This star is from the earth - #461 - Chapter 446: Portrait (Part 1)

When I went to Han Jue’s house, I ran into him packing his luggage and preparing to move.

The high-end apartment that Han Jue lives in belongs to the brokerage company [Sands Entertainment]. The contract with [Jinsha] is about to expire, and Han Jue does not intend to renew the contract, so he has to leave the place where he has lived for five years. Under my introduction, Han Jue rented an ordinary apartment that was only one-third of the high-end apartment.

At first, I was worried that Han Jue would pick and choose, after all, he is a star who is used to living in a big house. However, Han Jue’s transition from extravagance to frugality went smoothly unexpectedly. Han Jue complained that the original high-end apartment was too big and spacious, with weird decoration style, ugly furniture and no pets. After criticizing his own aesthetics, he said that the living was very difficult, “I don’t want to live there for a long time.”

When Han Jue completely denied himself, he was very calm and not embarrassed at all, as if he was not talking about himself.

Leaving a place where you have lived for a long time, packing your luggage is no longer a simple packing, but a tidying up of your life. What to take away, what to discard, and how to start life in the future, all depend on this sorting.

When I entered the house, Han Jue had almost cleaned up.

Han Jue was going to throw away a lot of eye-catching clothes with saturated colors, a few large art photos, and some messy magazines.

There is a cardboard box, a few stacks of books, a few simple clothes, a juicer, a stereo, a computer…

What piled up in the middle were those things that made him unsure whether he should take them away. Among them are treadmills, bedside lamps, sandbags and televisions. Han Jue pointed to the lamp and TV and asked me if [Jinsha] would ask him for money if I took this thing away.

I didn’t answer, because I saw guitars, electronic synthesizers, and arranger keyboards in the pile of objects that I wasn’t sure whether to discard.

Han Jue said frankly that he was planning to retire and was hesitating whether to give up music creation.

At this time, several months have passed since Han Jue’s comeback, and the response has been good, which can be regarded as a successful comeback, and his several music works have made great contributions. But now that his career has just improved, he is already seriously considering retiring.

Han Jue said that he was ready to retire from the first day of his comeback. And now is a good time.

Move to a new house and start a new life.

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Han Jue was born and grew up in Shanghai.

In the first seven years of Han Jue’s life, life was complete. Every morning when I wake up, I have breakfast, after school, I have snacks, and I listen to stories before going to bed. On weekends, I play with neighbors and friends. If you do well in the exam, you can go to the amusement park, and you can have a new dress for the New Year.

Parents are working hard for the family, and he just needs to grow up with peace of mind.

But everything in life was happy, and after Han Jue’s mother left suddenly, it took a turn for the worse.

Han Jue experienced a few days of nightmares. After his mother’s funeral, his father took Han Jue to move from one side of the magic city to the other. In the days to come, Han Jue was raised by his father alone. “This is actually a transition for me to live independently later,” Han Jue described those two years in this way. During those days, Han Jue’s father got drunk all day long, and there was almost no extra concern for Han Jue’s three meals except ensuring Han Jue’s three meals. Han Jue had to learn to take care of himself from then on.

After two years like this, my father finally said one afternoon that he was going to buy bread, but he never came back. Han Jue seemed to have expected all this a long time ago. He neither called the police nor asked adults for help, and quietly started his own life.

There were no neighbors, no relatives to visit, and no one noticed that Han Jue had become an orphan.

When most children were afraid of school and feared their teachers, Han Jue, who was an orphan at the time, was not afraid of anything and saw nothing pleasing to the eye. This kind of stabbing must be noticed by the teacher in the class. After failing to hand in homework a few times, the teacher started to hit his palms. Han Jueming was so painful that tears flowed out, but he still had a smile on his face.

Han Jue first caused trouble in class, then in grade, and then in school. Han Jue grows fast, has vigor, is fearless at an age, and is very talented in fighting. The last school was not enough for him, and soon Han Jue became famous in several nearby schools.

On the way home from school, he blocked people. When others saw him, he turned around and ran away. Han Jue didn’t chase after him. He stood still and counted down to five loudly. Go to Han Jue before [1], let Han Jue pat his head a few times, and the matter is over. If you’re still running, be prepared for a bloody nose.

Several gangster organizations wanted to recruit Han Jue, but Han Jue beat them up instead.

When Han Jue recalled that experience, he touched his chin like a bystander and analyzed: “It’s hard to guess what is going on in the mind of the second-year boy. If I really want to say it, it may be to obtain a kind of existence at that time.” Maybe it’s to attract attention, so I fight everywhere. Actually, I don’t know, after all…it’s been so long.” (Explained by Han Jue, [Secondary 2] means the second grade of junior high school.【中二少年] refers to adolescents with self-righteous thoughts, actions, and values.)

Perhaps it is because of the long-term environment of “you either fight your way out or become the blood on the road”. After that, no matter whether you are a trainee in [Blue Whale] or participate in a nationally-focused draft, Han Jue can always fight his way out of the tight encirclement , to be the last one standing.

After Han Jue joined [Blue Whale], according to him, his temperament has become more stable, and unnecessary fights have been reduced a lot, and he almost became a good person.

He has been a trainee for seven years and spent seven years training himself honestly. This is inconceivable for him who makes troubles as common as eating.

“When I think that tens of thousands of people will like me in the future, I can bear anything.” Han Jue said that the high-profile stage attracted him, and he found a goal to strive for, so he gave up his studies completely.

Han Jue became famous overnight in the draft competition. According to the judges at the time, his talent and strength were really a waste. But when idol fans come the fastest, then he has to be an idol.

However, he failed to make his official debut, so he did another thing that fit his personality—changing jobs before his debut.

Regarding this job-hopping, there are different opinions. Some people think that Han Jue has other secrets behind it, and some people say that Han Jue is inflated and betrayed his teammates and the company. Han Jue has not given a definite statement.

“I accept all the remarks about me being stupid and brainless. But the real reason is why, I won’t say it.” When Han Jue talked about this, he smiled gently, “Because at that time I didn’t intend to say it, and I don’t intend to say it now.”

Job hopping [Jinsha] did not allow Han Jue to have more achievements, more people’s attention and likes as he said.

Playing big names, leaving the show halfway through the recording, clashing with artists during the recording, beating reporters, pushing down fans… After a series of public outrages, Han Jue was finally expelled from the entertainment circle by the whole people.

I am deeply impressed by this expulsion. I used to be one of the people who agreed with [Han Jue get out of the entertainment industry].

I also had a deep impression on Han Jue at that time. At that time, Han Jue’s smile was so confused that he looked like a child who didn’t know what was wrong with him.

Now looking at Han Jue after his comeback, it is difficult for me to connect the two people before and after.

And the key to this lies in his three or four years of silence.