Transformation or Death - Transformation or Death chapter 277

277 – Life and Death (6)

Jo Ayun gritted her teeth in anxiety as she watched Red Vega become the Red Team in an instant.

‘It’s because of me…’

That was Jo Ayun’s misunderstanding and it was also the correct answer.

Originally, Baek Ah-hee was a person who would not turn into a monster no matter how corrupt she was. Monsters are beings that feed on human malice. In order to cause monster anger, she needed to harbor strong malice.

Baek Ah-hee was a person who, before harboring malice, turned that malice into fighting spirit. His innate nature was far from being a monster.

Therefore, it would be a lie to say that the influence of Odette’s magic was not the cause of her experiencing transformation into a monster that she would not have experienced in the first place.

However, it would be absurd to say that her transformation into a monster was entirely Jo Ayun’s fault.

Her magic is to create possibilities so that impossible dreams can come true.

In other words, it only opens a path to achieve that dream, but even the person who used the magic does not know the contents of that path.

If any magical girl was to become a monster, Silver Luna or Magenta Helios would have to be affected as well. But they were peaceful, without any disturbance.

This is because monsterization is just one of countless possibilities that many people can experience, and is not a process that they will necessarily experience.

Baek Ah-hee’s transformation into a monster was largely due to her own fault, and secondly, it was an unexpected situation caused by a combination of unusual circumstances.

A monster always harbors malice towards someone. Baek A-hee was no exception.

Love changes people. That power, which is hotter than any other emotion, changes people more than any other emotion. It makes a courageous person shy, a wise person foolish, and a cunning person pure.

Before she met Han Jaejoong, she would not have harbored malicious intent, but now she knows how to harbor malicious intent. After she witnessed Han Jaejoong’s death, she realized it painfully. I know how scary the sadness that comes from her love is and how heavy the anger is.

Now, Baek Ah-hee harbors malice that comes from love.

That direction was not from others but from myself.

Self-loathing so intense that it turns into a monster.

It was seething inside her now.

The causes of self-loathing are varied.

While everyone was trembling in fear of being brainwashed, I envied Jo Ayun, who confidently came to her senses on her own even after being brainwashed, and was jealous at the same time. He felt ashamed of himself for only hating and not wanting to get better. As he thought that there was no way Han Jaejoong could love him, let alone the citizens, he became more depressed.

She wanted to protect and achieve peace and love with all her being, but it was clear that the subject of that peace and love would not accept her.

It was unrequited love. This unrequited love ate away at Baek A-hee like a bad fever.

Gradually, only the pitiful parts of myself came into view. Baek Ah-hee hated everything she saw that way. She hated it. She had countless reasons to hate herself.

I have a grand dream, but I haven’t achieved anything yet. I get jealous of people who are better than me, and even though I’m jealous, I can’t get better. I have flaws in many things. I act like I’m honest, but in the end, I’m cunning, and even now, I’m holding back miserable tears. During the process, blood came out from my clenched lips, my body got burnt because I used fire magic, the flames damaged the ends of my hair, my clothes became dirty, blood and sweat stuck to my skin, and the wounds were exposed to the air. It hurts to touch it, it smells like the sea, the wind is sticky, and my cold and tired arms and legs are shaking.

Even the smallest, most insignificant detail became a cause for hatred.

On top of the evil formed in that way, brainwashing to be on the monster’s side was added.

The seed of greed that makes you a member of the Argo. A hint that makes you want the world itself. Its power was effective for the greedy as it made them long for something abstract and, above all, something huge called the world.

The brainwashing worked effectively on the current Baek Ah-hee, as she has a grand purpose of protecting world peace and has an unstable mind.

The person who knew this better than anyone else was Baek Ah-hee herself. She felt an even stronger sense of self-destruction at the sight of herself falling for her brainwashing.

In addition, there was also the influence of the abilities of Nautius, the monster of the southern Pisces constellation.

His ability is to deceive, and since that ability is an ability, it can also cause magical girls to become monsters.

Gray was also continuously exposed to his abilities during the fight and suffered transformation into a monster.

Baek A-hee this time was also similar. My already unstable mind became even more unstable due to the enemy’s abilities.

In a word, Baek Ah-hee’s monster transformation was a miraculous product created by combining the magic of possibility that makes the impossible disappear, an unstable ego, and the brainwashing power of the enemy.

‘Fucking double b*tch.’

For Jo Ayun, it was either a miracle or something, but it was just shit.

“You crazy b*tch, what did you do!”

“I didn’t do it!”

