Transformation or Death - Transformation or Death chapter 270

270 – Storm (9)

Otonashi Haru and White Dabih are famous.

The name is known all over the world, including Japan and Korea. She is a famous person that everyone who is interested in magical girls knows.

That reputation was not earned through skill.

Magic, personality, words and actions, even appearance. Everything about her was unique.

Uniqueness brings people together, in a good or bad way.

Whether she liked it or not, Haru was a girl who couldn’t help but attract people’s attention.

The #1 magical girl who has a bad feeling about magic.

The most psychopathic magical girl.

The #1 magical girl who doesn’t want to be rescued.

In unofficial popularity polls, both at home and abroad, her name was always mentioned in first place or at the top when there was a negative or unusual section.

People called her a freak.

In reality, she was a weirdo.

Also, that peculiarity was innate.

However, I don’t know if that innate peculiarity is genetic or if it is her own unique trait.

Haru does not know his parents.

Not only Haru herself, but no one knows her parents.

Haru Otonashi is a girl who grew up in an orphanage since she was a baby.

It is surprisingly not a widely known fact that she came from an orphanage.

When Haru occasionally makes an extreme statement, the extreme profanity in the comments is evidence of this.

If I knew that my parents weren’t there, I would refrain from swearing like that no matter how anonymous it was.

Actually, I don’t really care. To be precise, it’s closer to not being interested in each and every swear word.

Even if you hear that they don’t know about you and are swearing at you…

-‘Why don’t you know? ‘Since I came here, I’ve often seen posts about people doing heartless things, so I thought I knew everything.’

With that attitude, I’ll just brush it off.

Anyway, she is from an orphanage.

It’s not a very rare case. In this era where it is difficult to take care of oneself, the lump of responsibility that comes from enjoying a little deviation is easily thrown away.

You were lucky if you ended up in an orphanage instead of dying on the streets.

However, his innate uniqueness, which made him unsuited to interacting with numerous other people, was a misfortune in orphanage life.

She didn’t know why she was different from others.

No one told because no one knew.

Because I didn’t know, I didn’t know how to fix it, and because I didn’t know, it stayed the same. The specificity continued for several years without correction.

Uniqueness attracts people’s attention and at the same time creates a certain sense of distance. Just as she is a human being who feels rejected by beings who are different from herself, she is the same person on the outside but is so different on the inside that she cannot get closer to others as if there is a wall between them.

There was no bullying. However, he was secretly neglected by his daycare teacher and other children his age.

It wasn’t because they were particularly evil.

The number of orphans that arose due to the chaos of the Monster Era could not be covered by a few daycare teachers, and children who were simply neglected rather than full-blown bullies were insignificant compared to the various problems that occurred in orphanages every day.

Also, the children of the same age at the orphanage didn’t particularly hate Haru and ostracized him. Even if you say the same thing, the meaning is different, and if you make a joke, violence without hesitation under the pretext of a joke will come back.

During a snowball fight, he would stab the opponent in the eye as if it were his way to victory, so even if I wanted to get close to him, I couldn’t get close to him because I was scared.

No one was looking for her, and even if she approached them first, they avoided her, so Haru naturally became alone.

In the past, I asked teachers how to become friends, why that child is crying, or what fun that game is, but now they are tired and give half-hearted answers.

So she stayed close to books and the Internet.

If you couldn’t get close to a real person, you could meet virtual people and electronic people.

One day, I especially liked comic books and anonymous community bulletin boards where provocative stories were shared.

There I learned how to interact with people that I had not learned from teachers and friends.

As time passed, Haru’s expressions became more exaggerated and extreme.

Every time that happens, people move away, delve into the virtual world again, and their expressions become worse.

As the years passed, she developed an irreversible and unusual speaking habit.

In addition, we have become irrevocably alienated from the sensibilities of ordinary people.

I didn’t think anyone could handle a day of mind modification with comics and the Internet. Even Haru himself.

At this point, I was convinced. I’m the kind of person who can’t get close to other people. I was curious about what it felt like to be in solidarity with people who appear in comics, but I was convinced by the reality.

