What the Hero Wanted Was Me - Chapter 29
Chapter 29
Chapter 29.
‘Why not me?’
It was a thought that came to my mind every time I saw Lenny.
Move, think, and live according to his words. The actions I’ve been doing for about 8 years have been made like that.
My number one priority was only Lenny’s words.
‘So, what do I get?’
Nothing, unfortunately, Lenny didn’t even give me that common compliment. Princess, she treats her like a meal.
Still, I persevered. You’ll reward me, you’ll take care of my first kiss. I was always living according to what Leni wrote in the letter, and the current situation was miserable.
‘Look at this, isn’t it pretty?’
Those were the words Sarah said as she showed the marks she left on her own neck. They are the marks from Lenny’s lust for her body last night during his intense relationship.
A red spot on the neck. Sara was showing it to me and talking. Because we are like this, there is no room for you.
What do you mean by 8 years? What could he say that he couldn’t do to me while doing something like that to Sera, whom he had just met?
Eren was sad. She is so terrified that Lenny, who knows her better than anyone else, has been taken away by Sera.
‘I liked it first.’
There is a saying that love is proportional to its speed. It’s a very sad saying that even if you try to reach your goal at high speed, the goal goes as far as you run.
Regarding the speed, winning love always depended on the heart of the target. Sometimes, very far. Sometimes, very close. Capriciousness was Lenny’s way of loving.
Lenny’s way only made Eren sad. Because her goal was too far for Eren. There was little reward, only pain.
“Why is he first?”
It wasn’t always me who reached the goal first. Seeing Eren like that, Sera said.
“Because you love me more, fool.”
Sera could speak confidently. The one who won the competition was me, Sera. That he was different from the elf who forcibly took Lenny’s virginity.
Sarah thought he had won Lenny in the end.
“Is that so, sir..?”
Eren was asking Lenny if she really loved Sarah more than herself. A period of eight years and a relationship of about one month. Eren, whom he loved with time, wiped away his tears and waited for Lennie to speak.
‘Why is the situation so twisted…’
I looked at Eren, blaming myself for my poor lower body last night.
His long black hair was scattered and fluttering, and the sides of his red eyes were red and swollen from tears. It looked like she had shed quite a few tears.
What should I say to Eren like that? If she told Eren that she loves you more, Sarah would go crazy.
I didn’t want any more fights because fighting with two reminded me of the fear of the original. I wanted to solve it through conversation as much as possible, so I decided to calm Eren down first.
“Eren, calm down first…”
“Again..?”
“Huh?”
Eren was looking at me as if he was fed up. Again, I didn’t understand what that meant, but after listening to Eren’s words, I found out.
“Are you going to scold me again?”
Eren pushed me with her tears dripping.
“I have to put up with Sianna’s mistakes because she’s a hero. Even if Sera’s made mistakes, she’s a warrior, so I have to put up with it. Why do I have to be scolded all the time?”
I was sick of it. The responsibility of being this hero. Lenny told me that I was a warrior every time I did something and forced me to take responsibility. That kind of life is not what I wanted.
“I wouldn’t be a hero if it was like this…”
Lenny’s actions for peace made Eren bear a huge responsibility. Without even that common compliment.
She had no reason to live as a warrior any longer, having lost Lenny, the reward for Eren’s small responsibility, to Sera.
“Where are you going, Eren!”
Eren turned behind her and walked out of her mansion.
‘Please don’t look for me’
After saying that, Eren disappeared right in front of my eyes.
Eren said that she wanted Lenny to follow her more than anyone else.
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‘Was it too hard…?’
Sarah felt a little guilty that her Eren had run away, but she still thought she was right.
Love is a struggle. To win. Because it was Sarah.
She thought it was right for the loser to walk behind her and exit.
“Deaconess, Eren went too, but we…”
“Wait, Sera.”
“Yes..?”
I let go of Sera’s arm that was holding me and Eren ran in the direction of her disappearance.
‘I thought wrong.’
