The Hero’s Brother Is Bound To Be Depressed - Chapter 340



341 – Gaps in probability

When Ellie tried to bring my hand closer to her chest, I roughly pulled my hand away. Perhaps not expecting me to react like that, Ellie bit her lower lip, swallowing her breath.

“Do you really think I would want that?”

When I asked in a low voice, Ellie stood up hesitantly and answered with an anxious expression.

“You can’t help it because of the settings. I just wanted you to feel comfortable… Jeong, really. You can swear with magic if you want. It’s okay to put restrictions on my heart. Even if others find out, everyone will admit that I did something wrong-”

“… stop. “Please stop, Ellie.”

I cut off Ellie’s words because I didn’t think I could hear any more. It was true that even now that she had regained her memories, she was still instinctively drawn to Ellie. But that was because of Ross’s unrequited love for Ellie, not because I truly liked Ellie.

I never wanted Ellie to be blindly dragged around by me. She just thought that it would be nice if they could be friends for each other. Like a one-sided relationship between friends of the opposite s*x.

But it seems like we are destined not to have a normal relationship. What’s worse is that as Ellie continues, the instinctive desire to devour my will grows stronger. It was difficult to suppress the sadistic desire to pretend that I couldn’t win, to accept it and use Ellie to my heart’s content.

“Roh, Ross… I just want to be forgiven… “I really had no other intention.”

Even if it is sincere, does Ellie really not know that I cannot accept it? As I was dry washing my face, I looked straight at Ellie and said clearly.

“Even if you forgive me, our relationship can’t be repaired the way it was before.”

“… .”

“We can’t go back to the way we used to be. “In the end, we just end up hurting each other again.”

In a corner of my heart, the indelible scar left by Ellie still remains vivid. It remained so deep that it affected me even when I lost my memory.

“If you really care for me, for me to be happy being with Luna…” “You shouldn’t have accepted my desires, but you should have forced me away from my side even if you wanted to be by my side.”

“… “That is.”

Tears stream down Ellie’s pure white cheeks and around her eyes. Ellie, unable to make any excuses for her words and realizing her own contradictions, was unable to make any choice. She just looked up at me with her tearful eyes like a criminal waiting for her judge’s verdict.

“Let us not deceive the people we love. Even if you don’t get caught, even if you can fool everyone… “Because it means deceiving me to the person I love.”

Rejecting Ellie’s offer is something that any animal called a man will regret for the rest of his life. The Academy’s top talent, a girl’s lovely appearance and a voluptuous body that contrasted with it, were attractive enough even if it wasn’t Ross’s setting.

But that didn’t overcome my feelings for Luna. Even if I don’t have indomitable courage. Ellie suits best with Roel by her side, not with me. The reason the clumsy and impatient junior heroine learns true love is because the protagonist has a lot of experience with women.

“Roel really loves you, and I also really love Luna. We’re happy when we’re together. If you really want to be forgiven by me… “You just have to be happy with Roel like me.”

Ellie shed tears that made you wonder if she had shed so many tears. Although her face was a mess unlike usual, her sincere regret and reflection was better than ever.

I took out a handkerchief from the space storage room and handed it to Ellie. Wiping away her tears, Ellie took a deep breath and looked up at me with her steely, determined face. Her black eyes, which resemble obsidian, sparkle like starlight.

“Yes, I will. Because I also truly love Roel. We will love so beautifully so that Ross can smile with satisfaction when he sees us. “I will live happily ever after.”

I burst out laughing at that shy confession. This is because the joy of regaining something I had forgotten for a long time was greater than the sense of inferiority that swelled at the bottom of my heart.

That joy was because it reminded me of Ellie in the novel, who did not give up and confessed her love to her senior even though she was repeatedly rejected.

I slowly reached out and grabbed Ellie’s hand, who was still kneeling on the floor, and helped her up. As the distance got closer, the scent of strawberries came into the air, but strangely enough, I no longer felt sick. Should I say it is closer to comfort? The change made me laugh.

Now it’s time to return to the real purpose of finding Ellie. I pulled up a chair, made Ellie sit down, and sat next to her.

“I received the memories you gave me, so I’m sure you understood the situation. “I need your help to make a quantum jump right now.”

Ellie nodded, resting her chin on her hand and lost in thought for a moment. She looked pretty cool as she struggled with her academics. As if she had finished organizing her thoughts, she said as Ellie tilted her head.

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“You have already proven in other worlds that the connection between Roel and you is based on probability and is not something that can be broken like a curse, right?”

It seems strange that he came to ask for a solution to a problem he could not help with. But Ellie can help me. She just doesn’t know how because she hasn’t explained it yet.

“No, I already found a way.”

“what… ?”

To Ellie, who asked with a surprised face, I answered casually.

“You can kill me.”

“… .”

