The Hero’s Brother Is Bound To Be Depressed - Chapter 339



340 – Differences in interpretation

Ellie cried sincerely, just as she had seen in other worlds. I watched her in silence and waited quietly until she stopped crying.

What I told Ellie that I had no choice but to forgive was true. No matter how harsh she does, if the opponent is Ellie, she gets angry. Even if my heart bleeds and my knees buckle, I will forgive Ellie. Because to Ross, Ellie was someone he could never abandon.

I was afraid of that, so I erased my memories of Ellie. To escape from Ellie, who melts my thoughts and strong will as easily as butter.

I don’t know what Ellie’s tears mean. Even if she explained her meaning, I had no confidence that I would not doubt her sincerity.

Is it just joy that I have been forgiven, or is it a sign of reflection on my wrongdoing? Or maybe it’s a different reason that I couldn’t think of at all.

However, I decided not to think too deeply this time. I believe that the feelings of Ellie in another world, who sacrificed her life for me, and Ellie who sheds tears in front of me will never be different. I can only hope that her character, Ellie, whom I once wrote with such affection, will be back to how I remember her.

It wasn’t much different from Ellie in the other world, but it took some time to stop Ellie from crying. Ellie, who didn’t even have the presence of mind to clean up her messed up face, just roughly wiped her tears with her sleeve and sniffled her nose. The tip of her nose and cheeks have turned red, reminding her of strawberries.

Because of that, the sweet smell of strawberry scent, which seemed to have become stronger than before, tickled my nose. Is it not perfume, but rather a strawberry-scented pheromone? I erased the random thoughts that tried to pop into my head and continued the interrupted conversation.

“I have something to tell you.”

“… ?”

He held out his palm to Ellie and raised his magic power. Because her magical power amplification disappeared, she was barely able to create a snow globe by pouring all her magical energy into it. It seems that there is a drastic difference in magical power depending on the amount of memory contained within her snow globe.

Although the consumption of magical power is inefficient, it can be evaluated as an excellent magic simply because it can effectively convey memories and emotions at the time. That evaluation could also be confirmed on Ellie’s face as she watched the magic.

“Well, what is that? How could such a magical structure exist? ?”

Ellie seemed to have forgotten that she had been crying just now, and was busy observing the snow globe in my hand with a blank expression.

The way he muttered something and tried to understand the structure of magic by moving his fingers in the air without realizing it was a look that suited a future archmage with a great desire for magic. Even when we stopped mutant orcs together, it was Ellie who showed greater interest in the space magic I used than the mutant orcs.

Ellie looked at the completed snow globe for a while with eyes full of pure curiosity, and then she stuttered with a frozen expression, as if an uneasy thought came to her mind.

“By any chance, did you learn magic separately from my teacher?”

It seems that he misunderstood that I learned magic separately from his teacher, Nelson. Because Nelson was famous for his own magic using a snow globe, not only Ellie but others also had this misunderstanding.

Ellie, who had a strong desire for magic, was likely to be jealous that her teacher’s vision had been passed on to someone else rather than to herself, the student. This was not a problem with our relationship, but a separate problem related to magical knowledge. I explained it before any misunderstanding occurred.

“Did you forget? I’m in the combat department. I never learned anything special about magic from the principal. If you want to know why I can use this magic, put your hand on this snow globe. Then you will know everything.”

I held up the snow globe to Ellie. Ellie couldn’t take her eyes off the snow globe, her eyes shining, as if she was very interested in the fact that I, not a wizard, was using magic for a structure she had never seen before.

Despite her strong curiosity, Ellie could not easily reach out. I thought I knew why. The Ellie she met in another world was so much so that she warned me dozens of times about the dangers of using new magic.

This is because he was the type of wizard who confirmed safety through repeated experiments and theoretical observations, rather than gaining experience by physically hitting it like I did.

Ellie was frowning slightly and pursing her lips, as if her intense curiosity and attitude toward magic were fighting fiercely inside her. She couldn’t help but offer some help with her choice.

“I promise you that what’s inside this snow globe is so amazing that it will shake your every sense of common sense. “You can also learn about yourself in the future, where time has passed than now.”

Ellie stuck out her tongue and moistened her lips. I asked Ellie, looking straight into her eyes.

“Can you trust me?”

