Time Mansour - Chapter 106
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Episode 106: Whenever I think of you, I have to go see you
The smell of alcohol lingers in the room.
The world was split in two.
It overlaps again and again.
I think I’m a little drunk.
The world and I, everything.
“Rumors are really scary.”
They say that if enough people believe it, it eventually becomes true.
“I’m not that great of a person.”
When I looked at the contract, I couldn’t help but laugh out loud again.
The contract sent by the company. The service fee has more than doubled.
‘This is exactly the amount I can receive.’
Rather than giving more here, it would have been better to just pay more for the cloud.
Most of the inquiries I receive are related to performance optimization.
The development trend that unconditionally emphasized fast and a lot has changed.
In the past, developers who had low completion rates but fast speeds were recognized because that type of development method was cost-effective.
As a result, there were many developers who had little understanding of databases.
The mindset was that if the development was done sloppily and the software performance was not good, we could just buy a better server.
Of course, the cost of buying a server was not small. However, since the server was an asset of the company, it was much easier to receive payment from above than from labor costs.
But since software began to move onto the cloud, the tone has gradually changed.
Because the cloud costs more to maintain as the amount of data used increases.
Fixed costs were incurred every month. It was a more sensitive issue for large companies.
Servers become assets once purchased, but cloud usage costs do not.
Ultimately, it is to reduce those fixed costs that customers come to me.
Especially for urgent companies that are just about to open.
‘Because I’m practically the only developer who can do fast and precise tuning.’
Still, to be honest, it’s a bit excessive for the labor cost of a single technician.
If I hadn’t been famous, it would have been impossible.
Actually, my skills and results haven’t changed at all.
Just because you’re famous, your price is going to get more and more expensive.
I knew full well that this was how the world originally turned.
Now that I’ve actually experienced it myself.
just.
I was wondering if this was right.
**
The next morning.
Shake off your hangover and get out of bed.
10:30 am.
‘Because there are fewer people in the morning.’
So I went to the gym at the same time every day.
Get on the treadmill and press the button.
Jiiing.
The road moves on its own.
For a life that neither gets ahead nor falls behind.
Everyone does their best, swinging their arms back and forth.
A road with the same starting point and ending destination.
Even though we were born knowing that we would eventually leave.
Gasp. Gasp.
I sweated hard.
After running like that for about 30 minutes, I get off the machine and roughly wipe the sweat with my sleeve.
What should I do today? I thought to myself as I turned my head and looked at the surrounding equipment.
“Is it worth doing?”
I made eye contact with a talkative old man.
“Yes. I’m used to it now.”
To the old man’s daily question, I smiled and nodded slightly.
“Is it hard?”
“Huh? No. After a few months, I got used to it.”
Well, I’m not a fitness addict, but…
But now it was pretty doable.
I’m starting to get used to the regular routine.
So I nodded.
“No. Not exercise.”
The old man shakes his head from side to side and sits down on the equipment next to him.
Hold the bench with both arms behind you and lean your back against the air.
He looked up, as if lost in thought for a moment.
“Everyone is having a hard time. The economy is not doing well these days.”
He opened his mouth slowly.
“Ah···yes.”
“There are no jobs for young people these days… It’s not easy.”
On the old man’s face, different colored emotions mix and gradually darken.
This is probably it.
“···”
It seemed like there was a huge misunderstanding.
Because I come to the gym at this time every day.
Because I’m killing time at the gym while other people are working.
I guess I looked like a loafer because I couldn’t find a job.
Well, it’s true that I don’t go to work.
If you think about it.
Because it’s not completely wrong again.
“Oh. No. It’s okay.”
I just bowed my head awkwardly.
“But don’t give up and keep going. You seem like a pretty honest person. If you work hard, good days will come.”
Then the old man pats my back gently and gets me up.
A middle-aged man offers words of comfort to a wandering young man.
Really. It was a beautiful sight.
If.
“Sir… That person is not unemployed.”
Unless someone from the side added a word.
“huh?”
“He’s a famous developer. He must earn much more than you.”
A man who looked to be around my age, in his mid-thirties. He just turned his head and blurted out a word.
At that moment.
“Ah. Ah… really?”
The old man stuttered, seeming embarrassed.
“Yes. They say in the community that they have hundreds of billions in assets. But is that true?”
Hundreds of billions. That’s a pretty astonishing number. The old man’s eyes widened.
He looked at me with his mouth wide open.
“No way. It’s all just a rumor.”
I waved both hands urgently. Before I knew it, my head was turning from side to side.
That’s ridiculous. There are people who actually believe that.
Unless you are running your own business or are the CEO of something, there is no way a single developer could make hundreds of billions in the first place.
“Ah… I’m sorry. I said something unnecessary.”
An old man scratching his head in embarrassment.
I hesitated, not knowing how to answer.
“No, that’s not true. It’s like being unemployed.”
I just scratched my head along with him.
An awkward atmosphere circulated, carrying the smell of sweat from the gym.
The old man, unable to bear the current, gets up from his seat and heads towards the apparatus as far away as possible.
uh···
He gave me advice with good intentions, but it just ended up creating an awkward situation for both of us.
“···”
I don’t know.
