The Returning Doctor Wanted to Live Quietly - Chapter 306



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Episode 306. Vice Resident (2)

Resident lounge.

Jang Hyuk-jun, who should have left work, was left alone.

Jinhyuk immediately tilted his head at that sight.

“Aren’t you off work? You’re not even on duty.”

“Is getting off work a problem right now?”

“… … ?”

“Okay. Okay.”

“Why? What’s going on?”

“Don’t be ridiculous. Something exactly like that happened.”

Jang Hyuk-jun turned his head with a blank expression.

What he’s looking at is a book called “Mom! The surgery was easy!”

One of the Mom series published by Asin Hospital. It was an atlas covering all surgeries in general surgery.

‘You’re suddenly studying? And you’re Mr. Jang?’

“Why? What is it? What is happening?”

“Ha… … . You wiped it in front of the intern. Is that all you can do? Are you a surgeon? You should know how embarrassing it is. Why did you come in? Just for the record. I thought your ear was bleeding!!”

“Did you do it?”

“What the hell. I lost my seat in the middle.”

“ah…….”

“This is all because of the True Medical Support Team. What the heck is this!”

“… … .”

“Oh, really. I should stop talking.”

Unlike himself, who somehow managed to complete the surgery by using his drinking skills, he looked like he was shaved like a dog.

Jinhyuk smiled bitterly without realizing it.

True Medical Support Group.

It is true that they have made a great contribution to filling the medical gap caused by the strike.

The aftermath was huge.

Others are also the same in that they did not learn properly when they should have.

Jinhyuk shrugged his shoulders, sat down on the sofa, and started operating the VCR, since he was in the same situation.

I plan to watch all the surgical videos I borrowed from the Surgical Clinical Techniques Center.

The problem is.

‘They’re all different.’

That you can’t specify anything.

Height at which the stoma is removed.

Surgical method.

To the location of the ostomy.

It was so varied that the expression ‘myriad’ was fitting.

“Hmm.”

When Jinhyeok let out a deep sigh, this time it was Jang Hyukjun who looked puzzled.

“why?”

“They all have different styles. Professor Jang is very fast. Well, he does fast surgeries. He believes that saving time is the best thing for the patient.”

“But?”

“Professor Sung is the complete opposite. He thinks that perfect surgery is the best… … The problem is that Professor Park is different. Professor Seo is different. Professor Chang is different.”

“It’s hard to set a benchmark? But, well, you can do it anyway.”

“… … .”

“Hey, what am I saying now?”

What’s the problem?

Jang Hyuk-jun also believed that he could do it easily.

at last.

“Let’s study.”

Jinhyuk had to keep his mouth shut.

If in my younger years I suffered from prejudice against other students, now I suffer from prejudice against geniuses.

Studying was the only way to survive.

No, by the way.

How could Sisyphus ever have been happy?

If you were unhappy, you were unhappy.

Seo Sang-soo’s incomprehensible words just linger in my mind.

* * *

Pre-rounding and rounds.

Dressing and charting.

Pre-op and post-op.

From surgery to writing surgical records.

Every day, the same routine was repeated, like a hamster wheel.

Doing the same thing every day, like Sisyphus rolling a stone, is a daily routine.

Well, isn’t it different since I’m a doctor?

It was the same as working people.

Of course, if I had to point out a difference, there were some differences.

Each patient’s personality, symptoms, and illness are all different.

The good thing is that I get to experience something different in my daily life by performing different surgeries every day.

After the surgery was over, Jinhyuk, who was the first assistant, bowed his head.

“Thank you for your hard work, professor.”

“Thank you for your hard work. But, earlier, when you were stopping the bleeding, why did you use a scalpel?”

“Ah, I didn’t know that… … .”

“It just went out of hand?”

“yes.”

“Holding the bleeding with the side of the scalpel. It’s the first time I’ve seen it. I said it was the first time I’ve seen it. Hehe. As expected, it’s this teacher.”

“Professors do it too… … .”

“You’re a resident! Haha!”

I moved instinctively because I thought the bleeding would be severe.

All I did was apply pressure to the open blood vessel lumen with a wide side blade, and I was showered with compliments.

That’s even when you block a blood vessel hole with your fingertip.

A lacerated skin wound. That is, when suturing a wound over a bone, when the bone, not the wound site, is pressed hard.

The same thing applies when doing ligation and suturing that everyone else does.

Jinhyuk, who always heard that he was good at whatever he did, headed straight to the resident lounge.

The situation after work is over.

I had to study.

but.

‘Mr. Jang again? They say that when a person suddenly changes, it means it’s time for them to die… ‘

Jang Hyuk-jun was studying again.

Looks very determined.

Jinhyuk took out one of the earphones he was listening to and put it in his ear.

“It doesn’t match. Why is it so classic?”

“It’s not classical, it’s a recording of a live violin performance.”

“It seems like it was played a long time ago. How many years has it been?”

“Well, it was a long time ago. It was four years ago.”