I smiled wordlessly at Ellie’s expression, which seemed to have stopped thinking for a moment beyond embarrassment.

The reason I, who had finally developed a somewhat normal relationship with Ellie, wanted to die at Ellie’s hands was, of course, to use Quantum Jump.

That was my way of escaping Roel’s setup, which was stealing everything I experienced.

Ellie, with an anxious face, probably thought I was contemplating suicide, and asked me while holding my hand as if trying to persuade me.

“… Also, what on earth does that mean? Well, you only managed to extend your lifespan with the help of a saint, right? But, you’re going to kill me… ?”

“huh.”

As I told Raelan before, I found a way to sever my connection to Roel. Thanks to regaining the essence of the author, I learned everything about how probability worked and how the settings connected to Roel and me worked.

“Do you remember when you were attacked by Roel and almost died on the passageway to another world?”

“Yes, I remember. “The concept of a passageway to another world was so interesting that I wanted to research it separately.”

“At that time, I barely escaped death and woke up a few days later. And when Roel from another world came to visit me, I got a clue to escape from the setting.”

Ellie looked at me with worried eyes. It seems like he hasn’t figured out what the clue is yet. After giving her a moment to think, Ellie, who was reflecting on what I said, suddenly widened her eyes.

“No way, no way…” “Why did Roel come to visit a few days later?”

“That’s right, Roel of that world said. He sensed me for a moment, but he couldn’t sense me when I was on the verge of death, so he didn’t come to me right away. “That was the clue to solving the problem.”

This means that if my heart stops completely and I die, my connection with Roel will be severed. Looking at Ellie’s anxious eyes, I shrugged her shoulders as if it was no big deal.

“I’m not saying I’m going to die completely. All you have to do is stop your heart for a moment and create the perfect opportunity to use Quantum Jump.”

“… “Do you know that if the heart stops, a person dies?”

“Yeah, that’s why I’m trying to stop my heart just for a moment.”

In response to my calm answer, Ellie slapped the back of the hand she was holding with a loud sound.

“You idiot! If your heart stops, you won’t be able to use Quantum Jump! Are you really going to take such a risky gamble just because you don’t want to hand over your experience to Roel? It is safer to persuade Roel. “I will do my best to help persuade you.”

I shook my head as Ellie’s eyes seemed to ask me to think again.

“Quantum jump is what I need most right now. However, it is difficult for Roel to become stronger right away. “Even if my heart stops, you can find a way to use quantum jump.”

If I combine Ellie’s magic with my knowledge of magic, I will be able to find a way to not die even if my heart stops. But perhaps because it was related to my death, Ellie was not easily persuaded.

“Of course, there are many ways to temporarily stop the heart. There are several curses that cause the opponent to fall into suspended animation. But no matter what magic, you can’t go more than a day without your heart stopping. Even if you use magic, you really will die.”

“That’s what I said. “It just stops the heart for a moment.”

Ellie frowned and shook her head.

“Even if you gain the ability through the quantum jump, you will eventually be able to reconnect with Roel by making your heart beat again… “Then it would be in vain.”

“No, it’s not nonsense.”

Ellie tilted her head at my immediate answer. As she was wondering if she had missed something, I decided to kindly explain.

“No matter what Ross does, he can’t beat Roel. No matter what he learns, he quickly catches up with Roel. “But you do know that that setting is not the complete reason why probability works, right?”

Ellie nodded slightly and answered in a bitter voice.

“The feeling of inferiority that Roel cannot experience… The reason probability worked was to make it possible to experience it through connection with you. “By creating a plausible reason related to the existing setting.”

“That’s right, Roel was able to get all the emotions and experiences I felt. He even killed Luna in front of the magician Ross in order to gain endless feelings of despair, anger, and pain in the other world. “To use the emotions I gained from Ross in the fight.”

The scene I saw in my dream was a memory of magician Ross. The terminal that led to the quantum jump showed memories of Roel through a dream.

I took Ellie’s book that was on the table, flipped through the pages, and drew on the blank page.

The drawing skills aren’t very good, but it’s enough to roughly explain the situation.

“Thanks to recovering the essence of the writer, I can understand how probability worked. “The key to the probability that worked for me and Roel is ‘real time.’”

“Real-time… ?”

“The emotions and experiences I am feeling right now are being transferred to Roel. Not past experiences or emotions… The current one. If the despairing feelings I felt in the past continue to flow into Roel, probability will actually end up interfering with Roel.”

Probabilities created to progress the story do not hold back the protagonist. So I was able to figure out that our connection condition was ‘real-time’.

“Thanks to reading the flow of probability, I was able to realize what I had been misunderstanding.”

Looking at Ellie, who was looking at me with a puzzled expression, I raised the corners of my mouth and answered in a confident voice.

“Roel did not obtain the essence of magic.”