The Villainess in the Romance Fantasy Is Strange - Chapter 61



61. Not a confession, but a proposal (4)

“… … Are you feeling it? Me?”

What is this?

I don’t know for sure, but it seems like something happened. If I remember something, I’ll try to infer it.

My last memory is of leaning against the wall and falling asleep at some point. I don’t even know what I did to Leah.

So, with his gaze, he asked, ‘Where and how did I touch…?’ Leah did not answer, but only smiled meaningfully.

“… … Huh.”

That’s why I feel like I’ve done something terrible.

If you had just told me frankly, I would feel less uncomfortable.

As I stared into Leah’s large blue eyes, I felt a little uncomfortable and quickly turned my head away. Then, I slowly let go of the wrist I was holding onto, and at that moment.

“… … You know, Cain?”

Leah reached out with both hands and grabbed my cheeks, turning my head around. Thanks to that, I was forced to meet her gaze, and I froze like an idiot, still holding the mug.

“If you say you don’t remember, it doesn’t mean it never happened, right?”

“yes?”

“… … After doing such things to me.”

“And that kind of thing… … ?”

“Yeah, that kind of thing.”

Is it just me or is it not my imagination that the ‘that kind of thing’ that Leah mentioned sounds quite impure?

… … Well, that’s probably true. Otherwise, Leah wouldn’t have had to emphasize it to me.

But, what kind of things are these?

What on earth did I do to Leah while I was drunk?

Since I couldn’t bring myself to ask with my mouth, I asked cautiously with my eyes. Leah seemed to be lost in thought for a moment.

It seems like he’s having trouble deciding whether he should be honest about this or not.

“… … It was rough.”

“Is it rough?”

“Yeah, really.”

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“… … What was so rough?”

At my question, Leah slowly averted her gaze.

It is a way of expressing through one’s body that one does not want to answer.

Even though there was no word, I swallowed the lump in my throat as I realized it through Leah’s eyes and the atmosphere she was giving off.

I’m not sure what exactly was rough about it, but I think it’s true that I was rough with Leah.

That’s understandable. Leah is a kind-hearted girl, so she honestly told me that if it weren’t for her, it wouldn’t be there. She’s not the kind of woman who would make things up out of nothing and make me feel indebted.

Because I knew that very well, I was afraid that it would be a confirmation of my own death, so I never asked Leah about what happened on the night of the hunting festival.

“… … .”

Since the chances of Leah lying to me are close to 0%, wouldn’t it be right to assume that I did something stupid without realizing it while I was drunk and passed out?

When I thought about it that way… … I realized that I was a really bad person.

Even if he said he did it while drunk, he did something like that to a girl and then shamelessly went and got some medicine and drank it as if nothing had happened.

Because I felt so pathetic about myself, I couldn’t look at Maria’s face and just moved my lips.

“Oh, but… … . Don’t worry too much. I didn’t tell Dad anything, so he probably won’t know.”

Count Macmillan seemed to know that Leah and I shared a room that day.

But if Leah didn’t say anything, how on earth did you find out?

I had a moment of doubt because something didn’t seem right. In fact, someone as skilled as Earl Macmillan would have more than enough ways to figure it out. If you just ask him directly through the communication crystal right now, he’ll explain it to you in detail.

“Didn’t the Count question you?”

“Yeah, you did. But you said nothing happened. You didn’t believe me though.”

“… …Why did you say nothing happened?”

“Well, why do you think that might be?”

“… … .”

Yeah, why is that?

Even if you had just hinted at it, I would have been in a lot of trouble. Leah didn’t do that.

“… … Have you finished taking the medicine?”

“yes.”

“Okay, give me the cup.”

As I handed over the cup obediently, this thought suddenly occurred to me.

Leah, who gave me her health supplements without showing any sign of displeasure even though I was the worst man ever, is such a tolerant woman.

How kind and gentle must one’s nature be for him to treat me like this?

It may sound contradictory, but for a rotten person like me, I realized that Leah was such a pitiful woman, and at the same time, I had a strong desire to not let her go.

“Why are you sweating so much, Cain?”

“Um, that’s… … .”

If you don’t care in this situation, then you have no emotions.

I was speechless, half feeling sorry and half wanting to apologize. Then, Leah put down her mug, took out a handkerchief, and began to gently wipe my forehead and the bridge of my nose.

“Please, lower your head for a moment so I can clean it for you.”

“You don’t have to do that… … .”

“Oh, here we go again. Didn’t I tell you to accept it gratefully and not say anything nonsense in times like this?”

I’m sorry, and I’m also grateful, so I can’t help but say something unnecessary.

Even though something like that happened, when I see Leah treating me like nothing happened, or even better than usual, I feel like a corner of my heart keeps getting stabbed.