Jo Ayun sharply shot at Orange Altair, who was criticizing him. He felt remorse, but it was obvious that if he admitted it here, his trust as a leader would be ruined.

‘No, why is he being such a jerk?’

Maybe it’s because you’re young, but you know it’s time to wander, but it would be better to do it later when you’re done and you’re at peace. Why are you doing it now?

“Well, then at least move that b*stard! “Get that crazy b*stard away from us!”

“…that doesn’t work.”

Actually, I already tried it. But no matter how hard she tried, she only realized that no matter how much she moved him, she couldn’t escape.

The world they are in now, the Goldilocks Zone, belongs to Hercules.

Where he is is where the Goldilocks zone is.

Jo Ayun and other magical girls are in his Goldilocks zone, so even if they move him, they cannot escape him and his place.

It is the same as transferring a fish with parasites from an existing tank to another tank. If Hercules is a fish, the other people in the Goldilocks Zone are parasites inside the fish.

No matter how much you move it, its essence does not change.

However, we cannot retreat.

“I can’t leave that b*tch like that….”

The problem was Baek A-hee, who started to turn into a monster.

Taking her to the city is no different from releasing a monster into the city. If she abandons her and runs away, she gives her enemy one more of her unanswerable power.

It was the latter that had the potential to survive.

“…no. “I can’t throw it away.”

But I couldn’t abandon my dear younger brother just to survive. It was a matter of duty and ethics before reason.

Orange Altair held his head after hearing Odette’s firm refusal.

“If this continues, everyone will die!!!”

“Huh? Why do you die?”

White Davih tilted his head as he looked at Orange Altair screaming.

“If we hit that muscle b*stard, won’t we survive?”

That’s easier said than done. Everyone thought that way.

All suffered significant injuries as a result of Hercules’ attack.

You cannot move the enemy or escape directly.

Red Vega, the core force, has been retired due to being transformed into a monster. They never know when they might even turn into enemies and attack them.

Above all, the enemy is strong. Even if we gather the strength of everyone here, it would be difficult to block his single fist. A truly overwhelming difference in power.

Although the other members did not move to gather strength for Hercules, it was obvious that even if a few of them were missing, the power gap would still remain.

A fierce enemy who is said to be not only comparable to but even stronger than the beasts of the galaxy.

The situation is infinitely hopeless.

“It’s simple! If you win, you live, if you lose, you die. All you have to do is win!”

One day, he still spoke of victory.

If you live, there is a future. No one knows the future. What seems impossible at first glance may become possible. It may be worse, but it may also be better. How fun and exciting it is. Knowing something that no one else knows is exciting.

So, if you are alive now, you should try to keep living.

To find out about the many exciting and unexplored futures that will happen in the future.

But the moment you die, all possibilities are closed. It can’t be better or worse. That’s it. Nothing can be achieved.

That’s why Haru thought that for monsters, death was a good thing.

There is no need to be better or worse. They don’t need to change. Dying and not leaving any influence on this world is truly beneficial to the world.

“…white.”

“yes?”

“Are you going to kill Red even if he turns into a monster?”

Silver Luna asked.

“Uh… what should I do? “You’ve become a monster.”

White Davich nodded his head in the affirmative. Silver Luna smiled bitterly.

“Of course, like Gray Senpai, it would be best to get permission and kill him… but you can’t not kill him just because he didn’t give you permission.”

I remembered the moment just before Gray’s death. As she turned into a monster, she screamed in pain and appealed to White Davich to kill her.

But White Davih could not kill her. Because she was still human.

In the end, they were able to kill Gray only after he became a monster.

That day, White Davih learned for the first time that he could inherit the powers of the magical girl he had killed.

“But the current Jiknyeo is a human, so I won’t kill her. Rather, we should protect it.”

White Davih stood in front of Red Vega. She wrapped him around her as if protecting her from Hercules.

“That is correct.”

Odette nodded and stood next to White Davich.

“You really keep fighting…? “Are you sane…?”

“What can I do when there is no way? “If you’re a magical girl, risk your life too.”

“Why are you risking your life?”

Orange Altair, Silver Luna, and Magenta Helios also stood in front of Red Vega and blocked Hercules.

“We will come back alive.”

Hercules gazed solemnly at them.

“…i get it.”

He nodded so softly that his head was unrecognizable. Looking at the answers they gave, I confirmed them.

“The thought of his colleagues with respect is admirable. “It is even more admirable that we carry out our will without giving in to our dreams.”

Hercules clenched his fists.

“So, you will die with respect.”

It’s just one step forward. Still, he reached the boat from end to end. A speed similar to instantaneous movement.

