Time Mansour - Chapter 81
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Episode 81: I feel suffocated
The night was deep.
The wine in the glass disappeared without a trace.
Before I knew it, clear soju had taken its place.
The drinking party that started out lightly gradually became longer.
Everyone’s eyes are already half-open.
I’m also just getting a little tipsy.
I made a light joke to this manager.
“Mr. Director Lee, please eat some more. Even conglomerates need to eat to survive.”
“Please. Stop talking about that damn conglomerate.”
“Hey. Why don’t you call a conglomerate a conglomerate?”
“What about the chaebol? Youngjun, that’s what you say when you treat people like chauffeurs.”
I couldn’t find the principal, and instead I heard a word.
“No. I’m sorry about that. You know that. I really didn’t mean it that way.”
He played a prank recklessly and then apologized several times afterwards.
Still half serious, half joking.
Director Lee, who is expressing his regrets about me.
I quietly listened to the director’s tongue-twisting pronunciation.
“Please give me a bottle. I’ll pour it.”
Since there was no sign of it ending, I grabbed the bottle of alcohol for now.
The bottle of liquor is tilted to one side.
While the soju glass was being filled with alcohol.
This manager still looks at me as if he resents me.
I glanced at the agent with a helpful look.
The accomplice, Dae-ri, avoids my gaze and looks elsewhere.
It was Manager Chae who first brought up this story of driving a truck.
Then maybe you can help me out a bit.
The deputy did not move at all.
With my head down, I rummage through the cold food for no reason.
We’re just looking at each other like that.
widely.
The soju in the director’s glass was emptied, and his chopsticks touched the side dish.
And then the director looks at Manager Chae.
“Mr. Chae, do you have any brothers?”
“It’s the same as the director. I have one older brother. But after getting married, we hardly ever contact each other.”
“I’m jealous. I’m jealous. I don’t want to have any contact with that either.”
At the director’s words, Manager Chae made an embarrassed expression.
Because that person represents his own company.
Because it is inevitable that Manager Chae will be in a difficult position.
“You always say that. But you two are on good terms.”
So I answered instead.
“It’s good. But we get angry just by looking at each other’s faces.”
Although I spoke harshly.
A gentle smile appeared on the director’s face.
More than the fact that this director’s older brother is the CEO.
I was just more envious of the friendly siblings.
When I look at the two of them, I can’t help but think of my older sister.
What did I call my older sister? I didn’t say that. I didn’t even have a title to call her. I didn’t think it was necessary to call her that in the first place.
So the guilt remained in my heart like a lump. It was the legacy my sister left me. It was the last gift I had to cherish and live with for the rest of my life.
My heart ached as if it was wounded. My hand naturally reached for the soju glass. After disinfecting the wound in my heart, I was frowning deeply.
moment.
“Let’s get up now. The driver has to drive tomorrow too.”
The director smiled and stood up from his seat.
He pretends to stagger and tidy up.
He laughs blandly, like a flat carbonated beverage.
“I’ll take care of it. You go in and rest, sir.”
“Okay. The director and I will do it.”
He pushed the director’s back and sent him back to his room.
like that.
I do the final cleanup with Agent Chae. I pour the remaining alcohol into the sink. I gather the food waste to one side. Then I separate the trash.
Suddenly.
Can I be this happy?
Are you qualified to do that?
Suddenly, that thought occurred to me.
‘I guess you drank too much.’
I guess I’m a little drunk today.
**
The next day.
I checked out of my accommodation and boarded the van.
11:30.
I left slowly as I had filled my check-out time.
That means.
They say the kids are in great shape.
I slept well the night before, so my eyes were wide open.
so.
“Wow!!”
“Sir! Hurry up!”
The back seat is too noisy.
There has never been a greater chaos than this.
“Sir, another song! Something exciting. Change it. Change it.”
“Teacher. The singing is too. Please turn up the volume.”
And just because I was in the passenger seat.
I was left with the remote control of a karaoke room.
The back row is practically a concert hall.
Ignoring pitch and rhythm.
Children who scream only while being true to their emotions.
The journey is not over yet.
I glanced at the children through the rearview mirror, trying their best to enjoy themselves until the end.
While I was browsing through my playlist on my phone.
suddenly.
“Youngjun. You worked hard until the end.”
The director blurts out a word.
At those words, I turn my head and look at Director Lee.
“No. This manager is working hard. Thank you. Thanks to you, the kids and I can play comfortably.”
“Thank you. We all had fun together.”
Director Lee smiling as he turns the steering wheel.
There was still a smile on his lips.
‘I’m glad everyone had fun.’
Manager Chae was singing with the children in the backseat.
“Director, please make the next song a ballad.”
It was a trip that wasn’t particularly special.
Still, it seems like everyone leaves with good memories.
I didn’t feel too bad.
“Director Jeong. It’s a ballad. A ballad. What kind of ballad is this?”
“Sister, you’re right. Mister. Hurry up, hurry up. Change the song.”
Except I became a karaoke remote control.
**
Traveling is fun, though.
It’s that tiring.
Maybe that’s why.
After going out to play, the time spent resting at home gradually increased.
For several days now, I’ve only come out of my sister’s room when I order delivery.
There were delivery containers stacked on top of each other on the desk.
My life has become more intensely lazy.
so.
“I feel like I’m going to throw up.”