It is the magic of a structure seen for the first time. For Ellie, who had excellent magical talent, it was natural for her to be very wary. However, in response to my question, Ellie put her hand on the snow globe without hesitation, like a fanatic trying to prove her faith.

Ellie placed her hand on the snow globe and closed her eyes. After absorbing the snowglobe’s memories in silence for some time, Ellie finally opens her eyes.

Tears flowed again from the obsidian eyes. I was completely captured in those obsidian eyes. As we looked at each other, I was sure. It is said that Ellie from another world gave the current Ellie a great help in growing as a person.

“Roh, Ross… This, this… .”

Ellie raised her head, taking a moment to catch her breath and hold back the tears that flowed endlessly. She looked confused because a lot of information came into her head in an instant, but she seemed to have something she wanted to say to me right away. Ellie said with a complicated expression.

“The reason I couldn’t help but misunderstand you all this time was… “It was because you were not Ross, but someone else named Jin Xian.”

“… That’s right, I was Jin Xian who possessed Ross. But now I’m completely one with Ross. “Because our souls are mixed as one.”

Suddenly, an uneasy thought occurred to me. Because I have changed, she is more like Ellie, arguing that it is natural for her to misunderstand. Apparently, that was close to an ominous prediction based on what Ellie had shown so far.

But my ominous prediction was wildly wrong. Ellie didn’t blame me for her mistakes like she used to.

“I have no doubt that you are Ross. No matter what anyone says, you are Ross… .”

Rather, he looked at me with kind eyes and tears filled with worry in the corners of his eyes.

“It’s because of you, who has changed, and me trying to treat you like before, that we’ve become so out of sync… You always did your best for me, even though you don’t even remember me. Even though you know that I am using you… “He was so foolishly kind that he pretended not to notice.”

Ellie nodded slightly, looking happy to be able to resolve the doubts and misunderstandings she had had with me, and said as she wiped her wet eyes.

“I know that no matter what happens, it doesn’t change the fact that I was wrong. I was fully told how much I regretted losing you in another world, and what kind of feelings I lived with… .”

Ellie, who was trailing off her words, spoke with a determined look on her face.

“My heart is the same as Ellie in the other world. “Just as you were drawn to me against your will, I couldn’t fill your void with anyone else.”

Ellie stood up. Ellie, who had staggered towards me, holding on to her table as if her body had lost all strength, suddenly dropped to her knees on the floor and looked up at me.

“From now on, I will try to be forgiven by Ross. “If you have no choice but to forgive me, I will try to make you admit that I am truly sorry.”

I sighed involuntarily at Ellie’s sincere and earnest voice. She wasn’t relaying her memories to Ellie hoping for her apology.

I don’t know if such a gloomy feeling is hidden in a corner of my heart… He just wanted to end his previous relationship and receive Ellie’s help for the sake of the world and Roel.

However, Ellie, who received the memories, seems to have accepted my intentions differently than I thought. Just as she did not leave the same review just because she saw the same movie, Ellie seems to have interpreted the memories I received from her from a different perspective. Since each person has different learning and experience, it was common for interpretations to vary.

Ellie slowly stretched out her hand. I couldn’t avoid it approaching slowly. It felt warm and soft to the touch. Ellie, holding my hand tightly with both her hands as if it were precious, spoke with her obsidian eyes shining.

“If you’re having a hard time, you don’t have to endure it anymore. “Because now I fully understand how strongly the feelings you feel for me are tempting you.”

“… “What does that mean?”

At first, I took Ellie’s words simply as an offer to help me. But the emotions in Ellie’s eyes as she looked up at me as she carefully stroked my hand proved that wasn’t the case.

I forgot about it for a while. That Ellie had never learned how to love properly, to the point where she gave me a first kiss that hurt me so badly just to keep me by her side, my childhood friend. I wonder how she might come up with a way to resolve her mistakes.

“I will never tell anyone and I am confident that I will not be found out. Call me whenever you want and I will run wherever you want. So, you can use me as much as you want. It’s okay if you don’t treat me like a human, and it’s okay if I leave scars anywhere on my body. “Because I really, really don’t want anything from you.”

There was no shady plan or other hidden agenda.

“So, just stay by my side.”

I thought the only way for me to be forgiven was to hand him the leash, the same way he controlled my life.