His fist ripped through the air, emitting a roar.

Each gesture seemed to embody the concept of violence. A festival of destruction took place.

Baek A-hee saw Hercules’ fight with his colleagues in his blurred consciousness.

The sight of current colleagues fighting against an enemy that has now become a legend felt somewhat unrealistic. The magical girls I love so much are bleeding and dying. Still, it goes on. Even though he knows he won’t win, he doesn’t back down and fights.

Baek Ah-hee felt both resentful and relieved at the fact that she was not in that scene.

Gradually, my existence becomes smaller.

Hercules.

A rival to the longed-for Sky Polaris.

One of the main characters in the video I have been watching ever since I was young.

Whenever Baek Ah-hee was having a hard time or her will was about to break, she watched a video of the fight between Hercules and Sky Polaris. Since the video was secretly filmed by a civilian a long time ago, the video quality is low and the sound quality is broken, but the emotion is not lost in the slightest.

Although suffering, Sky Polaris continued to fight and eventually defeated Hercules.

Not giving up even in times of crisis and carrying out one’s will was a sublime beauty that went beyond expensive decorations or works of art.

Since then, Baek Ah-hee has continued to strive to become a magical girl like Sky Polaris.

To one day become the North Star for everyone.

I wanted to be more perfect than the girl who seemed perfect. She wanted to be special.

But that was just an illusion.

Even the girl who seemed perfect wasn’t perfect.

-‘Sky Polaris created a belt and controlled me.’

One day, Jaejoong Han said that she was the creator of the belt.

Perhaps it was because he didn’t want to break Baek Ah-hee’s illusion, or whether her existence was such a wound to Han Jae-joong that he was reluctant to talk about it, he hasn’t spoken since.

She was not unconditionally good. She was a villain to some, and she was someone who deserved resentment.

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There was no perfect person in this world.

‘But how can I become perfect?’

He suffered so many defeats that the undefeated legend he once dreamed of is now a distant dream that cannot even be imagined. As you got stronger, new stronger enemies appeared, rivals moved ahead, and no matter how much you chased after them, the distance continued to grow further.

If it couldn’t be a loving relationship, I wanted to at least have a relationship where we could trust, rely on, and compete with each other.

But in the end, it just became a burden.

How would Baek Ah-hee, who dreamed of becoming a magical girl in the past, react if she saw this?

‘You’ll be disappointed.’

But there is something unfair about her.

Too much has changed to recapture the pure dreams of the past. I got older, suffered many defeats, and learned new emotions that I didn’t know at the time.

As Han Jaejoong said, everything was bound to change.

We can’t go back to those days anymore.

We can never go back to the penniless days when we knew nothing and only dreamed.

‘…If I turn into a monster like this, I’ll be kicked out.’

Perhaps Han Jaejoong could personally exorcise it. Baek Ah-hee laughed as he thought of the sight of him fighting as an equal. He will be able to remain as a true rival until just before his death.

Baek Ah-hee also imagined what would happen after she died.

It was thrilling to think of Han Jaejoong crying while hugging his own dead body. I hope that the people who left behind will feel sad, regretful, and have a fever in their hearts. I hope it becomes a wound in his heart that will never go away and eat away at him. I hope he is shocked enough by his death to break off his engagement. It would be better if you visit your own grave once a year and reminisce about your memories.

But, I know I shouldn’t do that.

‘I like Jaejoong, who puts up a lot of effort for me.’

Because it’s not your dream.

‘Because I want to become a star, not a stone that fell and cooled.’

Because it’s already shining like a star inside.

No matter how bad, ugly and weak it is, the light has not disappeared yet.

The days of dreaming of perfection are over. He realized that even the people he admired were not perfect. There is no such thing as a perfect person in the world. No matter how special a being was, there were some common parts to it.

I can’t go back to those days anymore. You must not go back.

What you should aim for and admire is not a unique, perfect, and special being, but someone who will not give up no matter how many times you fall. Even if it was ugly, it was someone who had to get up from the dirt.

-‘Your actions, words, and even emotions are all yours.’

Han Jaejoong’s words came to mind.

‘You were right.’

Slowly the darkness disappeared from her.

‘It was all me, even my weakest parts.’

The blurry eyes became brightly colored.

‘I shouldn’t have looked away!’

Jealousy, inferiority complex, and misery.

‘I’m a greedy person.’

I didn’t want to give up anything.

The proud parts and the ugly parts were all his own. They were important parts of who he was. Jealousy was proof of love, and inferiority was proof that the passion of dreams had not yet died.

Baek Ah-hee moved forward.