I felt sick.
My cough hasn’t gone away for several days.
I don’t even know how long it’s been since I last threw up with my mind at ease.
Flush the toilet and rinse your mouth roughly.
Since I ate and just lay down the whole time, it was a natural result.
‘Why can’t people live lying down?’
I lay in bed, retching at the mold.
When people are born, they are born lying down.
When you die, you die lying down.
Why can’t we live life lying down?
“···”
As I thought about that, I suddenly felt a sense of self-loathing.
Thinking is increasingly moving away from the category of human beings.
I was living almost like an animal.
Gradually sinking into a lazy lifestyle.
‘Oh my. I feel even more dizzy because I’m just lying down.’
I try to exhale, but I burp. I feel like something is stuck in my throat. My chest just keeps feeling tight.
After lying there for a while with that frown on his face.
This won’t work. I’ll have to go out and walk around.
I feel like I’ll sag more if I keep lying down.
I steeled my resolve and got up from my seat.
**
I was definitely going to go for a walk.
That resolution didn’t last long.
Before I knew it, I had quietly entered the cafe.
Because it gave me a good excuse to contact Siriu.
-We are planning to switch to Kubernetes this time. Is there anything we should be careful about?
As technology advances, there is more work for people to do.
Things that we would never have thought of in the past have become essential as technology has advanced.
Once the operating environment is set up with Kubernetes, other tasks can be performed while in the live state.
So one of the biggest advantages of Kubernetes was that it could perform maintenance without shutting down the server.
-Do you… really have to do that?
-Yeah. These days, everyone is switching.
-It won’t be easy to operate, they say it’s automated. It actually requires a lot of work.
It seemed like Thai people were just following the trend rather than making the switch because they absolutely had to.
So I debated whether I should stop it or not, but I eventually gave up. Well, it wasn’t a bad thing in the long run.
And most importantly, it didn’t seem like he would listen even if I tried to stop him.
-Then, let’s start by selecting people. I heard there’s been some investment recently.
-That’s true. Do we even have to hire separate professionals?
-Uh. Pick someone who knows how to work with clouds and development.
-Okay. We’ve gotten some investment recently, so things have gotten a little better. I think we’ll be able to hire more people.
-That’s good. But it seems like the market share has increased. How are the sales?
-We haven’t turned a profit yet, but the flow is good. Sales are steadily increasing.
He tries to answer, then frowns again.
He covered his mouth with one hand and spat out his grievances.
Looking at the small screen of my phone gives me a headache again.
After calming down by staring into space for a while, I picked up my phone again.
– Right. We’re going public next year. Just so you know.
-Then can I sell it as soon as I receive the dividend?
I asked as a joke. Honestly, I had no intention of selling it, but I was just joking around to see what people’s reactions would be.
-Never sell it. You’ll regret it. It will go up ten or twenty times in a few years.
As expected, the answer came with confidence.
And then send a smiling emoticon like usual.
Confidence that you will definitely succeed.
That’s amazing.
I hope that my Thai friends’ businesses will be successful, if only because of their confidence.
If you fail, the loss will be indescribable.
“···”
No. Who am I worried about now?
I feel like I’m going to die right now.
I was about to reply, but then I started vomiting again, so I quickly headed to the bathroom.
It really isn’t easy to live lazily.
With that thought in mind, I hold on to the toilet bowl tightly.
**
Summer is almost over.
The holidays are getting ready to leave.
Class is over now.
He rests his chin on his hand and looks around at the children.
Sohyun sleeping in one corner.
In fact, I had already given up on Sohyun from the second week.
The skill gap between Junwoo and Sohyun was so great that there was no way to keep them together.
Perhaps next time I teach a class, I will have to figure out how to bridge this gap.
I also felt sorry for Sohyun. She would come here every day and just sleep before leaving.
I looked at Sohyun with a sad heart.
“Teacher, I’m done.”
I turned my head at Junwoo’s voice.
“all right.”
I answered, got up from my seat, and went to Junwoo’s seat.
I saw Da-eun, who was sitting next to me, playing with her cell phone.
He wasn’t originally like this.
I feel like I can’t concentrate today.
Because I was wondering what was going on.
“What’s going on?”
I asked Da-eun cautiously.
“Uncle. Uncle. Dad… Dad….”
Suddenly, Da-eun’s voice starts to tremble.
I could tell what he was going to say even before he finished speaking.
Da-eun’s eyes become moist. She can’t continue speaking and just continues to sob.
“What’s wrong? Are you okay?”
“Dad, he’s awake. Daddy, he’s awake. Daddy, he’s awake…”
Da-eun keeps repeating the same thing.
They were tears of joy.
Sadly, seeing her crying, I quickly took out a tissue and gave it to Da-eun.
Da-eun wets the tissue with tears.
‘··· I guess it’ll be okay.’
It’s definitely a good thing.
A part of my chest felt uncomfortable.
Is it because the body temperature remains?
I felt suffocated.
Unfortunately, reality was not a drama.
Because I’m in and out of the hospital more often than other people.
So I knew all too well what happened to people who woke up from a vegetative state.
Is this an incredible miracle or the beginning of another misfortune?
After all, it’s up to the person receiving it.
like that.
Looking at Da-eun’s face crying with a happy expression.
I find myself smiling bitterly without realizing it.
My head was a little complicated.