as if ‘Newborn Seongjun’s’ vicious crying had actually turned into destructive behavior.
My father made eye contact with me for a moment and smiled bitterly.
“… “I’m glad you did it in front of me.”
The bitter smile I always saw gave me an indescribable sense of relief.
“also… . “You never get flustered.”
“You arrived after much panic.”
I sighed a little and asked.
“I am… , what should I do now?”
“Do you know what you are afraid of?”
“… As you can see, it’s out of control. “I feel like the magic is eating away at my spirit.”
My father shook his head.
“That is a misconception.”
“yes… ?”
“It is not that the demonic energy affects your mind, but the other mind that was originally inside you responds to the demonic energy. Magi… “It gnaws away at the fears humans have.”
“… … “I don’t quite understand.”
My father nodded in understanding and continued.
“Then let’s think about it this way. I would advise you not to resist the Magi. There’s no problem, so enjoy the power you’ve been given.”
“… … .”
“What do you think?”
“… It doesn’t help at all. If I had wanted to have fun, I wouldn’t have come to see my father. No, your father just saw how I am. “I’m glad I did it in front of my father.”
“That’s also what you said from your perspective.”
“Anyone who knew me would not have seen me as normal. “Imagine if her mother saw that just now.”
My father said with a grin.
“okay. “That is your fear.”
“… … .”
Suddenly, I felt like I realized something, but then my head tilted to the side.
However, my father’s subsequent explanation captured the fleeting thoughts and tied them together.
“Subversive thoughts, anger, desire, malice… . Those are all things you originally had. You are afraid that others will recognize it, and the more you stir it up, the more the devil will eat away at your heart and try to lift the veil. “It’s ironic.”
… I roughly understood it.
But it wasn’t the answer I wanted.
“There is a solution… “You mean there isn’t one?”
“If you let go of fear, at least nothing will go against your will or cause you to lose control.”
“So, family… “There is no way to avoid hurting your friends.”
Saying that the nature that came out after receiving demonic energy was also mine was nothing more than a play on words.
If I accepted it naturally, I wouldn’t be trapped in an illusion and have an accident like before, but that would mean losing the ‘me’ I wanted.
“Because that is our destiny. … No. It will be a bondage for you as my child. sorry.”
“Suddenly the apple… , Why is my father apologizing? “It was all done by that bastard Marduk.”
Whiooooo!
As I thought about the shitty situation and Marduk again, the anger boiling inside me turned into sticky demonic energy and bloomed.
No matter what it looked like, I stood there blankly for a moment.
Because I never imagined that I wouldn’t be able to find an answer even if I met my father.
However, even at this moment, I could clearly confirm that everything my father said was true.
My current consciousness, which remains relatively clear, was due to the comfort I could only feel in front of you.
In the end, that comfort was the confidence that my father would not be able to do anything about me.
How much time has passed?
I opened my mouth as if talking to myself.
“… … all right.”
“It won’t be easy to accept. If you’re really worried, spend some time alone for a while. Your fears won’t go away just because you decide to do so… . “You may be able to avoid unwanted accidents.”
The word ‘alone’ suddenly brought to mind underwater dungeons and the Tower of Desire.
At this point, I thought it wouldn’t be a bad idea to go around and collect those mythical materials.
“yes… . Then, have a good time at work.”
It nodded and flew up.
When I climbed about 30 meters, I heard my father’s voice in my head.
-Don’t worry too much. You and I are different.
『It’s different. … What does it mean?”
-Parents are afraid of not being understood by their children, but there is no parent who does not try to understand their children.
Although it sounded obvious, it was somehow comforting.
I flew around for a bit and stopped for a moment to say something I had forgotten.
“ah… . I try to understand too.』
***
Cha Yu-ra’s mother left home when she was 11 years old.
This happened a few days after Cha Yu-ra was diagnosed with alexithymia.
For a mother who was lonely with a husband who was crazy about magic engineering, the sentence that she could not expect any interaction with her children must have been the final blow that made her give up everything.
-You grew up like that. I’m glad you’re okay.
My mother, whom I met by chance when I was in high school, expressed in one word feelings that she did not even know about.
Because nothing happened.
I still didn’t know if everything was really okay.
After examining the dragon’s wounds, I saw Han Seong-jun suddenly disappear from the screen,
Why did my mother’s words suddenly come to mind?
‘Han Seongjun… .’
He looked distressed.
Just like the mother I met that day.
Having learned many emotions through her father’s constant efforts, she had an excellent ability to read others’ emotions through cause and effect and mood.
Unlike empathy, it was merely a visual analysis read through facial expressions and gestures.
Even if I knew how to do it, I rarely looked at others carefully.
However, there were times when it was more accurate than the average person, because when humans look at others, emotions triggered by the previous situation interfere with objective judgment.
anyway.
Her understanding clearly interpreted the state of Han Seong-jun, who had just disappeared from the screen, as psychological pain.
And by adding this incident to his previous actions, we arrived at an ominous guess.
‘Han Seongjun… , He might go into hiding again.’
Only then did I understand why my mother came to mind.
Then and now-,
Because it was nothing out of the ordinary.