Something happened that forced her to mingle with people.

In the spring when I was fourteen, Haru became a magical girl.

And for the first time, he met the person who approached him.

Gray Sadalsud.

She is 5 years older than Haru and became a magical girl 3 years earlier.

The reason it came was simple.

-‘You stay close to me from now on.’

-‘Why should I do that?’

-‘Georgie directly by my side.’

There was no need to worry about the day, so I rolled up my arms to correct my etiquette.

Whatever the reason, she was the first person that Haru could remember to actively approach him, and as a result, it had the effect of increasing Haru’s social skills.

-‘You really are the person I created.’

Gray lived by those words.

It was true. After meeting her, her day became a little more human.

-‘You shouldn’t have said that in an interview just one day. ‘It’s not polite to your seniors.’

-‘why? They told me to be honest.’

-‘But you could have expressed it a little differently.’

-‘Oh, that’s all a lie.’

-‘That’s called courtesy, not deception. Manners to be observed in society.’

-‘Everything like manners is hypocrisy!’

-‘Haru, please know that the reason I’m not killing you right now and keeping you alive is because of social courtesy.’

She pointed out Haru’s mistakes one by one and made him correct them.

I didn’t fix the parts I didn’t understand until the end, but I was able to fix the parts I did understand.

-‘You’re not strange. ‘I just didn’t learn it.’

One day while working with Gray, I realized something about myself that I didn’t even know I had.

It turned out that Haru was a person who was more prone to loneliness than expected, and that he was a person who always wanted to be around people if he had the chance.

She just has different sensitivities than others; she feels sad and happy the same way, likes delicious ice cream the same way, and laughs together when she sees something funny.

Gradually, Haru became more like a person.

It was probably thanks to Gray, who helped and taught Haru no matter how many accidents she had.

The only time she gave up for the day was when she talked about her parents.

-‘Why can’t I just throw it away? That monster cannot be defeated. It’s a retreat.’

Haru and Gray had only discussed their parents once.

-‘Are you serious…?’

One day, the hospital was occupied by an attack by an S-class monster.

The monster was so strong that most of the magical girls who were dispatched were repulsed.

Also, unfortunately, the hospital they were trying to protect collapsed in the process.

The monster had collapsed the building while venting his anger.

-‘Are you telling me to leave my parents and run away?’

The more unfortunate news was that Gray’s parents were inside the collapsed hospital.

She ignored Haru’s suggestion to retreat and charged at the monster.

“After that, I didn’t talk to anyone who had parents. “There is prejudice.”

One day, I couldn’t understand Gray attacking someone who was clearly going to die for his parents who were clearly dead.

“whatever….”

Amundsen, who brought up the story of the orphanage for no reason and listened to the day’s life for a long time, answered indifferently.

“So what happened to that kid named Gray?”

“Why are you asking? “Do you have a mental illness?”

“This fucking thing is really….”

Amundsen got irritated and threw up his hands.

“it’s okay. “I’m not curious.”

“Oh really? But what can I do? “I will tell you.”

One day he spoke calmly.

“He died.”

“I guess that monster was quite strong?”

“no? Gray Senpai defeated that monster.”

“Then what is it?”

“I killed him.”

Amundsen fell silent for a moment at that confession.

‘…What is it, showing off?’

Is it something like solving old murder stories in prison? Amundsen was so confused that he couldn’t even curse and just stared at Haru.

“Oh, that’s right, when I go to Japan, I was planning to go to my orphanage with my owner… What is this? “Everything is ruined because of you!”

“…Is this the end of the story about Gray?”

“Then is there anything else to do?”

Haru asked with pure eyes that didn’t contain any doubt.

Seeing that innocent gaze, Amundsen felt like an idiot for trying to ask questions for no reason, and was embarrassed that people were curious about that story, so Amundsen kept his mouth shut again.

“Ugh, I got caught by some really orphans and broke my promise… Ugh, ugh.”

One day, he continued to sigh and glare at Amundsen.