“Are you listening to it as white noise? There are studies that say that it doesn’t work.”

“There are also papers that say it’s effective. Well, anyway. PD Jeong likes it, so he listens to it. He has to study, so don’t bother him.”

When Jang Hyuk-jun waved his hand, Jin-hyeok tilted his head.

Why am I so upset?

They say that if you were born with a silver spoon in your mouth, you can open a business if you want.

Jang Hyuk-jun has been very sensitive these days.

As Jinhyeok stood next to him and listened to the violin performance, Jang Hyukjun grumbled again.

“I heard you even caught bleeding on the blade next to the scalpel today. I’m dying.”

“Actually, I want to die too. I just don’t say anything.”

“Are you stressed?”

“Of course. No one acknowledges the gap. Patients are patients, guardians are guardians, professors are professors. They are all treated as geniuses.”

“You don’t really like it?”

“yes.”

“Ugh. This won’t work!”

Jang Hyuk-jun, who was listening to a violin recital that Jeong A-reum was interested in while studying, suddenly got up.

What followed was a headlock.

He must have thought I was talking about being full, even though he was really hungry.

“Ugh. Let go. Let go!”

“asleep!”

“No, really!”

“Die!”

“Ahh! What are you doing!”

Jinhyuk, who had barely escaped after struggling, cleared his reddened neck.

Childish play.

It’s so absurd that I can only laugh.

“Ah, really. I am.”

It was when Jinhyuk clicked his tongue and was about to move to watch the surgical video.

Suddenly, the performer’s voice rang out from the earphones.

[In fact, practice is a continuation of suffering. There are many difficult times. I can’t make mistakes. I can’t disappoint. I have to satisfy. There are many times when I worry.]

[So I practice every day. Like Sisyphus who had to roll a rock up a mountain. I practice and practice every day. Otherwise, God will be angry.]

[Ah, the god here is all of you who are here now! Hoho!]

A violinist who compares violin practice to punishment.

He said that he never put down the violin under any circumstances.

Of course, it’s also about trying to enjoy it.

Jinhyuk sighed when he heard that he was trying to be happy like Sisyphus.

He himself always found surgery fun.

Was it because it was thoracic surgery?

No, it wasn’t.

It was fun because I just liked saving patients.

But now.

In the eyes of those around you.

Or in anticipation.

I was too burdened by my own lack of skills.

Jinhyeok, who listened to the concert until the end without leaving his seat, asked.

“Who is this person now?”

“Don’t you know Park Seon-jeong? She’s retired now.”

“I didn’t know.”

“Oh, don’t interrupt and let’s go! Go! The genius is interrupting the fool right now!”

Jinhyuk shrugged and headed straight to the computer.

I have always liked classical music.

I haven’t heard the violin solo, but when I did, it sounded pretty good.

Her thoughts too.

Performance too.

Everything.

* * *

“You want to observe?”

“Yes, professor.”

“You must be busy already. What about observing? I performed five, no, six surgeries every day. The surgeon also performed one surgery every day.”

“I still want to study, but I can’t because of the limited working hours.”

“Haha, right.”

Professor Seo Sang-soo clicked his tongue in astonishment.

While others are busy rejoicing, saying that now that the special law for medical residents has been enacted, they can finally live like human beings.

You even want to observe it?

It was a look that I couldn’t understand at all.

“I have been focusing on studying internal medicine for fear of receiving a barrage of questions and criticisms.”

“okay?”

“Yes, ultrasound cases, CT image analysis, and even electrocardiogram analysis. I studied and studied hard.”

“Is the surgery a bit lacking?”

“Yes. I would like to learn more.”

“A genius who works hard… … Well, it’s good. It’s good. I’ll tell you in the meeting. But you still have to get the surgery. Nothing improves your skills as much as actual combat.”

“Thank you, professor.”

Jinhyuk bowed his head and immediately stepped back.

Just work hard.

I pledged that this was the way to repay the patients, their guardians, and those who had expectations of me.

So I’m thinking of running for a bit.

Let go of your impatience.

Just work hard.

Running silently, looking only ahead.

That was the conclusion I came to after listening to the violin solo.

Oh, of course, I didn’t intend to do it for long.

Because I had to spend time with my parents too.

* * *

Without even washing your hair

I didn’t even change my clothes.

Because I didn’t even want to bother going down to the laundry room in the basement.

Of course, the younger one offered to do the laundry for me, but I wouldn’t let her do that either.

Because it is a bad habit that must be eliminated.

Brushing your teeth?

This was also skipped.

Just replace it with gargle.

I cut out all wasted time and focused solely on studying.

When you keep moving around in such a shabby and beggarly manner.

There was a commotion at the station.

“What about history taking?”

“That’s it, I’m sorry!”

“How many times have I told you… … . Hey, you have to do this!”

“That’s… … . The patient doesn’t answer as if he really has aphasia.”

“Aphasia? Ha… … . Okay. Okay.”

A second year yearning for a first year.

