The Hero’s Brother Is Bound To Be Depressed - Chapter 392



393 – Letter

As I was sitting on the terrace of a cafe, staring blankly down the busy streets of the capital, someone sat down across from me without permission. When she inadvertently turned her head, Ellie met her eyes and slightly pursed her lips.

“I’ve been looking for you for a long time.”

“… me?”

“It’s been a week since you dropped out of the academy and haven’t returned to Modest’s hideout. “It’s natural to be worried.”

I see. She had lost track of time because she hadn’t slept in a while. Ellie, who brought a tray with her strawberry smoothie and dessert, tousled her hair and lifted her mouth from her straw.

“Aren’t you cold? “It’s still winter.”

Unlike me, who was wearing a light winter coat, Ellie did not neglect cold protection measures. Her fur gloves, cream-colored earmuffs, and a red scarf with a cute picture of her on them were completely wrapped around her neck.

“are you okay.”

I’m not bragging, but I didn’t feel particularly cold. No, to be honest, right now I felt like all my senses were far away. I can’t feel the bitter taste of coffee or the fatigue caused by lack of sleep.

Ellie suddenly tilted her upper body towards me as if admiring a work of art and looked at me with wide eyes. She smiled slightly and asked.

“This was the cafe Luna and I often visited, right?”

Instead of opening my mouth, I responded with a small nod. She looked around and muttered that Ellie was a good cafe for a date, then looked at me again and blew as if teasing her.

Your breath turns into pure white smoke and rises into the sky. As I was looking at it blankly, Ellie spoke in a slightly damp voice.

“You seem very sad.”

“… I?”

“huh.”

Hearing the confident voice, I turned my head and looked at my face reflected in the window. There was no expression on the face. Both sadness and joy. The result of observation is that it seems like there is no thought.

“It just looks stupid.”

“Huh, lie. “Are you embarrassed that your true feelings were revealed?”

I didn’t have the energy to respond to Ellie’s playful voice, so I just closed my mouth. Ellie smiled kindly at me, who wasn’t showing any interest in the conversation.

“Would you like me to tell you why I said you looked sad?”

At those words, the hand that was reaching for the coffee handle stopped. She slowly lifted her gaze and met her eyes, and Ellie drew an arc at the corner of her mouth.

“You have the same face as me in another world.”

“… .”

“I guess we resemble each other in this way because we are childhood friends. “It’s like losing someone precious and wandering around because you don’t know what to do.”

I unconsciously refuted Ellie’s attitude of confirming that.

“I’m not wandering. I have a clear goal: to revive Luna. “For now, I’m just waiting for the labyrinth to open.”

My words ended with a puff of pure white breath. Ellie, who had been quietly listening to me, spoke with her obsidian eyes shining.

“Ellie in the other world is like that too. I had a clear goal: to help my lover and save the world. However, because I felt guilty about you, I devoted myself to studying hard every day without rest. “Like you, who acts like a lily every day and kills evildoers without stopping.”

“that… .”

“What do you think Luna would say if she saw your current state?”

For a moment, my jaw tightened. I slowly relaxed my clenched fists and sighed.

“I don’t want to talk about Luna.”

“why?”

I was speechless at that short question. I’m not asking because I don’t know the reason. Being quick-witted is Ellie’s strength. But Ellie was looking at me as if she needed to hear an answer. When I averted my gaze, Ellie held my hand.

I feel warmth in my cold, frozen hands. Ellie held my hand and spoke in a sweet voice as if she was holding a baby.

“Luna was something you could be proud of. You wanted to let everyone in the world know what a kind and lovely person Luna is. “But why don’t you want to talk about it now?”

I unconsciously bit my lip as Ellie’s words pierced my heart sharply. Luna has always been my pride. The day I decided to date Luna, I was so happy that for the first time, I was thankful for being possessed by Ross.

From the moment I met Luna, I lived in Luna’s story, not in a novel I created. I was so happy that I couldn’t even dare to dream, and I was able to understand what love was.

I, who was just living because I couldn’t die, learned how happy it is to be with someone precious. I loved Luna to the point where I inadvertently thought that as long as the other person is happy, I can’t wish for anything more.