I guess I’ll have to talk to him first later.
Because he doesn’t seem like a bad person.
With that thought in mind, I turned my head and started exercising again.
**
Carols resonate ominously inside the cafe.
When Christmas came, this manager came instead of Santa Claus.
like that.
You came down to Ansan all of a sudden without any contact.
“If things continue like this, Youngjun won’t be able to hold out. We have to expand the business no matter what!”
He is in the middle of raising his voice.
The manager looks at me with worried eyes.
“It’s okay. I’m not doing this to make money anyway. You know that.”
“But still. Let’s say it’s like that now. Will you be able to handle it later? Even if you pay all the credit card fees yourself?”
The director’s voice is filled with concern.
Maybe that’s why, even though he was angry at me, he felt grateful first.
Well. Actually, I didn’t expect the card fee. The donation amount is the card fee. Since I had to pay for that, the expenses were much larger than I expected.
But my service fees are quite high, so it’s enough to offset that to some extent.
To be honest, I’m not at the point where I should be out on the streets right now. I’ve been able to make a living so far.
“Youngjun, if you do that, you’ll end up broke.”
“Hey, not to that extent.”
I wave my hand and laugh off the director’s words.
Money is something that comes and goes anyway.
Rather than throwing it away for nothing, I wanted to use it for something meaningful.
Just think of it as buying a few expensive luxury items.
In the end, luxury goods and good cars are purchased for self-satisfaction.
In the same vein, this is all just my self-satisfaction.
“Oh my. Youngjun. Why on earth are you doing this?”
Worry, anger, confusion, embarrassment, etc.
A variety of emotions are clearly expressed on this director’s face.
Emotions each have their own color, and when they are all mixed together, a deep darkness falls over the face.
“No. Youngjun, you’re old now. You can’t work your whole life… and…”
He continued to nag me with a dark expression.
To be honest, I am emotionally grateful.
still.
As I kept listening, I felt like my ears were going to bleed.
“But. This director?”
First, I called the director to change the subject.
“why.”
“But that’s what you came all the way here on Christmas Day to say? Aren’t you going somewhere?”
“No, that’s not it. And I have nowhere to go anyway.”
“Then you should spend Christmas with your family?”
“Don’t be ridiculous. I went to see that family and got kicked out.”
“yes?”
“I’m telling you to go out and meet people. What are you doing on a day like today instead of going out?”
“Who is it?”
“Everything. Everything. Even my parents and older brother.”
I was grumbling to myself and then I drank some coffee because my throat was burning.
“Ah… Do you live with your parents?”
“No. I live separately. Every time I called, he kept saying things about not coming home, so I remembered him today and went to see him, but the funny thing is, he told me to leave again today.”
And then, the director continues the conversation, wondering if he is still dissatisfied.
“That damn marriage. Meet a man. So you’ll get married? That’s why you don’t go home often. Honestly, these days, there are more people around me who don’t get married than those who do. Isn’t that right?”
“What… is that so?”
The truth wasn’t important anyway. Since it was a question asking for agreement, I nodded my head roughly.
“That’s right. Youngjun, you know that too. Youngjun, you’re old too. You won’t hear that kind of thing at home. From your parents… Ah!”
The director stopped talking excitedly.
After saying that, I guess he also felt sorry.
He looks at me with a helpless expression.
Honestly, I don’t care, but this manager seems so flustered.
“I don’t know. I’ve hardly ever heard anyone tell me to get married.”
I shrugged my shoulders and answered as jokingly as I could.
I tried to show my concern by making gestures, but honestly, I don’t know if I handled it well.
“I’m really sorry. I keep forgetting. Youngjun···”
“No, really. I’m fine.”
The director stutters as if he is about to cry. During the short time they are talking, his expression changes in various ways.
Actually, I know this director’s feelings very well. He must have been kicked out, but he must have come to take care of me because he knew I would be alone.
I felt grateful inside, but I was too embarrassed to express it outwardly.
“But this director really needs to get married quickly. He’s at his age now.”
I’m going to nag you for no reason.
Just listen to my nagging.
The director’s face turned red again.
“Youngjun, hurry up! I’m still in my early thirties!”
The complexion returns to its original state.
**
December 31st.
It’s the end of this year.
The last day of a crazy year.
I greeted the new year in front of the monitor.
-I removed some of the data source selection section. If you check the chart…
I tried to reply to the customer, but I deleted it again without sending it.
And then I just pulled down the messenger window.
Take your hands off the keyboard, lean back in your chair, and the back of the chair will tilt back.
I’m going to be spending today with my family. I don’t want to be interrupted by work.
I don’t usually attach much meaning to dates, but today for some reason I feel a little empty inside.
It feels empty and hollow, like an empty room that has been cleaned up and tidied up.
“It’s been a long time since I’ve seen you.”
If my mom lived nearby, she would have naggled me a lot for not coming over often.
But it’s too far away now.
Rather, if you go too quickly.
Why are you here so early? Won’t you get even angrier?
Well, I’m not sure what my mom thinks.
Because I wasn’t originally a good son.
I’m going to hold out here as long as I can.
later.
I guess I should go and show my face slowly like an unfilial son.