“I have a lot to tell you about when I return to my hometown….”

“No, I think you’d better keep your mouth shut.”

Children cry when they hear about the murder.

Aren’t criminals usually prohibited from accessing nearby children’s facilities? Is it okay to let that thing move around as it pleases?

Amundsen looked down at the day in awe.

“Now it’s your turn.”

“Fuck you.”

As if this was any improvement, I even felt respect for that magical girl named Gray.

“What’s your turn?”

“It’s a story about your life. “Did you plan on leaving me here and just being bored like this?”

“The hostage is your boss, you fucking dog….”

Amundsen sighed and crossed his arms. He had no reason or loyalty to reveal his life story.

But maybe it was because he wondered why he had boarded this ship just before that. After a few seconds of silence, Amundsen opened his lips.

“I, like you, came from an orphanage. and….”

The past came to mind. Numerous scenes from my long, sometimes heavy, and sometimes light life came to mind and replayed in my mind.

It was a quick flashback. There were a lot of things that came to mind, but there were few things that I could say.

“I am….”

What should I say first?

After much deliberation, what Amundsen said was a short word.

“I was a kid who wanted to go on adventures.”

That was his life.

Amundsen glanced at the sky. The sun was setting. Watching the sun fall from above to the bottom of the sky gave me a great sense of aesthetic satisfaction.

“I’m still doing that now.”

“What kind of adventure is it to live as a subordinate? “If you want to take risks, you have to do a coup.”

“Damn.”

Yes, I am already on an adventure now. I have friends, nice scenery, and dreams. So I’m happy.

Amundsen thought this and closed his eyes.

Even though it was concluded, the uncomfortable feeling still did not go away.

**

The night after my date with Mitsuki.

Han Jaejoong collapsed on the bed.

I was very sleepy even though it wasn’t time to sleep yet. Intense fatigue pressed down on my body like a blanket. I was only tired today, so in a way, it was natural.

Just before I fell asleep, I heard someone pounding on the door with great force.

“What really….”

When I opened the door with a half-asleep body, there was Baek A-hee, breathing hard with an excited face.

I could feel the heat, probably because I had been training just before. I was so drenched in sweat that I wanted to tell him to take a shower right away.

“Is this real?!”

Baek Ah-hee suddenly thrust the smartphone screen toward his face.

On the screen, a post posted on a domestic community titled ‘Silver Luna’s dating suspicions…’ was visible.

“I was already so tired because of that….”

Han Jaejoong frowned and touched his forehead as if he was bored.

“Jaejoong has an older sister, Sirius! “This is a betrayal…”

“Yeah, that’s right, I’m an asshole. It’s a dog. ”

Han Jaejoong muttered in a tired tone and turned around as if to come in. Baek A-hee followed behind him as he walked toward the sofa, closing the door behind him.

There was a feeling of anxiety within him.

This is because Han Jaejoong did not deny it.

“Are you really dating me…? “Perhaps an affair…”

“It’s not like that. I’m not dating. “Those crazy sisters would never have guessed that they had caught a reporter…”

When Baek Ah-hee asked anxiously, the answer was immediately negative.

“I’m a little tired today too… Is it okay if we talk tomorrow?”

Han Jaejoong sat down on the sofa. The reason I didn’t lie down was because I had self-control because I had guests. He felt like he wanted to lie down right now.

Normally, I wouldn’t have been able to ignore Baek Ah-hee like this, but today I was so tired.

I had a lot to think about and didn’t get much sleep.

Right up until the moment, he was harassed by Yoon Seol-hwa and Jo A-yoon who asked him if the dating rumor was real, and he was told to be careful by both the Japanese and Korean headquarters, so he was completely out of his mind.

More than anything, Mitsuki’s confession confused me.

Han Jaejoong closed his eyes as if he was tired.

Just fall asleep….

“So no one has had an affair yet?”

“What do you mean, Ahee?”

I woke up to a very shocking statement.

Han Jae-joong opened his eyes and glared at Baek A-hee.