It’s not a pang of conscience or anything like that… … It’s more like a pain that comes from a more fundamental emotion.

“Lady Leah. Do you happen to know the conversation that has taken place between our family and Lady Leah’s family over the past few days?”

“Huh? A story?”

As expected, you don’t know.

Well, if I had known, I wouldn’t have reacted like this.

He said that we would keep quiet until I personally told him the story and got his consent to the marriage, and it seems that was true.

If you had told me in advance, I wouldn’t have had to worry like this… But what can I do? I did something wrong, and if I think of it as the price I’m paying for it, this little bit of mental anguish isn’t even that much of an anguish.

“Didn’t Count Macmillan find out that I shared the same room with Lady Leah on the night of the hunt?”

“Yeah, but?”

“So, the talk came about taking responsibility.”

“responsibility……?”

Perhaps because it was a statement that cut off both the beginning and the end, Leah tilted her head as if to ask what it meant.

“Take responsibility? What, how?”

I took a deep breath and slowly opened my mouth.

“That’s it, me.”

“Yeah, me?”

I spent a long time wondering where and how to begin explaining this.

“In order to take responsibility for Lady Leah, I think I should propose to you.”

He said it so plainly that his long worries seemed to have faded away.

“… … .”

“… … .”

And then silence flowed.

Nana and Rihanna, momentarily at a loss for words. They couldn’t say anything and just stared into each other’s eyes, blinking their eyelids.

I was like an idiot, and after a while, I realized that I had to clean it up, so I added in a hurry.

“Uh, um. That’s right. Well, of course you’re going to be embarrassed if I say this. But, this isn’t my personal opinion, it’s what the Count and my brother asked for. I think they think we had an accident that night.”

“… … ?”

“Oh, of course I’m not proposing to you just for that reason. Hmm, I don’t know how to explain it.”

Gulp.

I was so nervous that I swallowed the lump in my throat without realizing it and glanced at Leah’s expression.

“I’ve kept it a secret because I didn’t have a chance to tell you until now, but the truth is, I’ve always admired you, Leah. That night, I drank and couldn’t control my feelings, so I did that. I’m really sorry about that.”

“… … .”

“However, apart from the responsibilities that my family demands, I have no false feelings for Lady Leah. If I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have made such a foolish mistake.”

I had long since forgotten the comment I had prepared. I realized that I was rambling on and on, but I couldn’t stop talking.

If we stop now, the situation will only get more awkward.

I added, fiddling with the small jewelry box containing the necklace that I had kept in my bosom.

“I know it’s really shameless to say something like that after doing something like that. But please understand this. I really… … .”

“Cain.”

Leah, who had cut off my words, looked at me.

For some reason, all the color drained from his face.

Are you angry?

I realized the situation late and looked at Leah’s expression before muttering to myself.

“Excuse me, Lady Leah. If you don’t like it, let’s pretend this story never happened… … .”

Bam.

Leah grabbed my sleeve.

“Are you kidding me?”

“yes?”

“… … Are you kidding me?”

I only heard two words, but my heart started pounding.

… … My heart is pounding in a completely different way than before.

“hey.”

Leah called me with a voice that was more eerie than usual, and looked up at me with unfocused eyes.

“… …Who would confess like this?”

“… … .”

“How long have I waited for this moment… … . Who would confess so shamelessly, like a child making excuses… … ?!”

I said it desperately, but did Leah hear it that way?

For a moment, I almost felt aggrieved, but when I thought about it calmly, it wasn’t exactly wrong.

I didn’t propose in a fancy way, nor did I tell her about my feelings first. I just made up an excuse that my family told me to, and asked her to marry me.

After hearing Leah’s words of sorrow, I was at a loss for words.

“What is that?”

“That?”

“What is that bulging thing inside your shirt that you keep fiddling with your hands?”

“Oh, this? This is a gift I was going to give to you, Leah… … .”

“… … Give it here.”

I have to give it to you because you asked for it.

I took it out obediently, pressed the button to open it, and showed her the necklace inside.

Leah looked at the necklace with an expressionless expression, then tapped the area around her neck.

“Take a look around yourself.”

“yes.”

He untied the necklace chain and carefully placed it around the back of Leah’s neck.

side-.

A soft sensation was felt on my lips, then disappeared in an instant.

While I was briefly distracted by the necklace, Leah suddenly kissed me on the lips.

“I’ll pretend I didn’t hear what you just said.”

“……yes?”

“That means such a stupid confession is invalid. That’s why.”

Following the unexpected action, unexpected words came out, and I was just flustered. Leah, her cheeks slightly flushed, touched my chest.

“Even if it’s later, next time I’ll prepare properly and confess in a cool way that I’ll be impressed.”

“… … .”

“Okay, didn’t you know?”

“… … Yes, I understand.”