The Nature of Possession - The Nature of Possession chapter 133
133 – EP.6 When spring comes when flowers bloom -4
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Summer is over, fall is gone. That’s how winter comes.
After the cold winter, a new spring will come.
I think we are the seeds buried in the winter.
Like a seed that spends time in the ground enduring the cold of winter.
It is because you receive the harsh wind and waves with your whole body and gain the hope of living tomorrow.
Just as you can’t say that all the seeds will sprout, neither can we.
And there are those that first sprouted, blossomed, and then withered away.
There will be some buried in the ground and waiting for spring.
Emma.
I don’t know how long it took me to read this article.
And if you read this, what I wrote while spending time with you,
You will also realize that it is not a masterpiece that will go down in history, but an article addressed to a single person.
It’s hard to guess what you look like now reading the article, but I think I know this one thing.
You will still think of me, miss me, and want to meet me as soon as possible.
Is it excessive self-consciousness? I’d rather it be like that.
As I am writing this – so for you, it is past time – Emma, you are sitting in a chair five steps away from my desk and looking at me.
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Do you know that the way you look at me while I’m writing is really cute?
You’d think I didn’t notice, but I have the least sense.
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Did you get the letter from Mr. Ricardo well?
If so, you must have read everything written there.
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Did you spend the night at an inn in Rowan Village?
According to the newspaper, the window of the inn is open toward the entrance of the village, and it was introduced that the scenery is very beautiful when you open the window on a moonlit night.
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Did you see the Victory Tower?
It was built to commemorate Korea’s victory in the war, and it is said to be quite tall. I don’t know if I realized that height
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Did you visit Grandia Eleanor Cathedral well?
According to the people who have been to the cathedral, which has been under construction for 40 years, you can feel the sacredness from the moment you enter. Emma, I hope you feel the same way.
How was your meal at El Pio?
According to the tourist brochure, the meat melts easily and the alcohol is quite sweet. I don’t know if I fully felt the taste.
I dare to expect.
Emma, you may have been to all the places I told you to go, but I don’t think you enjoyed all the things I told you to enjoy.
I’m sure you’ve been struggling all day to decipher these odd characters.
How pretty the scenery is, how delicious the food is, how the history of this country has flowed…
It would be a value that is not important to you now.
Knowing that you would act like that, I had no choice but to do this.
It’s because I wanted you to find a very small reason to live in this world, at least in every case.
Because I know that if I die, you will die too.
I had no choice but to lie.
Even while telling a ridiculous lie that it was a masterpiece novel.
At first, I even thought of filling this manuscript with a list of meaningless characters.
However, when coincidence, fate, and God’s plan overlap and overlap, the day comes when you understand these words.
If what I left behind is meaningless text no different from that written by a madman…
How great is the emptiness you feel,
Because I could see how quickly you would give up hope in life…
So that you, who have come to know all these truths, can attach affection to this world and live.
I am going to convey my will, my heart, and my love to you carefully, letter by letter.
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Emma. you’ve been taking care of me for a long time
Now I can only remember the time I spent with you recently.
So, I’m sorry I can’t tell you about the memories you and I made.
However, I can say this with certainty.
Half a year or so with you was a really happy, serene, and time to look back on many things for me.
I want to thank you for giving me this time.
So I also wanted to give you something as a present.
I wanted to give you a reason to live in this world without me.
Although life is a series of irrationality and suffering,
I don’t know why this happened to me, and it makes me think that if I had been patient for a second, this wouldn’t have happened.
Sometimes they fall down because of sudden misfortune, or get caught up in an absurd incident and make everything go to waste.
In order to achieve something, I have to sacrifice myself, and what I tried to do well sometimes grabs my neck.
I wanted to let people know that life is worth living.
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Emma. Just as winter always comes, spring always comes.
If you wait a little bit, winter will pass.
Right now, you don’t know when the wind and snow will stop, and you’ll shudder with the chill to your bones.
Still, spring always comes.
When spring comes and flowers bloom.
The chill of winter is completely forgotten.
Emma. Don’t despair because it’s winter.
Spring is always warm.
The time between you and me has come to an end with parting.
I am the sunset and a withering flower.
You are the rising sun, a flower that has just budded.
You don’t have to be tied to someone passing by.
I want you to find your life now.
Open the door of the old mansion and go out.
meet people meet love
Taken by an unknown gentleman, leave the days you dedicated your life here.
See, eat, smell, and feel something new.
I’m sure you’ll find a reason to stay in this world.
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It’s time to end the story.
I intend to send a letter to Mr. Ricardo sometime tomorrow.
Because now I feel the end of my life.
No matter how much I experience and experience death, I don’t seem to get used to it.
Emma. Laugh, love, dance.
This is my last wish.
Waiting for the blooming spring, Kang In-ho.