The Military Chef of a Ruined World - Chapter 438



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Episode 438 Adoption Proposal (2)

-Sugar!

The moment [Godmother] blocked my view with her hand.

What appeared before my eyes was a young child.

‘That’s.’

… … What should I say?

The child’s appearance seemed familiar to me, yet at the same time quite unfamiliar.

Actually, I don’t remember seeing it for a long time.

Still, I’ve seen the child in pictures a few times.

‘This is my childhood.’

This was me as a child.

* * *

A little child was crying as if the sky was falling down.

What was in his arms was a small white puppy.

Heh, heh… … .

I looked down at the puppy blankly.

The puppy was panting heavily.

Heh… … .

within.

Even my panting breath stopped.

-Sugar… … !

The life drains from that body that was warm just a moment ago.

The puppy’s once soft body gradually became cold and hard.

‘sugar.’

It’s the name of the dog I raised when I was young.

He wasn’t a very healthy child to begin with, and he was old for a child.

If you think about it calmly, Suga at that time was probably nearing the end of his life.

You could say that I have enjoyed a long life.

but.

‘I was young back then.’

When I was young, I didn’t know much about that.

I was just living my life as usual, when one day I saw Suga looking very sad.

Suga, who thought he was healthy, couldn’t last a week after becoming sick.

at that time.

I regretted it deeply.

‘I should have done better.’

do.

“Ugh… …!?”

That moment.

I feel an intense pain, as if my heart has been hit directly.

‘This is.’

Because of the extreme pain.

Cold sweat runs down my face and my vision becomes blurry.

-You don’t trust me either?

-Uh. I can’t believe it either, so just get out.

In that blurry vision.

Another clearly visible landscape.

I had a friend whom I considered to be my best friend, someone I had known since kindergarten.

I think it was when I was in middle school.

I had a huge falling out with that guy.

-I thought you would believe me.

I found out later.

It was entirely a minor misunderstanding on my part.

After I realized that, I wanted to go find him and apologize.

At that time, all contact and everything was already cut off.

I bitterly regretted my foolishness in not being able to trust my friend.

“Crunch… … .”

And after that.

Countless sights pass through my field of vision.

A memory of being embarrassed by a slip of the tongue.

I remember drifting away from the person I liked without even being able to confess to them.

I remember suffering great losses due to wrong choices.

I even remember my successor dying because of my trivial orders.

These are things that have become more and more dull over time.

At the time, I thought it was a big deal, but looking back, most of it was nothing special.

but.

“Take it… … gasp… … .”

At that time, really.

There were also times when I was so miserable that I felt like my world was falling apart.

‘Is this what you meant by ‘regret’?’

The godmother’s warning was not a metaphor.

He really made me regret it.

To be precise.

It was making me relive all the regrets I had in the past.

‘Ha, haha.’

The regret and pain of that time are so vivid.

It pounded my head and chest without giving me a moment to rest.

“Ugh, kekekeke… … .”

I thought as I rolled on the floor in pain.

These are things that happened a long time ago.

These were things I thought I could just get over without a problem.

‘If it were up to me, the past would be nothing… … . I want to do this… … .’

I guess so.

It seems that reality was not like that.

‘It’s not working.’

All of these appearances are illusions.

Is it because the ‘level’ has risen?

I was also able to instinctively realize how to overcome that illusion.

‘Just, just dismiss it as nothing and move on.’

Even though I could still feel the pain of that time.

If only I could think that even that pain was nothing.

‘If only I could just shake off this regret.’

[Godmother]’s attacks will have no effect on me.

but.

Only now, after going through these pains again, can I understand.

All the things I regretted in the past.

All those things that I thought were nothing special now.

‘still.’

Holding my ankle tightly.

I said it wasn’t falling.

Pretending to be cool, but saying the past is nothing.

What’s important is the future.

Saying something like that.

That would be impossible for me.

“Ugh… … It’s like a dog.”

I’m a person who originally had many shortcomings.

It’s quite hard to regret something in life.

It will probably be the same in the future.

I regret many things, and I will never be able to shake them off.

Each time, your steps will become heavier.

I feel my footsteps becoming increasingly heavy.

Forcibly, gritting my teeth.

I guess I’ll have to take it one step at a time.

‘That’s terrible.’

What is [Godmother] trying to tell me?

I could clearly see it.

“If you don’t want to do that, then hold my hand… … Is that it?”

but.

There was only one answer to the godmother’s words.

“X, you little shit… … .”

No matter how heavy my past regrets may be,

No matter how difficult it may be to move forward with it on,

‘now.’

Holding [Godmother’s] hand.

Being tied up there, it was no different from turning back.

It might make you feel better though.

The worst thing that can ever happen is to stop, and it is absolutely unacceptable.

‘Send it to me.’

Even with heavy footsteps like a dog.

First of all, I had to move forward.

“Crunch… … .”

Even though I was groaning in pain.

He moved his hands and swept the floor here and there.

As I was doing so, there was something within reach of my fingertips.

‘Dokgo Gu-shik.’

A knife that was carelessly dropped when he collapsed, groaning in pain.

I thought as I held the knife tightly in my hand.

‘It is impossible for me to defeat this attack in a standard manner.’

Shaking off all your past regrets?

There are probably great people who can do that.

Unfortunately, that wasn’t my story.

If there is no other way.

I will have to suffer here, buried in those regrets.

Then one day, you will get frustrated and give in to that [godmother].

but.

‘thank god.’

That’s just it.

That is, if there is no other way.

‘There is another way… …but it’s not like there isn’t one.’

A while ago.

I remember the orders Lieutenant Kim gave me.