Then Luna died. Horribly and horribly. Luna, who colored my dark and cold world with bright and warm colors, is no longer there.

It’s not a complete breakup. Because I will bring Luna back to life somehow. But will she be able to love Luna like before if she brings her back to life? No, even if it can be done, it shouldn’t be done that way.

I am the cause of Luna’s death. If it weren’t for me, Luna wouldn’t have gotten sick, and she would have enjoyed her academy life with her friends like Luna in another world.

It was my presence that broke Luna’s happiness. A mistake should only happen once. I hope Luna is happy. Even if she breaks up with me and likes someone else, I will smile and hope to be happy. Because she realized that if Luna wasn’t happy, she couldn’t be happy either.

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Ellie lightly tapped the hand he was holding. When I woke her up from her thoughts and looked up at her, Ellie grinned.

“I think I finally understand why you possessed Ross.”

Did Ellie realize the reason that I didn’t know? It was a bit surprising, so she was silent for a moment, and then Ellie spoke with a calm expression.

“Jin Xian and Ross, they are very similar.”

“… “Where are you going?”

“What a clumsy way to deal with sadness.”

While saying that, Ellie put her hand into her thick coat, took out something, and held it out to me. The moment I saw what it was, my eyes widened.

What Ellie handed over was a letter. A letter written ‘To Ross’ in a familiar handwriting.

“This is a letter that arrived at the Messiah club room a few days ago. “I think Luna sent it to you after arriving at the Star Fallen Portal Station.”

At Ellie’s words, the feeling that had momentarily disappeared returned. I received the letter with her trembling hands, as if shivering from the cold. With great difficulty, I tore off the sticker, took out the letter, and slowly read the contents, feeling my heart beating like crazy.

-A letter expressing regret over our breakup-

I was with you just now, but why do I already want to see you?

Probably because I love Ross so much.

Because I meant it when I said I love you more than anything in the world.

Thank you for always loving me when I am lacking, and thanks to Ross, I am so happy that I cry every day.

I wonder if Ross was happy to meet me or to love me… Actually, I already know the answer, but I still want to hear it for myself.

So I think Ross feels the same way.

I’m glad I met Ross and loved him.

I think there will be a lot of difficult things ahead.

Working as Lily and trying to save the world will both be difficult.

But now Ross has his precious family, friends, and lover always by his side.

If I’m having a hard time, I’ll cry as much as I want.

Ross can cry as much as he wants, too.

– A carriage has arrived to take you home. In my next letter, I will write down a list of must-eat restaurants in the capital.

Well then, thank you for the next 2nd year.

Luna was happy. When I thought that, the inside of my eyes suddenly felt hot. My vision is blurring. Tears welled up without stopping, as if something was broken. Ellie hugged me without saying a word and patted my back.

I cried out loud. Actually, I’ve been wanting to cry like this for a while. It is the death of someone who was everything to me. Despair and sadness were natural reactions. But I didn’t cry or feel sad.

I was scared that my feelings for Luna would disappear as much as the tears I shed. I wanted to swallow her sadness and keep it inside me forever. I didn’t want to leave Luna like that.

When I heard about Luna’s death, I ran away from reality. But I couldn’t run away anywhere. Because I couldn’t help but feel Luna’s empty space every moment.

When I walk down the street, I think of Luna, who was always standing on my right, and out of habit, I wave her hand in the air to hold her hand. When the food comes out, I try to make it easy to eat with one hand. Even though there is no reason to do so anymore.

After reading the letter Luna sent, I was finally able to cry freely. I am not relieved. It was only today that I accepted Luna’s death. Only then will we be able to move forward for Luna.

After crying as much as I could, the tears stopped. I fell on Ellie with a long sigh. I looked at Ellie. Suddenly, she felt a sense of déjà vu that there had been a moment similar to this, but she reflexively opened her mouth under Ellie’s gaze.

“… “Help me save Luna, Ellie.”

Ellie smiled infinitely sweetly at my words.

“Yes, of course I will help. “Because you are my precious friend.”

Ellie held out her little finger to me as if making a promise.