Eren was a human before she was a hero. I was doing a bad thing to Eren, who had followed her without a word for eight years.
I felt ashamed that I was the butler in command of a mansion.
My actions in pursuit of peace gave Eren unnecessary responsibility. Could she be that Eren just wanted peace? It was all my greed.
The peace Eren thinks of her is that she lives happily ever after with the man she loves and has two children.
Each person had a different standard of peace, and even the warriors wanted ordinary peace.
‘I need to find Eren.’
And she had to tell her I was sorry. What i did wrong
“Uh..Where are you going..!”
Sarah called for Lenny to leave her and go to Eren, but he kept getting further away from her.
‘Why are you not looking at me?’
You loved me so much last night.
“Ah..Ahh..!”
Sera pretended to fall and fell to the floor. Lenny didn’t hear that sound and continued to move away from Sarah.
“…Why?”
Surely you made Lenny mine yesterday? Sera, who had the appearance of a loser sitting on the floor, had only questions in her mind.
“Whh..What happened..!?”
Laysha arrived late, but the situation had already been sorted out.
•••
I came out of the mansion and walked without getting into the carriage.
Because the mansion was on the outskirts of the city, it was close to the place where Eren was supposed to have fled.
‘I know the location.’
Eren’s resting place, which also appeared in the original work, was close to her mansion.
That was the reason why I chose this mansion on the outskirts of the city instead of buying a mansion in the center of the city.
‘Knowing this well. Fool.’
I blamed myself for not looking at her properly, knowing that her Eren had the space to escape her.
When did Eren say she wanted peace? I don’t remember the word peace ever coming out of Eren’s mouth.
I just subtracted 8 years of Eren’s time out of my greed for knowing the future and knowing the original story.
I was trash for never complimenting her on her like that.
‘Why did I do that…’
My motto in life is the old saying of no regrets. Now, I regret this situation very much.
I shouldn’t have done that. If you know everything. To treat Eren like this.
Eren sacrificed her own life on a par with me to bring peace to her common people.
Without expecting any reward, the reward was just the consideration of the emperor.
ㅡ Wow..
As I thought of Eren, I felt her air grow chilly. That feeling meant that I had arrived at Eren’s place.
The Imperial Cemetery. There is Eren in this place that exists on the outskirts of the city.
Eren’s happy memories of his childhood. Memories of happily eating with her family and falling asleep. The cemetery is the place to remember it. It was where her family was buried.
There are these words. To become a hero, tragedy must exist. Maybe it was because of the inevitable tragedy that she had to see her family die right in front of her eyes.
At a young age, Eren saw her family members brutally killed by robbers who broke into her home.
They viciously murdered her Eren and her family and showed her the process vividly.
Perhaps because of that, Eren’s eyes turned bright red and she was awakened as a hero. Due to the tragedy at her young age she was unable to handle it.
‘Keah!!’
Awakening her heroic power, Eren tore to pieces the robbers and killed them, inflicting hellish pain on them. To feel the pain for a very long time. At that time, Eren was 12 years old, and she was in the middle of playing outside.
‘…’
She went through that and mourned her family at her cemetery where she and her first met.
In that place, I set foot again to find Eren.
ㅡTurbug. Turbuck.
I could no longer feel the flow of time as I walked in the cold air.
There are many things that a graveyard symbolizes, but people in this world call a graveyard like this.
The road to regret.
In honor of those who have already died, a place where she regrets the mistakes and choices she made in the past.
In a way, it was the right place for me. The difference was that the subject was a living person.
One step, two steps.
With every step, I remembered the mistakes I had made to Eren.
The pain of her obsession with peace, the scars from her relationship with Sera, and the life of Eren, a human who only saw the title of warrior.
I tried to get them all back.
“…Eren.”
Then I saw Eren standing in front of her family’s tombstone. I remembered the first time we met, but we were quite different, and Eren, now grown up, started talking.
“You know me so well, how could you do that to me…?”
I did not deserve to be called her teacher by Eren.
“I’m sorry, Eren…”
I shed my first tear in this world.