I could see Silver Luna on the verge of collapsing from exhaustion. The state is so close that it is difficult to maintain transformation, let alone divinity. Her Hercules raised his fist to deliver the final blow to her.

Baek A-hee ran. The divinity has been turned off, and both stamina and magic power are low. She is also not in good condition, possibly due to the aftereffects of experiencing monster transformation. In his current physical condition, he cannot inflict any damage to Hercules. Conversely, his fists can easily take one’s life.

I’m afraid. But there is no reason not to act.

There is hope beyond fear.

“Red…?!”

Silver Luna and Hercules turned their attention to the suddenly appearing presence of Red Vega.

“Are you betraying me too? “I don’t understand.”

Hercules changed the direction of his fist. He waved his arm as if swatting away a fly. The resulting wind pressure hit Red Vega. His body felt heavy, as if he had been hit by a huge rock.

“Why do you insist on death?”

Although her lips were closed and she could not speak, Baek A-hee’s answer was the same.

‘Did you need a reason to save someone?’

There was no such reason. There was no need for special feelings to save someone.

It was the same for me too.

‘It should have been me who saved myself.’

Baek A-hee, who was flying in the air, fell. She received damage beyond her limit, and her transformation was canceled.

‘I had to affirm myself.’

There is no need for others’ approval. There is no need for other people’s opinions. If you really wanted something, you had to achieve it with all your might. Concession or specification? Since when have you been in such a relaxed position?

‘I had to recognize my own light.’

Before becoming a star for others, you had to become a star for yourself.

‘If I don’t have confidence, how can others trust me and feel safe?’

Equalize the ratio of love and peace?

‘How can he love me when I am ashamed of my love?’

The premise was wrong from the beginning.

There was no need for that.

There is no need for the slightest adjustment.

I will protect you with all my might and love you with all my might.

If you want everything with all your might without adding or subtracting anything, the balance will naturally be balanced accordingly.

Baek Ah-hee stumbled and stood up. Blood is flowing from all over her body and no part of her is healthy. Even the transformation was canceled.

Nevertheless, I rose up and saw an enemy I could not defeat.

There is no fear.

I was filled with only excitement about the challenge.

“My starlight is a comet.”

Just like making a wish when you wish for a shooting star to fall in the sky.

“A starlight that will reach someone’s heart like a comet.”

I want to be someone’s wish.

“No matter how much you fall!”

Round and round, Baek Ah-hee became her own wish.

“The light never loses!”

The wind blew with that cry. Her wind blew her around her. Light was carried by the wind. The light swirled. It trembled as if it might explode at any moment.

who are you

what are you

what will be

Baek Ah-hee asked herself a question.

“I’m Red Vega!”

Dreams and reality were mixed.

Magic and miracles are mixed.

Good and evil, beauty and ugliness were mixed.

A new possibility has been reached.

So, she became herself.

“It’s a magical girl!”

A special yet ordinary being.

Nevertheless, it is a shining being.

It will be a wish for everyone.

It will become a wish even for myself.

No matter how dark the night, it will be a light that tells you that there is hope.

The radiance that swirled with the girl’s reborn dream became a flash and spread far away.

It seemed like both birth and death.

No matter how much my mind changed, my dream did not change and was reborn and breathed.

It was birth and death.

It was a new light that transcended the precepts of life and death.

Supernova.

love and peace. A new power achieved by transcending all choices.

“that….”

Hercules frowned at the flash, which was so intense. The flash subsided and the person inside appeared.

“Like a comet, Red Vega appears in your heart!”

Red Vega, now in a new form, proudly appeared from within and placed his hand on his waist in a proud manner.

There is no hesitation for her now!

Along with the new powers, the clothing also changed.

The large ribbon and beautiful red jewels decorated between her neck and collarbone were still there. Instead, the lower part underwent many changes.

A white bikini that covered breasts that were just the right size, not too big or too small, and the red outline gave off a passionate feeling.

Two red straps across her waist accentuated her toned stomach, while a garter belt and white stockings accentuated her large, smooth thighs.

Her arms were covered by wide, fluttering, ornately designed arm sleeves, which stopped just at the shoulder, leaving her armpits clearly exposed.

Odette quietly looked at the changed Red Vega and muttered.

“What the fuck are you doing? Why are your clothes so messed up?”

The transformation suit was a transformation suit, and it looked like a transformation suit for losing during the day and winning at night.

“huh? Why are the clothes… aaa!!!!”

Red Vega slowly looked at himself and immediately sat down, wrapping his arms around his body.

All she had now was hesitation.