‘A command to remember everything that happened here.’

If you think about it.

The order is to break free from the influence of [Godmother’s] power.

It was an incredibly difficult order.

but.

This is an order from Lieutenant Kim, who became an extremely powerful commander due to [Living Up to Expectations].

There, I even mobilized my cooking to amplify the effect of that command.

‘No matter how difficult the order was, I had to solve it somehow.’

in result.

I couldn’t even handle it properly.

Using the power that lies dormant within my body.

I managed to push away the power of the godmother that had taken root in my brain.

and.

The effects of cooking are temporary, though.

The aftermath is permanent.

The experience of having to carry out those ridiculous orders.

Thanks to that experience.

[’20’ divine power is infused into your weapon.]

I am.

I was able to gain some insight into the know-how of handling that power.

Countless memories appear before my eyes.

Let’s swing our swords sharply towards it.

Ugh… … .

[The divine power of ’20’ cuts through the interference of outside beings.]

All memories filled with regret.

It was torn to shreds.

* * *

“Keuh-euk… … !”

{… … How!?}

Come to your senses.

Before my eyes was the figure of [Godmother], flinching as if in great embarrassment.

{This is ridiculous! This is not a power that a normal mortal can handle!}

“I know.”

{Even if you have a mythical mental power, you can’t escape like this!}

and.

The countless bleeding eyes that make up [Godmother’s] body.

Those eyes were directed at the kitchen knife I was holding.

{That power… … my goodness!}

To be exact.

I was drawn to the power that was in that knife.

{Indeed, there was a reason for refusing the position of apostle.}

“Whew, my head.”

{No way.}

Okay then.

[Godmother] seemed to finally understand.

He muttered in a voice mixed with shock.

{I thought he was an idiot who was not just an apostle, but even beyond that… …!}

and.

Whether you’re that shocked or not.

“so?”

{what?}

“Didn’t I say something that would make you regret turning down my offer?”

I came to my senses to some extent.

He said this with a sly smile, leaving his aching head behind.

“Is this all? It’s not as bad as I thought.”

{What a piece of shit… …!}

I wipe the saliva from the corner of my mouth and collect my confused mind.

You said it was nothing special.

Inside, it was a little different.

‘I didn’t tell you to be careful of the outside world for nothing. This kid is an outrageous monster.’

No, the word monster doesn’t even fit.

A truly divine being.

‘I was lucky this time and was able to escape from that memory, but it was only a trick.’

If there had been no such expedient.

I could never have survived that guy’s attacks.

no.

Even if this expedient had existed, it would have been the same.

If only that guy had been just a little bit stronger.

I couldn’t have shaken off that illusion.

‘If you think about it calmly, it would be foolish to be hostile to a guy like that.’

A being worthy of being called a god.

That guy’s specialty seems to be in the area of ​​[regret] related abilities.

Perhaps, aside from these abilities, pure power is probably beyond the capabilities of someone like me.

But still.

‘There may be a way to deal with it.’

In the first place.

If there was no such method at all.

I would never have thought of being hostile to the guy like this.

actually.

When I first encountered Mirinae in that white space.

I was cautious in my actions because I thought that if I went against such a being, something big could happen.

‘Pride and all, what’s important is living.’

If you really say that there is no answer.

First of all, he must have gotten down on his knees and begged for his life.

You want me to be your son?

It wouldn’t be strange if he threw away his pride and everything and said, “Your mother!”

but.

I don’t pay any attention to that guy’s feelings.

Rather, it only made the guy angrier.

The attack I just received was like that too.

Considering the power that guy has, it might be a pretty risky move… … .

It wasn’t something I did without thinking.

‘I didn’t feel uncomfortable looking at this guy.’

It was different from the soldiers who couldn’t look at that guy straight in the eye.

When I looked at the being I encountered in Morzan’s memories, my brain almost exploded and I died.

Not now.

‘I guess I’m stronger than I was back then… … so that might be it.’

[Level 40] is said to be the standard for overcoming the level.

It is different from when I was in my early level 30s when I saw the memories of ‘Morzan’.

But that’s not all.

‘It’s much smaller than the monster I saw in Morjan’s memories.’

The more important reason is probably this.

‘More than Morzan, more than Belsnickel, more than Dasmur.’

I could realize it instinctively.

That guy is definitely a powerful being.

‘… … much smaller.’

maybe.

It would be a being that any awakened person of around level 30 would be able to look up to.

‘That guy is small compared to everyone I’ve ever seen.’

Perhaps a being of low rank among those who are considered gods or something.

Considering the fact that I didn’t notice the secret work of Mirinae that was hiding me even though I saw it right in front of my nose.

There was a high probability that he was of a lower rank than Mirinae, who he said was nothing special among the gods.

‘He said that he needed a medium to exert his power on this land. He also said that he was the only one qualified to fully receive the power of those beings outside.’

I don’t know what he’s going to do to me.

One thing was certain.

‘That guy’s power is now being exercised through Jang Young-woong!’

He is in his mid-level 30s and is not qualified to be a medium.

In fact, Jang Young-woong’s face, who had been repeating the same thing over and over again, looked haggard.

‘There’s definitely a limit to the power he can exert.’

It was probably thanks to that that I was able to tear through that guy’s attacks and escape.

When fighting against that Jang Young-woong.

The same goes for the indiscriminate destruction of Seoul.

The more severe the destruction, the more serious it is.

This was because I thought the power required for recovery would also increase.

{Nothing much?}

It may be impossible to subdue that guy.

By draining the guy’s strength as much as possible.

If only I could get it down to that limit.

{Then let me show you more.}

What should I try… … .

I don’t think there are any.