Compared to the internal medicine department, she looked like an angel, but Jinhyuk tilted his head.

‘Whether you came as an outpatient or to the emergency room, there would have been a history taking.’

Jinhyuk tilted his head as he wrote the surgery record again.

A first year student approached from the side. That is, only Bae Seong-man was seen chatting.

The patient’s name is Park Seon-jeong.

Coincidentally, it was the same name as the violinist I met through Jang Hyuk-jun some time ago.

at last.

“Why aren’t you answering?”

Jinhyuk, who had been absent-minded for a while, spoke.

“Just… … . Um. You don’t know who I am? Well, you just say things like that. You don’t answer properly.”

“Really? Where did you come from?”

“I brought the patient who was lying down from the ER. The numbers were really bad. But they said he didn’t speak properly there either… … .”

“Let’s go together.”

“No. I’m busy.”

“It will only take a moment.”

“Thank you, sir!”

As the first year lowered his head, Jinhyuk burst into laughter and moved.

I plan to satisfy my curiosity and also keep my juniors from running away.

All I had to do was cut down on my sleep and I was done.

* * *

That moment.

Park Seon-jeong, who was lying alone in a single room, was looking down at her fingers.

Hands that can no longer hold the violin.

I thought practice was painful.

I thought it was really hard.

But hell was right before my eyes.

The punishment of Sisyphus.

It was never a practice or anything.

Not being able to do what I love. That was the real pain and hell of royalty.

The problem is.

‘Nobody knows me. Nobody knows who I am. Nobody knows what I do.’

That no one recognizes you.

He has won several awards in competitions and has also been interviewed by the press.

That’s not all.

He was quite famous not only in Korea but also in the US and Europe.

But it was forgotten.

That too, is very far away.

They say the public is the type to be excited and then suddenly burst into cold laughter.

What a harsh reality.

So I just keep my mouth shut.

Knock knock.

Knock knock.

The moment I closed my mouth, a sound I didn’t want to hear came out.

When things were going well, I considered this a glorious wound, but not anymore.

The foreign feeling and discomfort only make me more annoyed.

Nothing really went as planned.

“under…….”

When you exhale so deeply.

The hospital room door opened with a creaking sound.

“I, the patient.”

“… … .”

“It’s because of the treatment. Are there any other medications you are taking?”

“… … .”

“You need to tell us about things like diabetes, hyperlipidemia, and smoking history before you can have the surgery.”

A doctor who is annoying.

Park Seon-jeong remained silent.

Of course I knew.

This is not right.

But my twisted mind was moving on its own.

‘I’m finished anyway. I’m finished.’

Even though I gave the order to refrain from doing so, the other person kept saying strange things.

“You asked me if I knew who I was? I think I know who I am. Let me guess.”

“… … .”

“Hey. I heard you asked that to another teacher.”

“… … .”

“Am I mistaken?”

Park Seon-jeong sneered as the young doctor pestered her as if he would be in the hospital room for the rest of his life.

“Really? Who am I?”

“Can you show me your hands for a moment?”

“… … .”

“I have to see something to get it right.”

My breath also smells.

It looks like you haven’t washed your hair in a while.

When the doctor, who was really dirty, asked to see her hand, Park Seon-jeong hesitated.

The most important thing for a violinist is the hands.

Even though he had been retired for quite some time, he still didn’t do the dishes.

at last.

“Well, you have a lot of calluses.”

“Why? So that’s the problem?”

“No, that’s not it.”

“Please raise your hand slightly… … .”

“It’s not hydrocephalus.”

“Oh, I know. Could you turn around for a moment?”

A request to show your back.

Although it was an unexpected request, Park Seon-jeong obediently followed the order.

What exactly did you do?

It was a gesture that contained the hope that someone might guess who it was.

* * *

‘What on earth has been going on?’

“I think you played the violin.”

“Oh, how did you know?”

“It’s a habit to slightly shake your hand. It’s called vibrato. You have to do it so habitually that you don’t even realize it.”

“… … .”

“And the chin. The chin.”

“Why the chin?”

When Jinhyeok pointed to his chin, Park Seonjeong asked back as if asking what the problem was.

At this, Jinhyuk smiled brightly.

I don’t know the exact circumstances, but I’ll just start a conversation.

It was the basis for building rapport.

“The skin under my chin is discolored. I think it’s because of the chin rest. Isn’t it?”

“that…….”

“Oh, and you don’t wear makeup. Actually, your joints make a lot of noise. When you tilt your head to the left to support the violin. Well, I heard that it often causes temporomandibular joint disorder.”

“… … .”

“And my fingernails are really short. It’s a habit. I keep my fingernails short every day.”

“… … .”

“And our hand sizes are different. Is this enough?”

You’re saying that you didn’t get it right?

Park Seon-jeong answered bluntly.

“You weren’t asking me to guess my occupation, you were asking me who I was.”

Such an easy answer.

Jinhyuk hesitated to answer and asked an unexpected question.